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Lan Wangji wakes to darkness and the slow, aching awareness of pain.
For a moment, he does not move. He listens instead- to the drip of water echoing somewhere distant, to the low hush of an underground cavern breathing around him. The air is damp, heavy with the scent of dirt and old blood, which for some reason, sticks to his leg- his right leg to be specific. His body feels wrong: too light in some places, unbearably heavy in others. His right leg throbs with a familiar, deep-set agony that pulls a sharp breath from his chest before he can stop it, as he begins to recognise where he is.
Xuanwu cave.
The realisation lands fully formed, immediate and impossible.
The last thing he remembers is not this. The last thing he remembers is Nightless City- ashen skies, resentful energy howling like a living creature terribly wronged, Wei Ying’s voice sharp with fury and exhaustion, telling him to leave. Again and again. Get lost, get lost, GET LOST! The feel of blood slicking his palms as he draws Bichen against cultivators who were once his respected elders that he could not bear to disobey. Thirty-three strikes. Thirty-three voices condemning him. Then pain, overwhelming and white-hot, and the ground rushing up to meet him.
He should be dead. Or at the very least, broken beyond repair.
Yet he is here.
Lan Wangji inhales carefully and shifts his weight. Something warm presses against his lap, light but solid, undeniably real. His breath stutters. Slowly- too slowly, as though any sudden movement might shatter the world around him- he lowers his gaze.
Wei Ying is sleeping against him.
Not collapsed, not struggling to breathe, not screaming in rage or pain. Sleeping. His head rests awkwardly against Lan Wangji’s thigh, black hair tangled and damp, his face flushed an unhealthy red. His brow is furrowed even in sleep, lips parted slightly as shallow breaths escape him. His body shivers, small, uncontrollable tremors running through him at irregular intervals.
He has a fever.
Lan Wangji’s hand moves before he thinks to stop it. He presses the back of his fingers to Wei Ying’s forehead. Heat radiates into his skin- far too much. His chest tightens.
Alive.
Wei Ying is alive.
The cave is lit faintly by the faint light of the fire they have made- reflections off still water, glimmering weakly against the cavern walls. Not the red glow of resentful energy. Not the irreparable chaos of war. This is the cave as it was then, before everything broke apart beyond repair.
The dead Xuanwu lies nearby.
Lan Wangji’s gaze lifts, slow and disbelieving. The enormous carcass sprawls across the stone, its shell cracked open, its massive body stilled forever. Blood- dark, congealed- stains the ground and the water alike. The sight makes his stomach twist, not with fear, but with certainty.
This is before Nightless City. Before Qiongqi Path. Before the Sunshot Campaign.
Time folds inward, crushing and suffocating. Lan Wangji’s fingers curl slightly in Wei Ying’s sleeve, grounding himself. His heart pounds, steady and loud in his ears.
He checks his core.
The movement is instinctive, immediate. He sinks inward, expecting familiar damage- the cracks and weakness he has carried since the Xuanwu, since drawing out the iron brand and pushing his cultivation beyond its limits.
Instead, his spiritual energy answers him smoothly.
Too smoothly.
His core is not merely intact. It is stronger. Broader. Refined in a way it was not before.
Lan Wangji’s breath catches.
This is not a dream. His core does not lie. Pain does not lie. Wei Ying’s warmth beneath his hand does not lie.
He has travelled back.
A sharp splash breaks the silence.
Lan Wangji’s head snaps up just as voices echo through the cavern, distorted by the cavern and water.
“-damn it, this place is huge-”
Another splash. Louder. More irritated.
“If this thing’s still alive, I’m killing it myself.”
Jiang Wanyin.
Lan Wangji stiffens instinctively, his body reacting before his mind can fully catch up. His hand settles more firmly against Wei Ying’s side, protective, steady. He does not wake him. Wei Ying murmurs faintly, a sound barely audible, and curls in closer, fingers clutching weakly at Lan Wangji’s robe.
Lan Wangji stays still.
Jiang Wanyin and Jin Zixuan wade into view, soaked and breathing hard, their robes clinging uncomfortably to them. They freeze almost immediately upon seeing the massive corpse sprawled across the cavern floor.
“What the-” Jiang Wanyin swears sharply, “You’ve got to be kidding me.”
His gaze snaps from the Xuanwu to Lan Wangji, then down to Wei Ying- sleeping, feverish, unmistakably alive and cradled where he should not be.
Jiang Wanyin’s eyes narrow.
“Did you two kill it?” he demands.
Lan Wangji lifts his chin.
“Yes,” he says, voice even, dry.
Exactly as he did the first time.
“Wei Ying killed it.”
The words land heavy in the cavern.
Jiang Wanyin’s expression twists. Shock flickers there first- then disbelief, then something sharper, uglier. Envy. Barely restrained, but unmistakable.
Lan Wangji feels it like bile rising in his throat.
“He did?” Jiang Wanyin scoffs, looking down at Wei Ying as though trying to reconcile the image before him with the weight of that claim, “Don’t lie to me, Lan Wangji.”
Lan Wangji does not respond. He does not need to.
Wei Ying shivers again, a quiet, helpless movement, and Lan Wangji’s fingers tighten reflexively. The disgust he feels is sudden and fierce, curling hot and unpleasant in his chest- not for Jiang Wanyin’s doubt, but for the way his gaze lingers, measuring, possessive.
“Hand him over,” Jiang Wanyin says abruptly, “He’s Jiang sect. I’ll take him back. You can go home to Gusu.”
The words scrape against Lan Wangji’s nerves like sandpaper.
“No,” he says.
Jiang Wanyin’s jaw tightens. Jin Zixuan, who has remained silent until now, looks between them with something like horror dawning on his face. His eyes flick to the broken state of Lan Wangji’s leg, the blood dried along his robes, the way he is clearly barely upright.
“Jiang Wanyin,” Jin Zixuan says slowly, uncertainly, “he doesn’t look-”
“I said I’ll take him,” Jiang Wanyin snaps. He steps forward and reaches for Wei Ying.
Lan Wangji moves without thinking.
Pain flares white-hot through his leg as he shifts, but he does not let Wei Ying go. His hand comes up, stopping Jiang Wanyin short- not striking, not threatening, but immovable.
Jiang Wanyin freezes.
For a heartbeat, the cavern is utterly silent.
Then Wei Ying stirs.
A faint sound escapes him, barely more than breath. His brow tightens, his fingers clutch weakly at Lan Wangji’s sleeve again, seeking warmth, stability. He does not wake.
Jiang Wanyin exhales sharply and withdraws his hand, irritation radiating off him in waves.
“Fine,” he mutters, “If you want to make this difficult.”
He reaches down and lifts Wei Ying with practiced ease, slinging his arm over his shoulder. Wei Ying makes a soft, distressed noise, but does not wake. Lan Wangji’s hands feel abruptly empty, cold.
“There are Lan cultivators and Jiang cultivators outside,” Jiang Wanyin says tersely, “We’re leaving.”
He turns and wades away without another word.
Lan Wangji watches until he is gone, his gaze fixed on the place Wei Ying disappeared. Something tight and aching coils in his chest. This happened. Exactly like this.
A hand grips his arm.
Lan Wangji grunts softly as Jin Zixuan hauls him upright, careful but firm. Pain lances through his leg, but he does not cry out. He refuses.
Jin Zixuan looks shaken.
“I-” He hesitates. “Wangji, are you… alright?”
Lan Wangji steadies himself.
“Why are you here?” he asks.
Jin Zixuan blinks.
“I went to Lotus Pier,” he answers slowly, as though the memory has just caught up with him, “To visit Jiang Yanli.”
Lan Wangji hums once. It aligns. Everything aligns.
Jin Zixuan supports him as they move toward the water, the cavern swallowing their footsteps. They wade in together, the cold biting at Lan Wangji’s skin. Each movement sends pain flaring through his leg, but beneath it- there is something else.
Healing.
It is subtle, but unmistakable. His body is knitting itself back together faster than it should. His core hums steadily, responsive, strong.
They swim in silence, the weight of the moment pressing down on them both. When they reach the narrow opening, Jin Zixuan goes first, hauling himself up and then reaching back to grasp Lan Wangji’s forearm.
Lan Wangji accepts the help.
Lan cultivators are waiting on the other side. Familiar robes. Familiar faces. Relief ripples through them at the sight of him alive.
Someone calls his name.
Lan Wangji offers a brief courtesy greeting as Jiang Fengmian approaches, his expression grave and searching.
