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While Sand was basically eye-fucking his friend on stage, Ray was witnessing it all backstage and he was not enjoying himself. If it wasn't for Sand's voice and his suppressants which he was taking for his aggressive issues and posttraumatic syndrome with which Ray was diagnosed after constantly visiting his therapist who later advised him to see a psychiatrist after he stopped drinking or taking any other toxic substances which would not allow the antidepressants function in his body.
But even under meds, Ray still had a lot to do to not burst in the stage and show the audience a little teaser of drama play which he was offered to audition for by his junior Jack. Jack heard stories about their friend group which inspired him about his next projects but Ray would play a bitch character called Paris in the Romeo & Romeo play who's supposed to be in love with the bottom Romeo and because Sand doesn't give off any bottom vibes and didn't even get any role offer for that play, Ray rejected him. Even if he did, Jack wouldn't allow them to play lovers because he was taking the play too seriously and cast the actors based on their visuals and personality besides their acting skills. In Jack's view, he didn't match Sand at all in any role which was ridiculous. Of course he was the best fit for Sand but when he watched Sand sing so graciously with someone else, he could see the vision which made his blood boil. Sand could have chemistry with everyone. He already saw that when it came to Nick, Boeing and Top, all people he knew and whom Sand kissed before but they've been dating for a long time now, over a year and his long-term lover can't act like this with someone else, that's what his intrusive thoughts kept telling him.
"But he looks at him so lustfully … are you really the one he wants?"
Shut up! Ray was starting to lose control over his thoughts but fortunately the song ended and he spotted Sand talking to his new friend. Friend … what a joke. The only stable friendship Sand could keep without fucking the other person was with Nick and later Mew. They got along mainly because they could gossip about Ray all the time. Both shared their experience with him so they always discussed Ray's bad traits.
On the other hand … Ray used to love Mew romantically. Why wasn't Sand jealous of Mew? Did he trust him that much in their relationship or did he love him less than before? Ray had to stop these thoughts somehow but alcohol was out of options.
Actually … after undergoing the rehab, alcohol started to disgust him. It could be caused by his meds or the awful withdrawal syndromes which made his life a complete hell for three months and Sand's too who had to use force whenever Ray had a seizure or refused to see his doctors. His detoxing was successful in the end which made their relationship even stronger and Sand believed that he could stay without alcohol since then which made Sand's behavior even more suspicious.
Ray stopped thinking about it and to resolve the situation even without alcohol, he decided to confront them before Sand's new friend would be able to drag Sand somewhere else.
"Sand?" Ray called him innocently and put on his puppy eyes which always mesmerized Sand during their eye contacts.
"Are we leaving now?" Ray asked pleadingly and Sand didn't give even one glance to Dean, his attention belonged to Ray completely.
"Oh right. Dean, this is my boyfriend Ray." 1–0 for Ray. Dean had no chance ever since Sand's eyes spotted Ray which gave Ray more confidence to act now.
"Nice voice, really but … your voices didn't match if you know what I mean." Ray frowned at Dean with his bratty eyes who didn't stop smiling. Just from this Ray knew that Dean was a big freak, maybe even freakier than Ray himself.
"Well, Dean, it was nice to see you. Maybe we could repeat it some other time … if you come with your partner."
Sand used this safe word to kindly reject Dean and please Ray at the same time, basically kill two birds with one stone. To not prolong the tension between Ray and Dean, he grabbed his guitar and intertwined his hand with Ray's to drag him away. Ray wasn't satisfied yet though. All he wanted to do was to humiliate Dean for hitting on someone else's boyfriend but Sand wouldn't allow him to.
"You watched us the whole time, didn't you?"
Sand muttered when he was putting one of his two helmets on Ray's head. Ray could drive now but lately he was finding excuses just to make Sand drive him on his motorbike just like before. His back got even broader after Sand got the money and time to visit the gym instead of working out at home with almost no tools for it. Just small dumbbells.
