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The rain hadn't stopped for three days.
Barry stood at the window of S.T.A.R. Labs, watching water streak down the glass in rivulets that blurred the city lights beyond. Somewhere out there, across dimensions and realities, Oliver Queen was preparing to die. And Barry—Barry Allen, the fastest man alive—couldn't do a damn thing to stop it.
"You should eat something," Iris said softly from behind him.
He didn't turn around. "I'm not hungry."
Seven years. Seven years of partnership, of friendship, of standing side by side against impossible odds. Seven years of swallowing words that felt like they would choke him if he didn't say them, and like they'd destroy everything if he did.
Barry had been seventeen when he first met Oliver Queen. Not the Hood, not the Arrow—just a man who moved like violence contained in human form, all sharp edges and harder truths. He'd been terrified and electrified in equal measure, drawn to something in Oliver that he didn't have words for. Not then.
By the time he'd found those words, Iris had smiled at him in that particular way, and the path forward seemed clear. Safe.
Uncomplicated.
He'd buried it. Whatever he felt when Oliver looked at him with those storm-gray eyes, when their hands brushed during training, when Oliver's rare smiles felt like sunshine breaking through clouds meant only for him—he'd buried all of it so deep he'd almost convinced himself it wasn't real.
Almost.
"The Monitor says it has to be him," Barry said, his voice hollow. "Oliver's death is the only way to save billions."
Iris came to stand beside him. She knew. God, of course she knew. She'd always known, in the way that people who truly love you can see the shadows you cast even when you're standing in light.
"Have you told him?" she asked quietly.
Barry's laugh was bitter. "Told him what? That I've been in love with him since I was a kid? That every time he chose someone else, it felt like losing a race I wasn't allowed to run?" He pressed his forehead against the cool glass. "He loves someone on his Earth, Iris. He has a whole life. And even if he didn't—he's Oliver. Disciplined. Controlled. He'd never..."
He trailed off, because finishing that sentence hurt too much.
What Barry didn't know—what he couldn't know—was that on another Earth, Oliver Queen stood at a similar window, making a similar choice. That for seven years, Oliver had watched Barry shine like a star, brilliant and bright and aimed directly at Iris West. That he'd locked his own feelings away with the same iron discipline he'd learned on Lian Yu, because Barry Allen deserved the whole world, and Oliver Queen had always been better at sacrifice than at taking things for himself.
"You should tell him," Iris whispered. "Before it's too late."
But Barry just shook his head. Because some words, once spoken, couldn't be taken back. And what was the point of breaking both their hearts when the world was about to end anyway?
Three days later, when the Monitor came to collect Oliver Queen for the Crisis, Barry stood with the others and said nothing. He watched Oliver clasp his shoulder—that brief, firm touch they'd shared a hundred times before—and memorized the weight of it.
"Take care of them, Barry," Oliver said.
I don't want to take care of them. I want you to stay.
"Always," Barry replied.
And Oliver smiled, that rare, soft smile that Barry had learned to hoard like treasure. Then he was gone.
When Oliver Queen died saving the multiverse, a part of Barry Allen died with him. The part that had been seventeen and electrified.
The part that had learned what love felt like by standing too close to someone who burned too bright. The part that had swallowed seven years of words because discipline and duty mattered more than desire.
The part that would never, ever get to know that Oliver had been swallowing the same words all along.
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What Barry didn't know was that death, for Oliver Queen, wasn't an ending. It was a doorway to somewhere else—somewhere new, with memories of everyone he'd left behind carved into whatever served as his soul.
And in that new world, he would carry the weight of everything he'd never said.