“Jiang-zongzhu,” Lan Wangji says, voice calm despite everything.
Hands guide him gently to sit. Lan healers kneel at once, assessing his leg, murmuring to one another as they prepare a proper splint. Lan Wangji allows it, his gaze distant.
Wei Ying is out there.
Alive.
For now.
Lan Wangji closes his eyes briefly, committing the moment to memory. This time- this time, he will not be late.
The journey back to Gusu takes three days.
Lan Wangji counts them without meaning to- three dawns breaking pale and clean over unfamiliar roads, three nights spent in disciplined silence, three measured steps forward and no steps back. His leg has healed far more quickly than it should have. By the second day he no longer needs support, though the Lan healers still watch him with faint, puzzled frowns. He gives them no explanation. He does not have one that can be spoken aloud.
He rides with his spine straight and his gaze forward, the ribbon at his brow pristine despite the dust of the road. Inside, everything is tight and braced, like a drawn bowstring.
Gusu comes into view through the morning mist, white walls and curved roofs rising serenely from the mountainside, unchanged. Untouched. The Cloud Recesses stand exactly as they always have- quiet, orderly, whole.
Lan Wangji feels a strange, fleeting vertigo at the sight of it.
He dismounts at the gates and steps onto familiar stone, the sound of his boots echoing softly. Disciples bow as he passes. Their faces are solemn, tired, but unbroken. There is no sign here of the catastrophe that churns beyond the mountains, no hint of how close the Wen flames truly are.
Lan Xichen is not there to greet him.
He had known this already. He remembers this absence- the hollow space where his brother should be, the unanswered questions. Still, the knowledge settles heavily in his chest as he walks the long paths alone.
Lan Qiren waits for him in the main hall.
He looks older than Lan Wangji remembers. Or perhaps Lan Wangji is simply seeing him more clearly now. His uncle’s spine is rigid with tension, his mouth drawn thin, eyes sharp and assessing as they sweep over Lan Wangji from head to toe.
“You have returned to us,” Lan Qiren says.
“Yes,” Lan Wangji replies, voice steady.
For a moment, Lan Qiren says nothing. Then he steps forward and places a hand on Lan Wangji’s shoulder.
The gesture is brief. Firm. Exactly as it was before.
“You have done well,” Lan Qiren says quietly, “Rest. You will be needed soon, Wangji.”
Lan Wangji inclines his head.
“Yes, shufu.”
He expects- absurdly- for something to change. For his uncle to say more. To warn him. To ask questions. But nothing does. The past continues on its well-worn path, indifferent to his awareness of it.
His leg finishes healing within days. There is no lingering weakness, no stiffness. His body responds to movement with familiar precision, his cultivation smooth and responsive to him whenever he meditates. If anything, he feels stronger than he remembers being at this point in time.
When he is deemed fit for duty, Lan Qiren assigns him his task.
The library.
It smells of burnt paper and fire.
The sight of it still tightens something behind Lan Wangji’s ribs: blackened beams, scorched floors, shelves reduced to fragile skeletons. This, too, is unchanged. He remembers the weight of this responsibility, the endless days spent restoring what had been nearly lost.
He accepts the assignment without comment.
Days pass. He works from dawn until dusk, methodical and exacting. Each damaged text is handled with reverence, each fragment cleaned, restored, copied. He loses himself in the work, fingers stained with ink, mind quieted by repetition.
Outwardly, nothing is amiss.
Inwardly, he is counting.
He watches the light change through the windows. He listens for news that does not come. He waits for the wrong thing at the wrong time, knowing it is inevitable and still unprepared.
Two weeks pass.
Nie Mingjue’s invitation arrives as Lan Wangji remembers it- formal, direct, impossible to ignore. The Sunshot Campaign. The beginning of open war. Lan Qiren convenes the elders. Decisions are made. Preparations begin.
The sect moves with calm efficiency, but there is an undercurrent of tension now, a tightening that Lan Wangji feels keenly. The world is sliding toward violence, and he knows where the first great fracture lies.
He still does not think of Lotus Pier.
Not consciously.
The realisation, when it comes, is brutal in its suddenness.
It is the second week after his return. The dining hall is filled with quiet conversation and the clink of porcelain. Lan Wangji eats in silence, posture impeccable, mind half-focused on the text he plans to restore after the meal.
The doors slam open.
A disciple stumbles inside, breathless, eyes wide with horror. His robes are dust-streaked, his hair coming loose from its tie.
“Elder!” the messenger gasps, dropping to his knees before he has fully crossed the threshold, “Dai Li Lan-zongzhu- news from Yunmeng.”
The room stills.
Lan Wangji’s chopsticks pause mid-motion.
Lan Qiren rises slowly.
“Speak.”
“Lotus Pier,” the messenger says, voice shaking, “Lotus Pier has been burned to the ground.”
The words echo, hollow and unreal.
Lan Wangji freezes.
Not metaphorically. Truly. His body locks in place, breath caught painfully in his chest. The dining hall fades to a distant blur as the words reverberate again and again in his mind.
Lotus Pier.
Burned.
How-?
He knows how.
The knowledge slams into him all at once, violent and overwhelming. He had known this was coming. He had seen it. He had lived with its consequences for years, known that everything went wrong after this specific event. And yet- he had not been thinking of it. Not here. Not now.
His fingers tighten around the chopsticks until the wood creaks faintly.
Lan Qiren’s voice cuts through the haze, sharp and controlled.
“Are there survivors?”
The messenger swallows hard.
“Only three, Elder. The sect heir- I mean, sect leader, his older sister, and their head disciple.”
Wei Ying.
Lan Wangji’s vision darkens at the edges.
“The Wen sect has issued warrants,” the messenger continues, “They are to be hunted down and captured. Alive, if possible.”
The hall erupts in low murmurs. Outrage. Horror. Disbelief. Lan Wangji hears none of it clearly. A pressure builds behind his eyes, sudden and intense, like something swelling far beyond what his skull can contain.
He lifts a hand to his temple, fingers trembling.
This is wrong.
This did not happen like this.
It did- but not like this. Not all at once. Not with this crushing weight, this sickening certainty. His thoughts scatter, images bleeding together: fire reflected in Wei Ying’s eyes, Lotus Pier submerged in smoke, blood staining the docks, Wei Ying standing alone on a cliff with nothing left to lose.
Pain explodes behind his eyes.
It is not physical at first- not like a wound or strain. It is sharper, deeper, like something tearing through him from the inside out. His core surges violently, spiritual energy flaring and recoiling in a way he cannot control.
He gasps.
The sound is wrong. Too loud. Heads turn.
Lan Wangji’s grip tightens at his temple as the pain crescendos, white-hot and blinding. It feels as though his skull is splitting, as though every memory he carries is trying to force itself into the present all at once.
Fire. Screams. Wei Ying’s back as he walks away. Blood on white robes. Thirty-three elders. A burial mound beneath a blackened sky.
“Lan-er-gongzi?” someone calls, distant.
The pain peaks.
Lan Wangji screams.
It tears out of him, raw and uncontrolled, echoing off the polished walls of the dining hall. His body convulses, knees buckling as the world fractures into shards of light and sound.
Hands reach for him, voices shouting, but he does not feel them. The agony consumes everything, dragging him under in a wave of darkness.
Then-
Nothing.
When he falls, he does not see the floor rush up to meet him.
All he knows, as consciousness slips away, is the terrible certainty that he is already too late- and this time, he remembers it.
Lan Wangji wakes to pain and damp stone.
The sensation is familiar enough that for a brief, disorienting moment, he does not panic. His breath comes slow and measured, his mind hovering in that fragile space between consciousness and memory. Water drips somewhere nearby, the sound echoing faintly, endlessly. The air is cold, heavy with the smell of blood and stagnant water.
Xuanwu cave.
The knowledge settles with terrible certainty.
Lan Wangji’s eyes open.
Darkness greets him- familiar shadows, jagged rock formations, the faint gleam of the fire’s light reflecting off still water. His body aches exactly where it should: his leg throbs dully, a deep, persistent pain that pulses in time with his heartbeat. His ribs protest with each breath. He exhales slowly through his nose, grounding himself.
Then he feels warmth against his thigh.
His breath stutters.
Lan Wangji lowers his gaze.
Wei Ying lies sprawled across his lap once more, black hair damp and clinging to his flushed cheeks, his brow drawn tight even in sleep. His breathing is shallow and uneven, each inhale accompanied by a faint hitch. Lan Wangji does not hesitate this time. He reaches out and presses his fingers to Wei Ying’s cheek.