"I did, especially the part when your lips moved too close to the microphone in Dean's hand. And those flirty glances were unnoticeable… good job, Sand. It really challenged my self-control." Sand chuckled and buckled his helmet.
"You are still getting jealous, good. Witnessing it after longer time entertained me too much." Sand scratched Ray's chin and put on his helmet as well.
"You love to bug me, don't you? But you are playing with fire. I was ready to throw the same scene like during Mew's birthday … I was this close to crushing your friend in the dust."
Ray said while he was brushing the dust of his and Sand's jackets. Those smokers outside released some ash in the air which dirtied their second-handed clothes.
"Hmm but you didn't. I actually wanted to know how far we got with your therapy … and you managed to behave like an obedient dog. Would you like a reward or do you prefer continuing in this argument to stir some drama between us?"
Yeah, Sand was a freak. And it's Ray who made one from him. Suddenly Sand was getting turned on from every little interaction between them but manly when some moments from their past repeated and the deja Vu controlled his hormones.
"Drama you say … fine, I know that you are still bothered by the fact that Jack didn't offer you any role for his drama so let's put some act here in public. We'll argue but make it look realistic for people to think that we are breaking up while … it'll be our little foreplay."
Sand grinned and gave Ray a clear answer. He wouldn't go anywhere with Dean. He wanted to be scolded and be called by names because what was making them hate each other before was now the main source of their arousal and they discovered it after their hateful make-out session in the rehearsal room where Sand played his guitar every time. They could have the spiciest sex in their lives if Top wasn't such a cockblocker and didn't record them.
Ray gulped as he was preparing to slur Sand publicly while Sand was patiently waiting with his arms crossed. Ray shared one last glance with Sand to let him know he was about to begin and Sand let him start first.
"I know you were about to fuck him you whore. The way you looked at him, are you giving such flirty looks to everyone who's got two legs and fine ass?! Would you spread your legs for everyone if I weren't watching?!"
Ray shouted and frowned at Sand intensively but at the same time he was making sure that he didn't overdo it and that Sand was fine with it. He used to call him this before when he was drunk but now it was consented and both parts enjoyed it.
Sand smirked and approached Ray to make him see their height difference from almost non-existent distance between them. Ray knew he was going to get hard during this public show.
"Whore … as if I were the one willing to kiss everyone and have threesomes in all kinds of places? With complete strangers at the same time. Just because we are dating doesn't mean that you are allowed to be this possessive. I'm. Not. Your. Property."
Sand kept hitting Ray's chest with his finger after every word he pronounced and Ray wondered if he could smack him against the closest wall now or wait for something bigger.
"You are my boyfriend. Only mine and you can't look at anyone like this besides me you fucking cheater!"
Now he's done it. Sand didn't look as entertained as before but to his surprise he pulled Ray's collar and pushed him against a hard concrete wall. His lips tasted like iron which let Ray know that Sand bit his lips before kissing him. Sand was sucking him faster and faster while Ray's tongue was barely able to catch up to his. Sand squeezed his body even more to the wall with his chest and Ray tangled his leg against Sand's. His butt was in Sand's reach and Sand didn't hesitate to grope it while their bodies were rubbing against one another and both had a large bulge in their pants protruding but when Sand's hardened cock kept crushing his, Ray felt a stinging pain in his erection and his balls as if Sand kicked him in the crotch when he was only squeezing him with his knee to support his position.
"Sand, Sand, let go." He patted Sand's shoulders gently and Sand released him from their erotic interlock but was hurt at the same time. He didn't know what to think.
"Sand?" Ray approached him after his balls got more space and the pain stopped but Sand seemed to be in trance.
"Sorry for interrupting, it was so hot but I got too sensitive down there and … felt pain. When I'm sober, my body is just more sensitive."
"You didn't mean it, did you?" Ray blinked twice. He didn't even think about what he said. He just kept saying stuff which he knew would trigger Sand but Sand was actually listening to every single word.
