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"The ship blew up," Percy said. "He wasn't destroyed. I don't know where—"
Silena Beauregard pushed through the crowd. Her hair wasn't combed. She wasn't wearing makeup, which wasn't like her. She looked around the clearing with frantic energy.
"Where's Charlie?"
The name came out raw. Like she'd been holding it the whole way here.
Percy looked at Chiron. Helplessly. Chiron cleared his throat. "Silena, my dear," he said, carefully, "let's talk about this at the Big House —"
"No." The word came out quiet. Then again, quieter. "No." And then once more, barely a sound at all. "No."
Clarisse came into view, her arms already around Silena. Her jaw was set. Her eyes were doing something she would never have allowed them to do in any other circumstance.
"But there was a plan," she said. Her voice came out rough, scraped thin. "Was he in the ship when it blew up?"
Annabeth reached Percy's side. Her fingers closed around his — both hands, her grip firm. Then he noticed the wince. Small. Controlled. The kind she'd been trained to suppress and almost managed to. Her free hand drifted to her side, just briefly, before she caught herself and dropped it.
"You're hurt." It came out before he'd decided to say it. His eyes moved over her — looking for the rest of it, cataloguing, the automatic assessment of someone who had spent years checking Annabeth Chase for damage she wouldn't volunteer.
"I'm fine." Flat. Immediate.
"That looks like more than a bruise."
"It's a bruise, Percy."
"Annabeth —"
Her grip on his hands tightened. "Tell us everything that happened," she said. Her voice was steady. Working very hard to stay that way.
Percy looked at her — at the set of her jaw, at the hand she'd stopped herself from pressing to her side, at the brown eyes holding his with the focused, braced attention of someone standing at the edge of something they couldn't take back once they heard it. Percy looked at Silena. At Clarisse's arms around her. At the faces of the campers gathered in the quiet, all of them holding the same suspended breath.
He told them everything.
All of it. The Princess Andromeda. The plan. The look Beckendorf had given him before he had gone over the side.
Go.
He told them that part too.
When he finished, the clearing was the quietest it had been all morning. Silena made a sound that wasn't a word. Clarisse's arms tightened around her and she said nothing, because there was nothing to say, because some things didn't have a sentence that fit them.
Percy held Annabeth's hands and stared at the ground and tried to remember how to be in his body.
Percy sat in his cabin, Rachel's face shimmering in the iris-message in front of him.
He'd just finished telling everyone at camp what had happened. His legs hadn't fully forgiven him for it yet — they felt like they might give out if he stood up too fast, which he had no plans to do anytime soon.
"He's just —" Rachel stopped. Started again. "Gone?"
Shock and disbelief, lacing every word. She'd seen Beckendorf hours ago. And now Percy was sitting here telling her he wasn't coming back, and the gap between those two things — hours ago and never again — was not a gap that made sense.
"Yeah," Percy said.
Rachel went quiet.
Annabeth and the other counselors were at the Big House. He knew that. He'd wanted to stay, wanted to sit in, wanted to do something useful with the wreckage of the last several hours. But the longer he stayed at camp, surrounded by the weight of what had happened and what was still coming, the more he could feel himself unraveling at the edges. He needed something normal. Something that reminded him the rest of the world still existed and wasn't on fire.
So, he'd iris-messaged Rachel.
"I'm sorry, Percy," she said. Genuine.
He looked at his hands. He'd been rubbing them together without realizing it, working the skin raw. He made himself stop.
Rachel's invitation surfaced in the back of his mind. St. Thomas. Four days. The words had seemed abstract when she'd said them — the kind of thing that existed in a different universe, the universe where Percy Jackson got to go on vacation instead of to war.
He ran a hand through his hair. Looked up. "So about that invitation," he said.
Rachel blinked. Then something in her face shifted — hopeful. "Yeah. Four days." A small, tentative almost-smile. "Long Island. Movie rentals. A couple of frozen pizzas."
Percy thought about it.
He thought about camp behind him — the damage, the planning, the conversations happening right now at the Big House without him. He thought about Beckendorf. He thought about the nausea that had been sitting in his chest since the ship went up.
He thought about how monsters had been using him as a punching bag for years. How he hadn't had a week — a day — that belonged entirely to him in longer than he could remember. How the mortal world still existed, still had frozen pizzas and bad movies and ordinary things, and sometimes you needed to be reminded of that or you forgot what you were fighting to protect.
"I think I need that," he said. His voice came out rougher than he intended. Less certain than he wanted it to be.
Rachel looked at him. "Then come," she said simply.
Percy stared at the floor of his cabin. The guilt was still there. It would probably be there the whole time. But underneath it, quieter and more honest — he was so tired.
A throat clearing cut through his stare.
Connor Stoll was standing at the cabin door, one hand on the frame, taking a careful peek inside like he wasn't entirely sure what he was walking into.
"Percy?" Tentative. "Am I interrupting something?"
Percy looked at him. Shook his head. Looked back at Rachel. "I've got to go," he said.
Rachel's expression settled into something quiet and understanding. "Yeah. No problem." A pause. "Take care of yourself, Percy."
"You too."
The iris-message dissolved. The rainbow scattered and was gone, and Percy was left standing in his cabin with the silence and Connor Stoll and the general ongoing weight of everything that had happened in the last several hours.
He rubbed his face with both hands. Scrubbed hard, like he could reset something. Then he dropped them, straightened up, and turned to face Connor.