Too hot.
The heat sinks into his skin instantly, unmistakable and wrong. Wei Ying shifts faintly at the contact, a weak sound escaping him, but he does not wake.
Lan Wangji closes his eyes.
Again.
He is here again.
The realisation does not strike like lightning this time; it settles like a crushing weight, heavy and inescapable. His heart pounds, but his thoughts remain eerily clear. He has seen this. Lived this. Woken like this already.
Time has rewound.
He checks his core immediately, sinking inward with practiced ease. His spiritual energy answers him smoothly, power humming beneath the surface, strong and refined- unchanged from before he collapsed in the dining hall. Whatever growth he gained through meditation has carried over.
This is no mere illusion.
Lan Wangji opens his eyes and stares at the cavern wall opposite him, mind racing despite his outward stillness. A loop, then. A repetition bound to a single point. The same beginning, the same outcome- unless something changes.
His fingers curl slightly against Wei Ying’s sleeve.
The pain.
The sudden, violent agony that seized him upon hearing of Lotus Pier’s destruction- it had not been normal. It had not been the delayed shock of grief alone. It felt like something inside him had fractured, as though time itself had recoiled, snapping him backward with force.
The massacre of Lotus Pier.
That must be it.
The loop’s catalyst.
Or- his mind supplies coldly- the moment Lan Qiren agrees to join the Sunshot Campaign. The day Gusu steps fully onto the path of war. Both occur together. Both are points of no return.
Lan Wangji exhales slowly.
If the loop always returns him here, then this- this moment in the Xuanwu cave- is the last fixed point before everything begins to unravel.
Something shifts at his wrist.
The movement is slight, but he notices it immediately. His sleeve, loosened by sweat and water, slides down his forearm.
Lan Wangji freezes.
Black ink mars the pale skin of his wrist.
His breath catches.
It is not smeared or faded. The mark is sharp, precise, as though freshly inscribed- yet it does not smudge when his fingers brush against it. The character is unmistakable.
一
One.
Lan Wangji stares at it, heart hammering.
A count.
The first loop.
His gaze snaps up, sweeping the cavern with sudden intensity. The shadows loom large and indifferent. The dead Xuanwu lies where it should, massive and still. There is no sign of anyone else- no cultivators, no hidden talismans, no spiritual disturbance that might hint at an external force.
“Who?” he murmurs, the word barely audible.
No answer comes.
The pain in his head lingers faintly, a dull pressure behind his eyes, as though something has pressed its thumb there and not yet fully withdrawn. He cannot tell if it is a remnant of the loop’s recoil or a warning.
Footsteps splash through the water.
Lan Wangji straightens instinctively, his hand returning to Wei Ying’s side as voices echo through the cavern.
“-if this thing’s still alive, I’m killing it myself-”
Jiang Wanyin appears, irritation etched deep into his expression, followed closely by Jin Zixuan. The scene unfolds exactly as before, down to the way Jiang Wanyin’s gaze snaps from the Xuanwu’s corpse to Wei Ying asleep against Lan Wangji.
“Did you two kill it?” he demands.
“Yes. Wei Ying did,” Lan Wangji replies evenly.
Jiang Wanyin scoffs, eyes sharp with disbelief- the same as last time- and something darker. Envy. Possession. Disgust.
The feeling twists unpleasantly in Lan Wangji’s chest, sharper this time because he recognises it for what it is.
“I’ll take him,” Jiang Wanyin says curtly, “You can go back to Gusu.”
“No,” Lan Wangji says.
The word is firmer than before.
Jiang Wanyin pauses, clearly not expecting resistance.
“What?”
“I will come with you,” Lan Wangji says, “To Lotus Pier.”
The cavern goes still.
Jin Zixuan blinks. Jiang Wanyin stares at him as though he has spoken nonsense.
“Absolutely not,” Jiang Wanyin snaps, “This doesn’t concern you.”
“It does,” Lan Wangji replies.
Jiang Wanyin’s lip curls.
“You’re injured. You’d be dead weight, Lan Wangji.”
Before Lan Wangji can respond, Jin Zixuan speaks.
“Actually,” he says slowly, “Lotus Pier is much closer to Qishan than Caiyi is.”
Both of them look at him.
“If the Wen sect makes another move,” Jin Zixuan continues, “it would be safer for him not to travel so far. And” -his gaze flicks pointedly to Lan Wangji’s leg- “he’s in no condition for a long journey.”
Jiang Wanyin exhales sharply, clearly torn between irritation and reluctant agreement. He clicks his tongue.
“Fine,” he says at last, “But he’s your responsibility.”
Lan Wangji inclines his head slightly.
Jiang Wanyin reaches down and lifts Wei Ying once more. His grip is efficient, but his expression is tight, his gaze flicking briefly- and almost disgustedly- toward Lan Wangji before he turns away.
The look lingers.
Lan Wangji watches them go, jaw clenched, his hand unconsciously tightening at his side. He will not forget it this time.
Jin Zixuan helps him to his feet again, steadying him as pain flares through his leg. They move together toward the water, the cavern swallowing their footsteps.
The journey out passes in tense silence.
Outside, tension simmers just beneath the surface- Lan cultivators gathered in tight clusters, Jiang disciples hovering anxiously nearby. Wei Ying is immediately surrounded, healers moving to assess his fever. Lan Wangji watches every touch, every furrowed brow, his focus unwavering.
When Jiang Fengmian approaches, Lan Wangji steps forward.
“Sect Leader Jiang,” he says, bowing properly despite the ache in his body, “This one requests official refuge in Yunmeng.”
The words draw immediate attention.
Jiang Fengmian frowns.
“Refuge?” he repeats, “Lan-er-gongzi, why would you-”
“My brother,” Lan Wangji says evenly, before hesitation can betray him, “has sent word. He is currently hiding in Yunping and advised me to do the same.”
The lie tastes bitter.
It is, at least, partially true. Lan Xichen will hide in Yunping. He remembers that clearly. Time merely has not caught up yet.
Jiang Fengmian hesitates, then nods slowly.
“If that is the case… of course. Yunmeng will offer protection.”
Lan Wangji resists the urge to roll his eyes.
The Lan healers exchange confused looks but say nothing as they are instructed to accompany him and assist with Wei Ying’s condition. Lan Wangji allows himself to be guided forward, his gaze fixed on the unconscious figure ahead.
This time, he will not be sent away.
This time, he will see Lotus Pier before it burns.
And when the fire comes-
Lan Wangji’s fingers curl slowly at his side.
-he will be ready.
Lotus Pier rises out of the water in a sweep of brown stone and purple flags, the sound of lapping waves and distant gulls filling the air. To Lan Wangji, it looks exactly as it should.
That is what terrifies him.
The docks are busy when they arrive- disciples hurrying to and fro, calls ringing out as news of their return spreads. Everything is alive. Everything is whole. The lotus ponds gleam beneath the sun, their broad leaves unblemished, the air warm and heavy with summer.
Lan Wangji feels as though he has stepped into a painting that he knows will soon be set on fire.
Wei Ying is carried straight past the main hall and toward the infirmary, unconscious and burning with fever. Lan Wangji does not leave his side until healers block his path with gentle but unyielding firmness. Only then is he ushered to a neighbouring room, placed on a narrow bed, and ordered- politely, insistently- to rest.
He obeys.
Outwardly.
The pain in his leg is already dulling by the next morning. By the second day, it barely registers. By the third, it is gone entirely, bone and muscle knitted cleanly beneath his skin, cultivation flowing smoothly where injury should still linger.
Lan Wangji says nothing.
When healers check his leg, he tenses deliberately, breath hitching just enough to suggest discomfort. He allows them to wrap fresh bandages, to murmur reassurances. He keeps his movements measured, careful, his weight always shifted just so.
It is not difficult to pretend.
Wei Ying does not wake.
The third day stretches long and suffocating. Lan Wangji spends most of it seated beside Wei Ying’s bed, back straight, hands folded neatly in his lap. He listens to the shallow rasp of Wei Ying’s breathing, watches the slight furrow between his brows deepen and fade with fevered dreams.
He does not touch him.
Not yet.
The night bleeds into dawn.
On the fourth day, Wei Ying stirs.
It begins with a faint sound- an indistinct hum, breath catching in his throat. His fingers twitch against the thin blanket, curling weakly. Lan Wangji straightens at once, his attention snapping into sharp focus.
Wei Ying’s lashes flutter.
“Mn,” he murmurs, voice hoarse and barely there, “Jiang… shijie…?”