"You mean the whore? No way! You are just into replaying some moments so I replayed our argument before my car accident. I didn't mean any of the slurs I said."
"The cheater …" So that's what got stuck in Sand's mind. He already heard some of the slurs from Ray before but this was fresh for him and it's only because he got jealous of his energy with Dean. It inspired him in that roleplay.
"Oh I just used it after remembering seeing you with Dean but it was just for the foreplay. I know you, Sand. You are not like Top. You'd never cheat even if I pissed you off to the core and even if I gave you a reason to be jealous. I knew that your attention would be only mine when I stepped between you two."
Sand nodded but didn't look at him. This was new for him and he didn't like Ray even thinking of this word. Sure, he flirted with Dean just to make Ray jealous and light the spark between them to make their relationship entertaining even while dating but he didn't expect to hear this word about himself and he heard many words and slurs.
"Come on, Sand, don't be upset. I know what you went through but let's not ruin our night by this. I still want … my reward."
Without caring if anyone was looking, Ray slid his hand down to Sand's crotch and grabbed his cock which perfectly formed its shape through the denim fabric. Sand let him touch him and even rub his bulge with his fingernails while they were still outside of the building where the party was happening. However, one person opened the main door and witnessed it. It was no one else than Dean who seemed to be everywhere where drama was happening. The actor who doesn't need any playwright to live in drama.
"Oh woah, is the closest hotel in your location too far for you or do you like to do it outside? If yes, I'd like to watch you."
Ray removed his hand from Sand's dick and approached Dean with the cuntiest smile.
"Sure, I wouldn't mind showing you whom Sand really wants but … it could hurt your feelings if you have any."
Dean still didn't stop smiling. He was risking that Raffy would make a move on Jack again while he was spending time with his seniors but this situation entertained him too. Jack could wait. In the end, he's always been his even if they didn't date at the moment.
"I don't think so. I'd like to see my seniors doing it like animals. Mainly Phi Sand who must sound really well during it like during his singing. However, I don't think this is what he wants as well."
He looked back at Sand who seemed to be more tense. Ray made him frustrated and now he was paying attention to someone else when he was caressing him one minute ago.
"Hmm, I forgot that Sand doesn't like the audience during our lovemaking … watch some porn then, Dean. If you are this free to follow others, I don't think anyone's waiting for you tonight."
Ray winked at him and then grabbed Sand to drag him to his motorbike. Sand seemed to be in shock so Ray was the one to ride the motorbike while Sand was hugging him tightly.
"Did I overstep this time? He deserved it though."
"No, it changed nothing for me and nothing for him as well. He keeps flirting with all the hot guys he comes across. I'm sure he's flirting with someone again by now."
"Oh so you know you are hot. And you knew he's flirting with hot guys … you actually planned this out ever since you've invited him to sing with you, right? You know, you could just tell me. Your mother praised my singing, don't you remember? On your 25th birthday … but you went for this in the end."
"You'd do it? You never wanted to sing in public and I wanted to take you to karaoke many times."
Ray sighed. Before he was drunk almost every day so he didn't mind singing in public nor on Sand's birthday in Y.O.L.O. bar but when he's sober … he doesn't like the attention that much. Especially attention aimed at Sand during his performances but he's got it secured most of the time. Sand always has a big bruise on his neck … hickey is more concrete but he bites him hard every time to make the hickey as big and visible as possible. Now he didn't do it just so the juniors wouldn't make fun of Sand and this happens.
"Fine, I don't care about other people but if it's the only way to stop others from hitting on you, I've got no choice. Singing in public alongside you is it then. Our sexy dance would reveal more than it should. I think … that I can face alcohol in the bars now."
Ray gulped because he wasn't so sure about it. Of course it disgusted him as if he never drank but for Sand he was willing to challenge himself.