Connor looked like he'd rehearsed something on the way over and had already abandoned it.
"Is there a monster that needs killing?" Percy asked. "Because I've had a really long day and I'd prefer if the answer was no, but knowing this camp —"
"No monster," Connor said quickly. "No monster. Just — Annabeth sent me."
Percy was confused. Why couldn't she call me herself, he thought.
He turned it over. It wasn't a big deal. It wasn't. Annabeth relayed messages through people all the time — she was efficient, she was practical, she didn't waste steps when someone else was already going in the right direction.
It was completely fine.
She sent Connor Stoll.
Connor, who was currently standing in his doorway with the look of someone who knew more than he was saying and was enjoying it enormously, which was just — Connor's whole personality, so that meant nothing. That was not evidence of anything.
She couldn't walk twenty feet and knock on the door herself.
He was simply noting, as a completely objective observation. That was all.
That was the entire thing.
"I bumped into her," Connor said. "She was walking away from your cabin. Didn't really explain why. Just said —" he shrugged — "tell him we need him at the Big House." He paused. "She looked like she had somewhere else to be. Fast."
"Walking away?"
"Yeah." Connor leaned against the doorframe. "Away. As in the direction that is not toward."
Percy replayed the last ten minutes in his head. The iris-message. Rachel's face shimmering in the light. The conversation. That conversation — so about that invitation and I think I need that and Rachel's name said out loud, more than once, in a cabin with apparently catastrophic soundproofing —
Oh no.
She heard me talking to Rachel.
"How long was she outside?" Percy asked.
"I didn't ask," Connor said, with the serenity of a person who had decided this was absolutely not his problem.
Percy stared at the open door. At the path beyond it. At the direction Annabeth had apparently walked, without knocking.
Oh no.
The Big House was loud and close. Campers loitered everywhere — armor on, weapons in hand, the particular restless energy of people who had been told to wait and were not built for waiting.
Percy scanned the room. Found her immediately.
Annabeth was sitting with the Athena campers, her back straight, her eyes forward, her expression doing the thing it did when she was working very hard to look like she wasn't doing anything in particular. There was an open chair to her left.
She looked up when he walked in. Their eyes met — one second, maybe less — and then she looked away. Turned to the camper beside her and said something, nodding along, engaged and attentive and completely absorbed in whatever was being discussed.
Percy had known Annabeth Chase for years. He knew what it looked like when she was absorbed in something. He knew what it looked like when she was pretending to be absorbed in something. The difference was subtle — barely anything, a fraction of a degree in the set of her jaw, a quality of deliberateness in where she was directing her attention — but it was there.
She'd heard the conversation.
He crossed the room, moved through the clusters of campers, and settled into the chair beside her. Close enough that their shoulders almost touched.
Annabeth kept nodding along to whatever her cabinmate was saying. The conversation reached its natural end, the camper turned away, and the noise of the room filled the gap.
She didn't fill it. She stared straight ahead. Not at him, not away from him — just forward, at nothing in particular, her hands folded in her lap, someone who had decided that they had nothing to say.
Percy sat with that for a moment.
The chair between them was three inches wide and felt considerably larger.
Percy cast around for anything. Any sentence. Any collection of words arranged in a reasonable order that could fill the silence without making it worse.
He cleared his throat. "Where'd you get that bruise?"
He heard it come out of his mouth. He assessed it. It was not a good conversation starter. It was, objectively, a mediocre one at best. But it was what he had, and the silence was becoming a physical presence at this point, so.
"Just from a quest," Annabeth said. Brief. Clipped. The conversational equivalent of a door opened three inches and no further. "Not a big deal."
"Right," Percy said. "Good. I mean — not good that you got hurt, obviously, but good that it's — not a big deal." He stopped talking.
Annabeth nodded once.
Percy nodded too, for no reason.
Then silence again. The same silence as before, back in its chair, completely unbothered by his attempt to evict it. Around them the Big House buzzed and murmured and went about its business, and Percy sat beside Annabeth and looked straight ahead and tried to think of a second question.
"You guys talked about plans?" Percy broke the silence. He was looking at her. "Strategies and all that?"
Annabeth nodded. Looking at her hands. Silent.
"Cool," Percy said. The word landed and just sat there, doing nothing useful. He had nothing to follow it with. The silence came back. Louder this time.
He cleared his throat. "Tell me where I can help."
Annabeth laughed. It was small and brief and almost completely humorless.
"And let you miss your vacation?"
Percy went still. She wasn't looking at him. Still hadn't looked at him since he'd sat down, not properly, not the way Annabeth looked at things she was actually seeing.
The room was full of noise — campers, plans, a camp preparing for war — and the two of them were sitting in the middle of it, three inches apart, in a silence that was somehow louder than all of it.
He didn't know what to say.
Which was the problem with Annabeth, sometimes, and also the thing about her he'd never been able to properly explain to anyone. Most situations Percy could move through on instinct — act first, figure it out, make it work. But Annabeth was different. Annabeth required the right words, and the right words had a way of disappearing entirely when he needed them most.
"Annabeth —" he started.
"You should grab your armor”, she cuts him off, “Chiron needs us at the clearing.”
Percy looked at the side of her face.
"Yeah," he said quietly. "Okay."
He faced forward.
The gap between their chairs had not gotten any smaller.