Lan Wangji leans forward before he can stop himself.
“Wei Ying.”
Wei Ying’s eyes open.
They are unfocused at first, dark pupils blown wide with fever. He blinks slowly, as though the world is swimming back into place, then stills when his gaze lands on Lan Wangji.
“Oh,” he says faintly.
For a heartbeat, neither of them moves.
Then Wei Ying smiles.
It is small and tired and utterly genuine.
“Lan Zhan,” he says, voice raspy, “You didn’t… disappear on me.”
Something tightens painfully in Lan Wangji’s chest.
“No,” he says, “I am here, Wei Ying.”
Wei Ying squints at him, as though reassessing reality.
“Huh. Guess I didn’t die, then.”
Lan Wangji exhales sharply through his nose. “You had a fever.”
Wei Ying’s brow furrows.
“Did I?” He shifts, then winces, “Wow. Everything hurts.”
“You were unconscious for four days,” Lan Wangji says.
Wei Ying’s eyes widen.
“Four?” Then, abruptly, his expression brightens despite himself, “Wait- four days? That means- did we really kill it? The Xuanwu?”
“Yes.”
Wei Ying’s lips part in delight.
“Ha! I knew it. Did you see its face when-”
He cuts himself off, coughing weakly.
Lan Wangji waits until the fit passes.
“You fell into the water afterward,” he says, “You did not wake. You developed a fever.”
Wei Ying listens intently, eyes fixed on Lan Wangji’s face.
“And you stayed?” he asks.
There is something almost shy in his tone.
“You didn’t just… leave?”
Lan Wangji wants to laugh.
The absurdity of it- of this question, of the way Wei Ying looks at him as though the answer matters- nearly cracks something open inside him. But he does not laugh. He never does.
Instead, he lifts his robe slightly and points down at his leg.
Wei Ying’s gaze follows the motion.
“Oh,” he says.
Then, horrified, “Oh.”
He stares at the splint, at the careful bandaging, his earlier cheer evaporating.
“Lan Zhan- your leg- wait, did you- did you really get hurt because of me?”
“It was already injured before,” Lan Wangji says evenly.
Wei Ying looks stricken.
“I was joking,” he blurts, “I didn’t mean- I mean, I didn’t think you’d actually stay when you were hurt like that, that was- wow, that was a terrible joke, I’m sorry-”
The door opens.
“A-Xian!”
Jiang Yanli enters first, her expression melting into relief the moment she sees Wei Ying awake. Jiang Fengmian follows close behind, his posture dignified but his eyes warm. Jiang Wanyin brings up the rear, arms crossed, brows drawn tight.
“You’re awake,” Jiang Yanli says, hurrying to the bedside, “Thank goodness.”
Wei Ying beams at her.
“Shijie! I knew I’d survive- you’d never forgive me if I didn’t.”
She laughs softly, though her eyes are suspiciously bright.
“You gave us quite the scare.”
Jiang Fengmian steps forward.
“Well done,” he says, voice steady, “Killing the Xuanwu of Slaughter is no small feat.”
Lan Wangji blinks.
“Ah- about that- it was Lan Zhan,” Wei Ying says quickly, gesturing weakly, “He did most of it. I just helped him out a little.”
Lan Wangji stiffens.
Jiang Fengmian looks between them, surprised.
“Is that so? Because Lan-er-gongzi told us the exact same thing when it came to you, A-Xian.”
“It was a joint effort,” Lan Wangji says, impartially.
Jiang Wanyin scoffs.
“You almost died showing off,” he snaps at Wei Ying, “Do you have any idea how reckless that was?”
Wei Ying opens his mouth to retort.
“That is enough, A-Cheng,” Jiang Fengmian says calmly.
Jiang Wanyin bristles.
“A-Die-”
“This is neither the time nor the place,” Jiang Fengmian continues, his tone firm, “A-Xian is injured and recovering. Your concern can be expressed without reprimand.”
Jiang Wanyin’s jaw tightens. He looks away, clearly dissatisfied.
Jiang Yanli places a gentle hand on Wei Ying’s arm.
“You should rest,” she says softly, “I’ll make soup later. Pork rib and lotus soup- your favourite.”
Wei Ying’s eyes light up instantly.
“Really?”
“Of course.”
Lan Wangji feels it then- sharp and unexpected.
Jealousy.
It flares hot in his chest, irrational and unwelcome, at the way Wei Ying’s attention shifts so easily, so naturally, toward Jiang Yanli. At the ease of their affection, the warmth of her smile and the way it seems to anchor him.
It is not her fault.
Lan Wangji knows this. The thought settles immediately, calm and logical. Jiang Yanli has always been kind. She has always loved Wei Ying- he is her little brother, after all. There is nothing improper to be seen here.
And yet.
The feeling lingers, sour and sharp, before he forcibly sets it aside.
The door slams open again.
Yu-furen sweeps into the room like a gathering storm.
“So,” she says coldly, eyes already fixed on Wei Ying, “You’ve finally woken.”
The air shifts instantly.
Wei Ying’s smile fades. He straightens as much as he can, shoulders squaring instinctively. “Yu-furen.”
“Do you have any idea,” Yu Ziyuan continues, voice sharp as a blade, “how much trouble you’ve caused? Charging ahead like some heroic fool, dragging others into danger-”
“I didn’t mean to-”
“Didn’t mean to?” she snaps, “You never do. And yet you always act as though the consequences won’t fall on everyone else.”
Lan Wangji’s hands curl slowly at his sides.
Jiang Wanyin looks grimly satisfied, as though her words confirm something he has already decided.
“That’s enough,” Jiang Fengmian says sharply.
Yu Ziyuan turns on him.
“Enough? He nearly got A-Cheng killed!”
“He saved lives,” Jiang Fengmian counters, “Including Lan Wangji’s.”
“That does not excuse his arrogance,” Yu Ziyuan says, “Acting as though he alone could handle a monster no one else dared face-”
Lan Wangji’s chest tightens.
The words strike something raw, something he remembers too well. He sees, unbidden, Wei Ying standing alone again and again- bearing burdens no one asked him to, punished for daring to succeed.
The argument escalates, voices rising, tension thickening the air. Lan Wangji finds himself drifting, his gaze unfocused as his thoughts turn inward.
This is it.
This is the moment before the fracture. Before resentment calcifies. Before misunderstandings become scars too deep to heal.
He is here.
And he has a choice.
Lan Wangji exhales slowly, steadying himself.
This time, he will not look away.
Lan Wangji remains at Lotus Pier.
He does not announce the decision. He simply… stays.
For a week, life continues in an uneasy, fragile calm, like glass stretched thin over fire. Lotus Pier is alive with movement- disciples repairing wards, boats coming and going, voices low and urgent. Everyone feels it, even if no one names it: the Wen sect will come. It is only a matter of when.
Lan Wangji offers help where he can.
He assists with patrols, sits in on strategy discussions when permitted, lends his cultivation to strengthening barriers. When turned away, he accepts it without protest and finds quieter ways to be useful- copying talismans, helping injured disciples practice breathing techniques, standing silent watch during the night.
He also exaggerates his injury.
He dislikes doing so. The deception sits uncomfortably in his chest, a constant itch beneath his composure. But every time he considers dropping the pretense, Wei Ying appears at his side with a determined frown and an arm already sliding beneath Lan Wangji’s elbow.
“Careful, Lan Zhan,” Wei Ying says, earnest as anything, “You’re still hurt.”
“I am capable of walking,” Lan Wangji replies.
Wei Ying squints at him suspiciously.
“That’s what people say right before they collapse.”
Lan Wangji does not collapse.
Instead, he allows Wei Ying to fuss.
He allows himself to be guided slowly across courtyards, to sit while Wei Ying fetches water, to accept a hand on his sleeve that lingers longer than strictly necessary. Wei Ying is gentler now, his usual recklessness tempered by lingering guilt and recent fear. He watches Lan Wangji constantly, as if afraid to look away.
It is… distracting.
And, Lan Wangji acknowledges privately, dangerous.
The healers eventually provide an explanation that satisfies everyone except Lan Wangji himself.
“The nerves in his leg are not connecting properly to the meridians,” one of them explains to Jiang Fengmian, “It will take time. He should not strain himself.”
Wei Ying looks horrified.
“Lan Zhan, that sounds terrible.”
“It is manageable,” Lan Wangji says.
Wei Ying shakes his head fiercely.
“Nope. You’re resting. Doctor’s orders.”
Lan Wangji says nothing more.