"Also … as much as I hate that Dean guy, he was right about the hotel. It's already late and we are still too far from our place."
"Hmm, let's go then. Maybe I'll feel better once we go there and … continue in the plan."
"So your plan didn't come to an end yet, huh? Now I'm curious even more. Your scheming is always impressive like when you exposed Top–."
Sand pinched his hip to make him stop talking which caused him to groan out loud. He was dramatic again and moaned on purpose to get Sand back in the mood but fortunately for him it still worked on Sand. His tactics worked even though he used them many times when he was bored or annoyed and wanted to have semi public sex to kill time and make the waiting more entertaining.
In the end they came across a motel on their way and it didn't look twice bad from the outside so they decided to give it a shot. They parked the motorbike outside and Ray was way too eager to pay for their room even though Sand told him they should always split the bill.
"Look what I got besides the key."
Ray threw the tiny bottle of lube into Sand's hands and then led him to their room. Once they opened the door and stepped in their room, Sand couldn't be more annoyed while Ray absolutely loved it.
"Water bed? Purple neon light? Sex toys? Ray, are you sure this is a motel?"
"It is but a motel for people who get horny during their ride … like us."
Ray grinned and threw his black jacket with blue stains on the bed. Sand gulped when he saw how sweaty Ray actually was. It was hot there but Ray didn't take off the warm jacket which Sand especially picked for him in one better thrift store when they were even selling branded clothes which Ray used to wear. At first Ray didn't like to wear anything second-handed until Sand lectured him how economical it actually is and Ray didn't want to have more lessons from Sand so he agreed to buy clothes from there but only if Sand picked it for him and … put it on him in the fitting room which always lead to semi public sex. Most of the time it was just a hand job, rarely blow job or fingering and exceptionally full penetration but they had to be very far from everyone to not get caught. Sand hated to be disturbed during sex while Ray liked the adrenaline of getting caught but hand job was something none of them minded and that's where their freaks matched.
This time Ray crossed the line by rubbing Sand outside at night where anyone could see them under the street light but Sand seemed to be more deliberated nowadays as if he got used to Ray's public kinks finally.
"I'm getting a shower. I reek of smoke, you too. We smoked together before my performance."
Ray smiled and nodded. Even though Sand's singing improved very quickly and his confidence rose, he still felt nervous and needed to get rid of the stress. Ray always kept him company and kept comforting him as if Sand was about to give birth but with Sand's fanbase growing, Sand thought more about not wanting to disappoint them and always gave it his best.
"Are you implying that I should fuck you right during shower, babe?" Ray's eyes sparkled but Sand only rolled his eyes.
"I don't have energy for more rounds so let's keep it in bed, okay? You'll have your shower later." Ray bit his lip. This wasn't enough.
"Another idea. I'll watch you take a shower and masturbate during it. Come on, Sand, I'm too horny!"
Sand face-palmed but rather than letting Ray watch porn and come after watching two strangers fucking on screen, he allowed him to watch. He knew some couples who didn't mind if the other one watched porn but just because he was a guy as well it didn't mean he didn't mind. Why would Ray need it when they have sex every day and he's always willing to meet his crazy ideas and positions?
"Sand … I know that Boston was a great example of why not allow recording during sex but … can I record you showering? Just for personal use when I must actually work."
"Sure but only on the phone. If you put it on a flash drive and lost it, it could be spread and I don't want to let it happen."
That's what they could agree on. Why would he let other people watch him when this man belongs to him only? He might be crazy but not at this rate.
"Of course, I wouldn't allow anyone else to see it. Good thing we are not friends with Boston anymore."
"I'd say Nick is way more skilled in this but we can trust him as long as we are on good terms."
Ray nodded even though he didn't trust Nick that much but the feeling had to be mutual. While Ray was jealous of him, Nick was worried about his best friend because Ray hurt him many times and their long relationship made him worried even more as if he took Ray for a psychopathic abuser with schizophrenia but Ray understood his reasons.