The day the Wen sect arrives, the sky is painfully blue.
Lan Wangji senses the disturbance before the alarm sounds- a ripple in the spiritual field, sharp and intrusive. His hand tightens on Bichen’s hilt as shouts echo across the pier.
Wang Lingjiao arrives in a swirl of red and gold, her smile sharp and self-satisfied. Wen Zhuliu stands at her side, impassive and terrifyingly calm.
Lan Wangji watches from the periphery, already cataloguing threats, calculating distances, exits, lines of retreat. His mind works rapidly, automatically.
Wang Lingjiao’s voice grates.
Something about a sixth shidi. A kite. A red circle.
Lan Wangji barely listens.
It does not matter.
What matters is the way her gaze slides, measuring, cruel- and stops on Wei Ying.
“He insulted the Wen sect,” Wang Lingjiao says lightly, “He should be punished.”
Wei Ying straightens.
“Hey-”
“I want him whipped,” Wang Lingjiao says.
Lan Wangji freezes.
Wei Ying has only just recovered. His body is still weak; Lan Wangji can see it in the slight delay of his movements, the way he leans just a fraction more than usual on his good side.
“No,” Lan Wangji says.
Yu-furen answers before anyone else can.
“Fine,” she says coldly.
The word drops like a blade.
Lan Wangji turns to her, disbelief sharp and immediate.
“Yu-furen-”
Jiang Wanyin steps forward.
“A-Niang, that’s enough, stop this-”
Assistants move in.
Lan Wangji reacts instantly. He steps between them and Wei Ying, Bichen half-drawn. Jiang Wanyin does the same, fury flashing in his eyes.
“Get away from him!” Jiang Wanyin snaps.
They are restrained.
Lan Wangji fights- but not freely. Hands seize his arms, pin him back. His injured leg buckles deliberately, giving his captors an opening he hates himself for allowing.
Wei Ying is dragged forward.
“Lan Zhan!” Wei Ying shouts.
Zidian cracks through the air.
Lan Wangji flinches.
Once. Twice. Again.
Each strike lands with brutal precision, purple light searing into Wei Ying’s back. Wei Ying cries out, teeth gritted, refusing to beg.
Lan Wangji’s breath comes harsh and shallow. He strains against his restraints until his muscles burn, vision blurring with a rage so sharp it borders on pain.
Stop.
STOP-
Yu-furen raises her hand.
The whipping ceases.
Wei Ying slumps, barely upright.
Lan Wangji is already stepping forward when Wang Lingjiao laughs.
“That arm,” she says, “Cut it off.”
The world narrows to a single, horrible point.
Lan Wangji’s heart lurches violently. He knows- knows- what losing Wei Ying’s sword arm will mean. How it will fracture the path ahead. How everything will unravel faster, worse.
“No,” he says hoarsely.
Yu-furen lifts a sword and takes Wei Ying’s hand ready to be lost forever, simply because of her spite.
Wang Lingjiao speaks again, lazily.
“Actually… I think Lotus Pier would make a lovely supervisory office.”
Silence crashes down.
Yu-furen goes still.
Then she laughs.
The sound is sharp, unhinged.
“Over my dead body,” she says.
And then-
Chaos.
The first blade is drawn. Then another. The air explodes into motion, shouts and steel and spiritual energy colliding violently.
Lan Wangji rips free.
Bichen sings as it leaves its sheath, blue light flashing. He cuts through Wen disciples with ruthless precision, each strike clean and lethal. Around him, Lotus Pier erupts into battle.
Wei Ying is on his feet, grim and furious, grabbing a fallen sword. He moves to Lan Wangji’s side instinctively.
Back to back.
Just like before.
They fight together, seamless, terrifyingly efficient. Lan Wangji guards Wei Ying’s blind spots; Wei Ying covers his flanks. For a fleeting, fragile moment, it almost feels like they might survive this.
Then they are driven back.
Step by step, blow by blow, until the dock is behind them and there is nowhere left to go.
Yu-furen appears in a flash of purple.
She shoves them- hard- into a boat.
Jiang Wanyin stumbles in after them.
Zidian is pressed into Jiang Wanyin’s hands.
“I hate you, Wei Ying! I have always hated you, and I will never like you!” Yu-furen snaps to Wei Ying, “But please… protect A-Cheng with your life.”
The words land with brutal finality.
Wei Ying swallows, eyes shining- but he nods.
“I will.”
Zidian flares.
The whip wraps around them, binding Wei Ying and Jiang Wanyin together. They shout, reaching for her, voices breaking.
“A-Niang!”
“Yu-furen-!”
She pushes the boat away.
Lan Wangji lunges forward-
Pain explodes behind his eyes.
It is sudden, vicious, like something tearing open his skull from the inside. The world fractures into blinding white. He screams, the sound ripped from him as his body convulses uncontrollably.
Wei Ying panics.
“Lan Zhan!” he shouts, scrambling toward him despite the restraints, “Lan Zhan, what’s wrong-?!”
Jiang Wanyin shouts too, fear raw in his voice.
Lan Wangji thrashes, fingers clawing at the deck, vision gone. The pain surges, overwhelming, drowning everything else.
Then-
Nothing.
Darkness takes him.
Lan Wangji wakes up gasping.
Stone. Damp air. Water dripping.
No.
No-
His hand flies to his wrist.
二
Two.
The character is stark and undeniable.
Wei Ying’s feverish head rests in his lap.
Lan Wangji screams.
Lan Wangji stops screaming somewhere between when he is in shock to when he has acknowledged that the second loop has interlinked itself into the third.
Not because the pain lessens- it never does- but because his body learns there is no point.
Time fractures into attempts.
Each return to the Xuanwu cave is the same: damp stone, Wei Ying’s feverish weight in his lap, the character on his wrist burning black against pale skin. Each time, the number has changed. Each time, it feels heavier.
The third time, Lan Wangji knows exactly where everything will go wrong.
He prepares.
He stays closer. He interferes sooner. He pushes harder against Yu-furen, against Wang Lingjiao, against the fate of Lotus Pier itself. He fights with a ferocity that shocks even Jiang Wanyin, his blade moving faster, sharper, more decisively than it ever did before.
It is not enough.
The Wen attack unfolds sideways, wrong but inevitable. The dock is utter catastrophe. Fire. Screams. Spiritual energy tearing the air apart.
Jiang Wanyin is stabbed through the side while trying to shield a disciple.
The sound he makes- short, shocked, unbearably young- cuts through Lan Wangji worse than any blade.
Wei Wuxian screams.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAUGGH-”
Not a word. Not a name. Just a raw, animal sound as he turns back, trying to reach Jiang Wanyin even as blood pours between his fingers.
Lan Wangji moves-
And the pain detonates in his skull.
He collapses onto the boat, body seizing violently, vision exploding into white fractures. He hears Wei Wuxian’s voice distantly, screaming Jiang Wanyin’s name, screaming Lan Wangji’s-
The boat is shoved away.
Wei Wuxian is the only one left alive.
Lan Wangji wakes back in the cave with 三 burned into his wrist and Wei Ying huffing feverishly in his arms, unaware, alive.
Lan Wangji does not breathe for a very long time.
The fourth time, Lan Wangji sacrifices everything.
He throws himself between Wei Ying and Wen Zhuliu. He breaks formation, breaks strategy, breaks every rule he has ever lived by. His cultivation flares so violently it cracks stone beneath his feet.
For one glorious, impossible moment, it works.
They almost escape.
Then Wei Ying turns back.
Always- always- he turns back.
A blade finds itself in the middle of Wei Ying’s chest- right where his heart would be.
Lan Wangji sees it happen in perfect clarity: the widening of Wei Ying’s eyes, the sharp inhale, the stunned disbelief frozen on his face as he collapses.
“No,” Lan Wangji says.
The word is small. Pathetic.
Wei Ying dies looking at him.
The pain hits simultaneously- his skull splitting open, his heart tearing apart, his body convulsing as Jiang Wanyin drags him bodily onto the boat, screaming at him to move, to live, to stop looking back.
Lan Wangji screams until his throat tears raw.
It hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts... it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS!!!!!
Wei Ying… WEI YING!!!
He wakes with 四 etched into his wrist and vomits onto the stone floor of the Xuanwu cave, hands shaking violently as Wei Ying breathes shallow and fever-hot against his chest.
Lan Wangji presses his forehead to Wei Ying’s hair.
“I will save you, beloved,” he whispers, “I will save you.”
He does not know who he is begging anymore.
The fifth, sixth, and seventh times bleed together.
He stops counting days. Stops sleeping. Stops pretending this is survivable.
Each time, he is stronger.
Each time, his cultivation sharpens, deepens, expands beyond what his body should be able to contain. His golden core burns like a miniature sun inside him, flooding his meridians with power that leaves him shaking, fevered, barely human.
He rewrites techniques mid-battle. He invents new ones out of desperation. He moves faster than thought, strikes harder than steel.
It does not matter.
The fifth time, Lotus Pier still burns.
The sixth time, Wen Zhuliu reaches Jiang Wanyin first.
The seventh time, Lan Wangji dies.
Wen Zhuliu’s hand presses against his own chest, calm and merciless.
Lan Wangji feels his core ripped out of him.
The pain is so absolute that there is no scream- only a silent, endless void as his body finally collapses, empty and useless.
He wakes in the cave with 七 carved into his wrist and a golden core blazing inside him as if mocking what was taken.
Lan Wangji laughs, and laughs, and laughs.
The sound is broken. Utterly wrong.
He has never laughed since his mother passed on. Now, it is a cruel sound that Lan Wangji absolutely hates.
After that, it becomes a blur.
Numbers accumulate.
Each time he wakes, he checks his wrist first. Sometimes he does it without conscious thought, fingers moving automatically, dread curling tight in his chest and pulling at his heart like it is a mere puppet, a fierce corpse underneath Wen Ruohan’s control.
八, 九, 十.
The ink grows darker. Deeper. As if etched into the bone of his wrist.
Hope erodes.
Not all at once- Lan Wangji is not built to surrender easily- but piece by piece. Each failure shaves something essential of himself away.
Wei Ying dies in more ways than Lan Wangji can count.
Jiang Wanyin screams.
Yu-furen burns.
Jiang Yanli cries.
Lan Wangji watches it all.
Again.
Again.
AGAIN. AGAIN, AGAIN, AGAIN, LAN WANGJI, AGAIN-
He becomes something else.
A weapon shaped to be a man.
By the time the numbers blur past fifteen, Lan Wangji’s power is catastrophic. His mere presence warps the spiritual field. His golden core hums so violently it sends pain lancing through his spine, his ribs, his skull.
He knows- knows- that if he lets it expand further, it will tear his body apart.
He does not stop.
He cannot.
Because every time he looks at Wei Ying- smiling, reckless, alive in that fragile moment before everything ends- Lan Wangji thinks:
I can still try.
By the time the number on his wrist becomes something he no longer fully recognises at a glance, Lan Wangji stops believing in victory.
He fights anyway.
Because stopping would mean accepting a world where Wei Wuxian dies screaming his name, over and over, forever.
And Lan Wangji will burn the heavens themselves before he allows that.
Even if it destroys him.
Lan Wangji wakes before dawn.
He always does.
Two hours of sleep- never more. His body no longer asks for rest; it only obeys the rigid schedule he has imposed upon it. He lies still on the narrow bed in the Lotus Pier guest quarters, eyes open, breath slow and silent, listening to the distant lap of water against stone and the faint calls of night birds retreating from the coming light.
For a moment, there is nothing.
Then memory settles over him like the sprinkling of dust.
The day of the massacre.
Again.
Lan Wangji lifts his left wrist.
The sleeve of his borrowed sleeping robes slides back easily. The fabric is familiar now- softened by wear, faintly scented with river mist and lotus pollen. His skin beneath is pale, marked starkly by ink that has long since stopped pretending to be temporary.
三十三
Thirty-three.
The character sits there, heavy and precise, as if carved by a hand that knows him intimately.
Lan Wangji stares at it without blinking.
Thirty-three elders he struck down after Nightless City, each blow measured and deliberate, each one a betrayal and a vow all at once.
Thirty-three lashes of the discipline whip, tearing his back open while he refused to cry out.
Thirty-three times Wei Ying told him to get lost, voice raw with fury and grief, pushing him away because staying would have hurt too much.
And now- thirty-three loops.
Thirty-three times dragged back through fire and blood and screaming water, forced to watch Lotus Pier burn, forced to watch Wei Ying die in every way a man can die.
It is almost funny.
The thought does not make him smile.
Lan Wangji lowers his wrist and sits up. His movements are quiet, economical. There is no hesitation in him now, no lingering disbelief. Whatever part of him once hoped for mercy- from the heavens, from fate, from time itself- has been burned away.
This feels like a final chance.
Not because the loop has told him so, but because something in his bones does.
If thirty-three is the number that marks his greatest sins, then it will also mark his last, greatest defiance.
He rises and steps outside.
Lotus Pier is still asleep.
The sky is just beginning to pale, the water dark and glassy, reflecting lantern light in long, trembling lines. Lan Wangji moves through the corridors and courtyards like a ghost, his footsteps soundless against the stone.
He checks the wards first.
They are everywhere.
Threaded invisibly through pillars and archways, sunk deep into the foundations, layered and interlocked in ways no Yunmeng formation should be. He perfected them over loops he can no longer count- adjusting angles, reinforcing weak points, compensating for spiritual flow altered by water and weather.
He pauses at the edge of the dock, closing his eyes briefly as he extends his senses.
The wards hum in response.
Strong. Stable. Lethal, if necessary.
Good.
He straightens and continues on, fingers brushing the hilt of the guqin slung across his back. It is not Wangji. That instrument lies miles away, untouched by this cycle. This guqin is older, heavier, its lacquer worn thin in places- a Jiang sect weapon, salvaged from an armoury that no longer is used in Lan Wangji’s original timeline.
It will suffice.
By now, his cultivation is… dangerous.
His golden core presses against the limits of his body constantly, a contained star, a supernova threatening collapse. His meridians ache with it, his bones ringing faintly as if struck. He has learned how to compress the excess, how to shape it into something sharp and controlled- but it is a balancing act he cannot maintain forever.
That is acceptable.
He does not plan to survive this unchanged.
“Lan Zhan?”
Wei Ying’s voice reaches him from behind, warm and familiar and most importantly, alive.
Lan Wangji turns.
Wei Ying stands at the edge of the walkway, hair loosely tied, robes rumpled with sleep. He squints at Lan Wangji, brow furrowing as he takes in the way Lan Wangji paces, the tension coiled tightly in his posture.
“You’ve been walking back and forth like this since before dawn,” Wei Ying says, “Everything okay?”
Lan Wangji looks at him.
Really looks.
Wei Ying is whole. Unburned. Unbled. His eyes are bright, his smile easy, the faint dimple in his cheek appearing as it always does when he’s curious instead of afraid.
Lan Wangji feels something twist painfully in his chest.
“Yes,” he says.
It is not a lie. Not entirely.
Wei Ying hums, clearly unconvinced, but before he can press further, Lan Wangji reaches into his sleeve and withdraws a folded letter.
“This,” Lan Wangji says, holding it out, “arrived last night.”
Wei Ying takes it automatically, eyes flicking over the familiar, elegant strokes of the handwriting. His expression shifts from casual interest to alert concern.
“This is… Zewu-jun’s handwriting,” Wei Ying says slowly, “What’s he saying?”
“That the Wen sect has mobilised an army,” Lan Wangji replies calmly, “That Lotus Pier will be attacked today. That evacuation is advised.”
Wei Ying’s eyes widen.
“Today?”
“Yes.”
Wei Ying looks up sharply.
“Have you shown this to-”
“Yu-furen will not listen to me,” Lan Wangji says.
Wei Ying hesitates, then grimaces.
“Yeah. Yeah, you’re probably right.”
“Jiang-zongzhu and Jiang-guniang are in Meishan Yu,” Lan Wangji continues, “They will not return in time.”
Wei Ying’s grip tightens on the letter. He looks down at it again, then back at Lan Wangji.
“You’re serious.”
“I am.”
Wei Ying’s expression hardens, resolve snapping into place with startling speed.
“Then we start moving people. Now.”
They do.
Quietly, at first.
Wei Ying rouses the younger disciples under the guise of drills and errands, sending them toward boats with practiced ease and a smile that never quite reaches his eyes. Lan Wangji reinforces the wards as they go, opening hidden paths through them only long enough for groups to pass before sealing them again.
When Jiang Wanyin discovers what is happening, his reaction is explosive.
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing, Wei Wuxian?” he hisses, cornering them near the docks, “Evacuating the sect without permission?!”
Wei Ying meets his glare without flinching.
“We don’t have time.”
“You don’t know that!”