Once Sand started to take off his clothes, Ray turned on the camera. Just watching him strip down himself completely made his hardened cock twitch in his pants and Ray started to unbutton his bottom while sitting on the cold tiles.
Ray now watched Sand's boxers slip down on his legs and to tease Ray a bit, Sand threw it at Ray's face which made Ray want to rush to him and penetrate him right away but he was holding himself back yet and obediently enjoyed the show.
"You like what you see?" Sand asked while he was pouring warm water on his chest and the water drops were flowing down to his happy trail.
If Ray's death is not caused by Sand's sexiness whenever he provokes him, Ray isn't interested. What Ray did was even freakier though because as soon as he pulled down his pants and released his erection, he rubbed his cock and balls with Sand's boxers which was too much even for Sand who had to look away for a moment. The transparent shower screen just had to show everything.
"My turn, do you like what you see, Sand?"
Ray looked at him seductively and Sand was losing his breath. With other people he was usually dominant, with his past sex partners as well even with Boeing but with Ray he was losing it. There's never been a night when they wouldn't switch because both wanted to experience both positions in a row and both enjoyed it when the dominance kept switching between the two of them as if they were fighting for it infinitely but no, it was their ideal sex life.
The more intensive Sand's showering got, the more lube Ray applied on his penis. Sand was embracing his body with his strong big hands and his cock was swinging between his legs. His erection disappeared during the ride. It wasn't because he didn't want to continue what he started with Ray but because Dean's appearance and his conversation with Ray turned him off completely.
However, while he was watching Ray doing himself right on the floor, scrubbing his cock with his boxers while he was covered in lube, he couldn't help but to feel his dick twitching and once he saw Ray squirt his cum right in front of him, he got a hard-on again.
"Good … you are ready now. Show I join you in the shower or do you want to keep it to bed?"
Ray had that sly smile on his face and Sand caught himself blushing. After seeing his boyfriend being cute whenever he wanted something from him, acting like a puppy and begging him for favor, Sand couldn't help but to get flustered whenever Ray showed him his bold playboyish side.
"Fuck it. Come here."
Sand could be strong in toughest moments of his life but not when it came to this. His knees almost broke when he saw Ray pleasing himself, moaning and letting out tears from his eyes during this pleasure. Not only that. Ray was a menace who kept screaming Sand's name even when he didn't do anything. He knew how much Sand liked it and played this part really well.
Ray was more than eager to take off his clothes which were stained with his cum and throw them down on the pavers.
Once Ray stepped in the shower, he grabbed Sand's neck and Sand's hand traveled from his hips to his cheeks. He squished him hard and squeezed him to himself. There was no distance between them. Sand was already soaked in water so Ray let the water flow down on his own body as well to make sure their bodies were slippery during another shower sex.
"Sand … what turned you on this much, hmm?" Ray asked with the biggest grin on his face and Sand didn't answer. He was already kissing Ray's neck and sucked him hard enough to create hickeys on his shoulders. Ray enjoyed every bit of it and moaned every time Sand bit his skin harder. In the end Sand wasn't punished at all because Ray was way too pleased to even try anything.
"It's just … I want to make it up to you …"
Sand muttered during the kisses and then his fingers moved closer to Ray's rim but Ray grabbed his hand.
"Rather use the bath pil behind you, it might not go so smoothly."
Sand nodded and reached for the motel's bath oil (which was completely new) so he could finally slip his two longest fingers in Ray's hole.
Ray bit his lip once Sand massaged his anus and his breathing got even deeper. Sand felt him melting on his body once Ray's chest leaned on his and soon Ray wrapped his hands around Sand's neck which pleased Sand even more. Now Ray was his baby which he needed to take care of and he was very glad about it.
"See?" Ray moaned again when he was trying to speak. "That Dean guy is too big for you … I'm the perfect fit."