“I do,” Wei Ying snaps back, then exhales sharply, forcing himself to calm down, “Listen to me, Jiang Cheng. Just- just trust me this once.”
Jiang Wanyin looks between them, jaw clenched, suspicion warring with something dangerously close to fear.
“A-Niang will kill you,” he says flatly.
Lan Wangji speaks.
“At least she will be alive to do so.”
That gives Jiang Wanyin pause.
He swears under his breath, then runs a hand through his hair.
“Fine,” he says tightly, “But if this is a joke-”
“It isn’t,” Wei Ying says.
Jiang Wanyin turns on his heel.
“Then move faster, damn it!”
With his help, the pace doubles.
Boats slip away under the cover of morning mist, carrying disciples too young, or elders too old to take part in the fight, or those too inexperienced to survive what is coming. Lan Wangji watches each one go, marking their departure like a tally against fate itself.
Not everyone can be saved.
He knows this.
But enough can.
When the last boat vanishes into the reeds, Lan Wangji steps back into the shadows and begins the final part of his preparation.
He changes robes.
Wei Ying’s robes.
They fit him poorly- too loose at the shoulders, sleeves longer than necessary- but Lan Wangji adjusts them without hesitation. The fabric is warm, familiar, carrying Wei Ying’s scent with it: rain-soaked earth, crushed lotus stems, a faint trace of peach blossoms.
It clings to him as if it belongs there.
He ties his hair back simply, obscures his forehead ribbon beneath the folds of cloth, and stills his presence until even the wards hesitate to recognize him.
By the time the Wen sect arrives, Lotus Pier is quiet.
Too quiet.
Lan Wangji stands near the docks, guqin strapped to his back, expression unreadable beneath borrowed colours. His pulse is steady. His mind is clear.
This time, when the fire comes-
He will meet it head-on.
And he will not lose Wei Ying.
Not again.
Lan Wangji is already in position when the Wen sect arrives.
The air changes first.
Even before the shouts, before the heavy boots strike stone, before the banners come into view, Lotus Pier feels wrong. The wards he has woven tremble faintly- not from weakness, but from recognition. Hostile spiritual energy presses against them like a rising tide, testing, probing, searching for fractures.
Lan Wangji stands tucked into the shadow of a pillar near the main hall, head bowed, posture deliberately unremarkable. The Yunmeng Jiang robes he wears are plain, the colours muted by distance and dust. He has bound his presence down to a careful, disciplined thread. Anyone looking at him sees only another disciple guard- young, silent, obedient.
They do not see the sword at his side.
They do not see the guqin strapped across his back.
They do not see the thirty-three failures etched into his bones.
The doors to the main hall are thrown open.
Wang Lingjiao sweeps in as if she owns the place, voice sharp and shrill, her expression twisted with petty triumph. Wen Zhuliu follows close behind her, face impassive, hands folded calmly at his sides. Behind them, Wen cultivators flood the space, red and gold a jarring stain against the cool blues and purples of Lotus Pier.
Lan Wangji does not look at Wang Lingjiao.
He looks at Wen Zhuliu.
The Core-Melting Hand stands exactly where Lan Wangji expects him to be- half a step behind, slightly to the right, positioned to strike without warning. His presence is like a knot in the air, heavy and dangerous. In every loop where Lotus Pier falls, Wen Zhuliu is the turning point. The moment hope becomes inevitability.
Lan Wangji’s fingers curl slowly.
Not yet.
At the front of the hall, Yu-furen stands with her spine straight and her whip coiled at her side, eyes blazing with fury. Wei Ying and Jiang Wanyin flank her, both tense, both visibly bristling. Wei Ying’s expression is sharp-edged amusement layered over anger, his stance loose but ready. Jiang Wanyin looks like a drawn bowstring, vibrating with contained rage.
Wang Lingjiao begins to speak.
She prattles on about disrespect and insults, about a kite flown by a sixth shidi, about a red circle that somehow warrants punishment, even if it makes no sense. Her voice echoes unpleasantly off the stone, each word more absurd than the last.
Lan Wangji listens with half an ear.
The rest of his attention tracks movement, spacing, threat vectors. He counts exits. Measures distance. Notes the exact angle of Wen Zhuliu’s neck.
Wang Lingjiao’s finger snaps out, pointing directly at Wei Ying.
“He must be punished,” she declares, “Whipped, for daring to insult the Wen sect!”
Wei Ying opens his mouth.
Yu-furen moves faster.
Zidian cracks through the air, purple lightning snapping as Wei Ying is forced down to his knees. The sound is sharp, violent, unmistakable.
“Wei Wuxian!” Jiang Wanyin shouts, voice breaking as he surges forward- only to be held back by Madam Yu’s servants.
Lan Wangji’s vision narrows.
This moment.
It always starts here.
Wei Ying is forced to the floor, breath knocked from his lungs, the whip biting close enough that Lan Wangji can feel it like an echo across his own skin, across his own back. Wang Lingjiao smiles, delighted, cruel.
Lan Wangji has never hated anyone more than he hates her.
“Again,” she says.
Lan Wangji steps forward.
He does not raise his voice.
He does not announce himself.
Bichen is in his hand in a blink- silent, lethal, a familiar weight that feels like an extension of his will. The sword arcs once, clean and precise.
Wen Zhuliu’s head leaves his shoulders.
There is no dramatic spray, no lingering spectacle. Just a sudden, impossible separation, his body swaying once before collapsing to the floor, lifeless.
The hall freezes.
For a heartbeat, no one breathes.
Wang Lingjiao’s scream pierces the silence.
Lan Wangji turns on her.
Her eyes are wide with disbelief, mouth open, words failing to form. She stumbles back a step, heels catching on stone.
Lan Wangji does not hesitate.
He closes the distance in two strides and drives Bichen forward. The blade sinks into her throat, stopping her scream short. Her body stiffens, then goes slack as he withdraws the sword and lets her fall.
Blood splashes across his sleeves.
Lan Wangji feels himself smile.
It is vicious and brief and gone almost as soon as it appears- but it is real.
The Wen cultivators shout, a commotion erupting at once like he expects it to. Steel is drawn, talismans flung, spiritual energy exploding through the hall in violent waves.
Wei Ying is on his feet instantly.
Jiang Wanyin moves with him, the two of them cutting down the nearest attackers with furious efficiency. Years of training, of sparring, of fighting side by side snap into place like muscle memory, even if he knows the swords are not their own.
Yu-furen whirls on Lan Wangji, eyes blazing.
“What is the meaning of this, Lan-er-gongzi?!”
“There is no time,” Wei Ying snaps, already moving, “Everyone else is gone. The younger disciples and the elders have all been evacuated. An army is coming.”
Yu-furen laughs harshly.
“Cowards,” she spits, “Running before the fight even begins-”
“A-Niang,” Jiang Wanyin cuts in sharply, voice shaking but resolute, “Zewu-jun’s letter said something is terribly wrong. We cannot underestimate the Wen sect. Not like the Lan sect did.”
Yu-furen turns on him.
“Do not speak to me of the Lans,” she snarls, “Pacifists and fools-”
Lan Wangji’s jaw tightens.
He watches her lie, watches her cling to pride and bitterness even now, even with Wen blood staining the floor. He says nothing.
Jiang Wanyin steps closer to his mother, lowering his voice, forcing her attention. Whatever he says next, Lan Wangji does not hear it. He is already moving.
He reaches up and unhooks the guqin from his back.
Wei Ying catches the motion from behind the lotus throne and stills. Their eyes meet for a fraction of a second.
Lan Wangji inclines his head.
Wei Ying grins- sharp, bright, feral- and slips out of sight.
The doors to the main hall slam open.
Wen soldiers pour in.
An army.
Lan Wangji sits.
His fingers find the strings, steady despite the roar of approaching footsteps. He draws a breath and plucks.
The sound is not music.
It is execution.
Spiritual energy tears through the chord, invisible and absolute, ripping forward in a lethal arc. The front line of Wen soldiers falls as one, bodies hitting the ground before they understand what has happened.
Lan Wangji does not stop.
He plays again. And again.
Each note is a blade, each chord a calculated strike. The guqin hums beneath his hands, vibrating with power barely contained. Soldiers scatter, shouting in fear, some fleeing back toward the doors.
Chord Assassination.
Wei Ying bursts from his hiding place, talismans flying from his hands in a chaotic storm. Explosions of light and force tear through the ranks, driving the Wen cultivators into disarray.
Some escape.
Wei Ying does not let them get far.
He chases them down with a wild, triumphant laugh, cutting them off before they can reach the outer gates.
Lan Wangji rises and follows.
Outside, the battle spreads across the docks and courtyards. Wards snap shut, traps spring, and the Wen army finds itself bleeding and cornered in territory that suddenly hates them.
Lan Wangji and Wei Ying stand back to back.
Just the two of them.
Just like the first time- only this time, Lan Wangji knows every mistake before it happens. He anticipates strikes, counters before blows land, moves with ruthless clarity. Wei Ying covers his blind spots, fluid and fearless, talismans and sword dancing together in deadly harmony.
The last Wen soldier falls.
Silence descends, broken only by the crackle of distant fires and the sound of their breathing.
Lotus Pier still stands.
Lan Wangji feels it then- the sudden, bone-deep emptiness as his spiritual energy finally gives out. The world tilts. His fingers slip from the guqin strings.
Wei Ying turns just in time to catch him.
“Lan Zhan!” His voice is sharp with concern, arms steady as he holds Lan Wangji upright.
Lan Wangji tries to speak. He cannot.
His vision blurs, edges fading.
Wei Ying studies him for a second, then exhales in relief, a soft smile breaking across his face.
“You’re just exhausted,” he murmurs, “That’s all. We did it.”
Lan Wangji looks at him.
At the silver gleam of his eyes, bright as moonlight reflecting off water. At the smile that is gentle and real and alive.
“We did it, baobei,” Wei Ying repeats, “Rest now.”
Lan Wangji closes his eyes, with a soft smile sitting on his lips.
For the first time in thirty-three lives, he allows himself to believe it.
Lan Wangji wakes to the scent of lotus incense and clean linen.
For a moment, he does not move. He listens instead- to the quiet hum of spiritual energy in the room, to the distant sounds of water lapping against the docks, to the faint, uneven rhythm of breathing very close to him. His body feels heavy, emptied out in the way that only follows complete spiritual exhaustion, but it is not pain that grounds him to the present.
It is warmth.
His right hand is held.
Lan Wangji turns his head slowly, carefully, as if the movement itself might shatter something fragile. Wei Ying is there- slumped forward in a chair drawn too close to the bed, his forehead resting against the edge of the pillow. His fingers are loosely but securely wrapped around Lan Wangji’s hand, as if even in sleep he is afraid to let go. His lashes cast soft shadows against his cheeks, his expression unguarded and peaceful in a way Lan Wangji has seen far too rarely.
Alive, Lan Wangji thinks.
The word lands with quiet, overwhelming weight.
Wei Ying is alive.
Lan Wangji feels heat rise sharply to his ears. He turns his face slightly away, schooling his expression into stillness, even as something dangerously close to a smile presses at the corners of his mouth. He tightens his fingers just a fraction- not enough to wake Wei Ying, only enough to reassure himself that this is real.
The movement is enough.
Wei Ying stirs, blinking blearily as he lifts his head. For a heartbeat, he looks confused, silver-gray eyes unfocused. Then they sharpen, fixing on Lan Wangji’s face.
“Lan Zhan?”
His voice is rough with sleep- and then it brightens instantly.
“You’re awake!”
Lan Wangji shifts, propping himself up slightly.
“Mn.”
Wei Ying beams at him, wide and unrestrained, joy written plainly across his face.
“Good morning,” he says, as if this is the most ordinary thing in the world, as if Lotus Pier has not very nearly been reduced to ash the last time Lan Wangji had been fully conscious.
Lan Wangji swallows.
“How long… was I unconscious?”
Wei Ying hums thoughtfully.
“Three days. The healers said you pushed yourself way past your limits. Jiang-shushu was pacing holes into the floor.” He pauses, then adds more softly, “I stayed.”
Lan Wangji’s grip tightens without his permission.
“Thank you.”
Wei Ying waves it off, but his eyes soften.
“You saved Lotus Pier,” he whispers, leaning closer as if the words themselves are sacred as they come from his mouth, “You saved everyone. The Jiangs owe you a debt we could never repay.”
Lan Wangji raises his free hand and places one finger gently against Wei Ying’s lips.
Wei Ying freezes.
“You do not owe me,” Lan Wangji says quietly.
His voice is steady, but there is something raw beneath it.
“There is no debt, Wei Ying.”
Wei Ying stares at him for a long moment. Then he smiles- not his usual bright grin, but something gentler, something touched with an emotion Lan Wangji doesn’t fully recognise on him. He nods, and his gaze drifts downward.
His thumb brushes against Lan Wangji’s wrist.
Wei Ying’s expression changes.
Lan Wangji follows his gaze and sees it immediately- the black character etched into his skin, stark against pale flesh.
三十三.
Thirty-three.
Instinctively, Lan Wangji pulls his hand back, trying to cover it.
“It is nothing.”
Wei Ying catches his wrist before he can hide it completely. His fingers are warm, grounding.
“Lan Zhan, baobei,” he says softly, “That’s not nothing.”
Lan Wangji hesitates.
He has faced armies without flinching. He has died. He has watched Wei Ying die. And yet, this- this quiet room, this gentle concern- is what makes his chest tighten painfully.
“It is… a count,” he says at last.
“A count of what, Lan Zhan?”
Lan Wangji closes his eyes.
“Of how many times I failed.”
Wei Ying does not let go, does not show any confusion on his face.
So Lan Wangji tells him.
He speaks slowly, carefully, as if placing each truth down might cause it to break. He tells Wei Ying about waking in the Xuanwu Cave. About realising time had folded in on itself. About the pain, the mark on his wrist, the knowledge that something terrible was coming and that he could not stop it.
He tells him about Lotus Pier burning.
Again.
And again.
And again.
Wei Ying’s grip tightens as Lan Wangji continues. He speaks of failed plans, of desperation, of watching the people of Lotus Pier die in different ways, of learning and adapting and growing stronger each time. When he reaches the fourth loop, his voice falters.
“The fourth,” he says quietly, “You did not survive, Wei Ying.”
Tears blur his vision. He does not bother to stop them.
Wei Ying makes a small, broken sound and pulls Lan Wangji into his arms.
Lan Wangji stiffens for half a heartbeat- then clutches back, burying his face against Wei Ying’s shoulder. He breathes in the familiar scent of lotus and peach blossoms, of smoke long since washed away.
“You didn’t give up,” Wei Ying whispers, over and over, “You didn’t give up on me. Thank you. Lan Zhan. Thank you, truly.”
Lan Wangji’s hands tremble.
When he pulls back, he does so reluctantly. His eyes burn, his chest aching with something too big to name.
Before he can stop himself, the words escape.
“Wei Ying… may I… kiss you?”
Wei Ying freezes.
Lan Wangji’s heart stutters violently. He withdraws at once, mortified.
“I spoke out of turn. Forgive me- I don’t know what came over me. I-”
Wei Ying catches his sleeve.
“Lan Zhan,” he says, voice soft and awed, “I always wondered.”
Lan Wangji looks up.
Wei Ying smiles, a little shaky, a little stunned.
“I wondered why you mattered so much to me. Why did it hurt when you looked at me like you hated me. Why I trusted you even when everything else was falling apart.”
He laughs quietly.
“Turns out I’m just in love with you.”
Lan Wangji’s breath leaves him in a rush.
“My sweet zhiji, it could only ever be you,” Wei Ying whispers, and then he kisses him.
It is gentle at first- soft, uncertain, as if both of them are afraid this might vanish if they move too fast. Then Lan Wangji responds, deepening the kiss with a quiet sound that surprises even himself. It is everything he has held back for lifetimes, everything he has endured to reach this moment.
Wei Ying laughs between kisses, breathless and bright.
“I love you,” he murmurs, “I fancy you. I want to stay with you- every day.”
Lan Wangji presses his forehead to Wei Ying’s.
“Love you,” he replies, voice steady despite the tears on his cheeks, “Yes. Everyday.”
They stay like that for a long moment, breathing each other in, grounding themselves in the simple truth of being alive together.
Lan Wangji lifts his hand and unwinds the white ribbon from his wrist, where he had placed it before the attack on Lotus Pier. Carefully, reverently, he ties it around Wei Ying’s.
“So you remember,” he says softly, “You are mine.”
Wei Ying’s eyes shine. He kisses Lan Wangji again- quick, delighted- just as the door slams open.
“WHAT IN THE SEVEN BLOODY HELLS-”
Jiang Wanyin freezes in the doorway, eyes bulging.
Wei Ying groans.
“Ah. Timing, A-Cheng.”
Lan Wangji does not let go of his hand.
-fin-