"Hmm, you might be right."
Sand teased Ray on purpose and Ray bent his head to thurst his tongue in Sand's throat and suck him roughly to erase that doubt from his brain. Sand cooperated and pushed his fingers even deeper to get to Ray's rectum which made Ray pull out from the kiss and groan out loud.
"No one fits me better than you." Sand grinned and with the last push he made Ray come again right on his soaked waist but the flowing water washed it off almost immediately. Sand pulled his fingers out of Ray's ass and then pinned him against the cold tiles, his chest was glued to the wall while his butt was tickled by Sand's erection.
"Should I show you?" Sand whispered in Ray's ear who enjoyed this way too much.
"Hmm, you can but … after gaining some muscles. I hoped that we could make this even spicier." Spicier? Sand believed that he made it as hot as possible but Ray used his hands to get out of Sand's pin and once he turned, he wrapped his hand's around Sand's neck.
"Now grab my ass and lift me up if you aren't too weak to hold me like that." Ray challenged him which worked on Sand too well. He didn't spend so much time in the gym to be mocked by Ray like this and did as Ray told him.
Once he grabbed his butt and lifted him, he pushed him against the wall to support their balance and to be able to penetrate Ray in this positions.
"See? It wasn't that hard, was it? My strong boyfriend."
Ray whispered in his ear and bit his earlobe. His back actually hurt now because Sand was rough while pushing him. As their bodies were wet, Ray could slip in his hands so he had to act fast but Ray didn't let the pain ruin their lustful night like this. If he told Sand, he'd put him down and hurry to put some ointment on his back and boom, sexy time is over.
Sand bent his neck to lick every bit of Ray's cleavage. Ray had his legs wrapped around Sand's ass and had the strength to move one of Sand's hand on his breast which caught Sand off guard.
"Prove me you are strong enough. Hold me with one hand."
Ray challenged him again which made Sand cross his limits and do as he said. Ray was being pretty manipulative before but now he aimed that manipulative talk at their sex because it was the only time when Sand obeyed him and didn't scold him for breaking the rules in their relationship which is NO MANIPULATIVE ACTIONS ARE ALLOWED, INCLUDING JEALOUSY. Which meant that he couldn't treat him like his property whenever a hot guy or a hot girl approached him and that happened very often.
Squishing Ray's tit and rubbing his nipples with his middle finger entertained both of them too much. That much that Ray got hard for the third time in a row. Ray actually didn't question Sand not coming even once till now.
Once his boyfriend started working on his health and mainly stamina, he lasted way longer in bed and it took him a longer time to come as he learned to control it better. It wasn't accidental anymore like before but at the same time he kinda missed it. Seeing Sand's vulnerable face after he felt shy for coming sooner than he intended entertained him all the time as the biggest menace in their relationship. He loved witnessing Sand embarrassed and even though Sand became way more confident, he was still getting embarrassed during semi public sex or simple affection and that's why he wanted to do it in public almost every time. Not because he wanted to brag and show everyone how amazing his boyfriend makes him feel. He didn't care about other people. He cared about himself and Sand.
"~San-♥? Will you fuck me now?~" Ray asked as nicely and cutely as possible and Sand didn't waste any more time. He moved his hand again down on Ray's thick thigh and positioned him in a way that his hole was in the right angle for his hardened cock.
"It's without condom now and lube is out of our reach. Can you handle it with the bath oil?" Ray knew that if they'd overdo it and his sensitive skin got torn, his ass wouldn't thank him but he ignored it.
"Sure, you could feel that I'm pretty loose … after our yesterday's marathon." Sand gulped and got flustered which was exactly the reason why Ray mentioned it.
At first Sand moved his cock to Ray's groin area to give him a little teaser and after squirting some gel on it, he slowly penetrated Ray and believe it, Ray has never been on cloud nine until now. Sure he felt incredibly happy after he chose Sand instead of Mew and Sand didn't reject him even after the awful things he's done to him but this reminded him of how foolish he was to treat Sand as a second option. It felt like digging the cave to find gold while there was diamond near it and he ignored it cuz he didn't pay attention to it and didn't realize it was the rarest gem. Then later he returned for it and saw its value after getting to know it and exploring it more. Yeah, that was Sand to him. His rarest jewel which could not be replaced at all. Never. And that's why he had to guard him so no one would find Sand's true value and try to steal him from him. He bet that Dean saw him only as a good time for one night, nothing more. Just like Ray did when he stole Sand from that girl to sleep with him. Sand was available at that time though so Ray had more time getting to know Sand unlike Dean who's got no chance of spending more time with Sand.
Sand pushed his tip inside Ray now so his mind went blank and he could not think about anything else than sex with Sand. He was sure that Sand caught him thinking of something else because Ray could lose concentration even during times like this but now he couldn't focus on anything else. Especially when Sand began to move within him and Ray wanted to make it even more entertaining for both of them by bouncing on Sand's cock and pushing his weight up from Sand's shoulders.
He was tousling and pulling Sand's longer hair with one hand. The other hand was scratching Sand's back while Sand digged his guitarist nails in Ray's thighs. The pleasure couldn't be even better but it was so good that both were getting drained pretty soon. Everything great had to end soon and once Sand managed to come inside him after 13 minutes, Ray came on his waist again and together they melted down in the shower. They were still embracing each other while they were sitting down and while Sand pulled his withered dick out of Ray's anus.
"I love you, Sand. Even if I may be nasty sometimes, I love you the most." Ray said before he fell unconscious on Sand's chest.
Sand was stroking him the whole time and after he wiped both of them with towels, he carried Ray into the water bed and wrapped him in the motel's white bathrobe. Then he dried his hair and put a wet cloth on his forehead and kissed his nose. He felt bad that he didn't manage to tell Ray he loves him the most as well before he passed out but he hoped that Ray knew it even if he provoked him by making him jealous.
Passing out after sex. It happened sometimes to Ray. He's got this condition after the long months of abstinence and the withdrawal seizures but his doctor assured them he should go back to normal by time. All he needs to do is to work on his health which is the hardest thing as Ray got a bit lazy but Sand always managed to drag him out with him whenever he had the time.
What happened to him once was that Ray passed out even during sex and Ray even told him later that he should continue to reach his orgasm as well but after Sand scolded him even more than usual he never mentioned it again. Of course Sand stopped it and took care of him immediately. Just the thought of continuing without Ray's conscience disgusted him to the core but he didn't blame Ray. He only asked him to care more about himself and never feel bad that Sand couldn't climax as well.
Ray woke up just when Sand was prepping himself for sleeping as well and wrapped both of them in duvet. He felt like he was troubling Sand every time because of this but Sand didn't mind at all. He was only happy that Ray succeeded in his long time abstinence, everything else didn't matter to him.
"Sorry … it happened again."
"You've done well. It's not your fault. It's just the consequence of your long-term alcoholism but … it'd be fine if you joined me more often in jogging and working out." Ray nodded and clung to Sand so he could kiss his cheek.
"Now you are all cute after torturing me that much but that doesn't mean we'll continue."
"Ahh, too bad. Just when we got the opportunity to do it in the water bed!" Sand was holding himself back to not facepalm himself.
"Such a spoiled brat. I should've been more strict with you."
"You've met me as an adult, there's no way you could raise me into modest person."
Sand smiled and kissed his forehead. Sure Sand could motivate him to live a better and healthier life but the rest of his habits stayed with Ray which made him who he is. That's why he doesn't agree with people who were saying that Sand "changed" him, he preferred the word "fixed" him. It explained better what Sand has done for him even though he suffered a lot while doing so. That's why he was determined to succeed in this relationship and if their love for each other is as deep as now even three years later, he'll definitely marry Sand.
The End