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r/GachiTechUniversity • Posted by u/FAGGYJABBY 16 hours ago

AITA for falling in love with the guy who beats my ass daily?

Okay, so, crazy title I’m aware, but cut a guy some slack! It’s 1 AM and I have my Introductory BioChem final tomorrow so I’m sure you can guess all my emotions are charged from all the right places. Anywho, some background, I (20M) have this roommate (19M) who’s, like, the biggest prick to ever walk the fucking earth. I’m talking this guy runs a program stricter than any of my profs and that’s saying something!

Like, seriously, the first day we moved in he threw a fuss about my amazing decor and then lunged at me. Granted, I did insult this weird stick he brought into the room that he has some strange ass affinity for, but I digress. The guy punched me straight in the jaw and honestly we just kept bouncing at eachother until our faces were all banged up and looking back on it I was more than a little turned on. Really turned on. Thinking of it right now will get me fucking bricked. Anyway. This guys squander didn’t end like. Ever. I’m talking this dumb son of a bitch would find any excuse to beat me, to the point where I think this guy might be some kind of sadistic freak. He definitely swings my way, the gay way, totally into dudes if his haircut is anything to go by (he also gets weirdly giggly whenever our RA comes by, which might be bad news for me, I ain’t no blonde).

Anywho, getting off track, I’ll get to the point. This idiot will find any reason to beat me until I’m so bruised up I’m getting asked if I have a girlfriend who beats me. Which, close, might as well have one considering this guy treats me like a dog (which is kinda cute, and really fucking hot). We went on with this banter or whatever and still do but honestly… I think I pavloved myself into being inlove with the guy because I piss him off just so he gets his hands on me. Quite Pervy thing to say, I’m aware! However I could give less of a fuck. He’s pretty hot when he’s on top of me, I feel like it’s the closest I’ll ever get to a guy putting me in my place (shame, such a shame).

Anyway, all that aside, I get pretty jealous whenever he beats somebody else’s ass. The guys not violent per se, but he’s not going to keep his hands off if somebody irks him. At first I was fine being one of the many guys he beats the shit out of given that I got to snuggle up in the same room as him at the end of the day (which he’s not a fan of. He looks at me like I’m dirt under his shoe. Which again, super hot) but recently I’ve been getting this itching feeling when he’s not around. Y’know? It’s like my skins getting clawed off, I don’t wanna see him with any other guy, especially not if he’s leaving bruises all over ‘em. That’s the whole thing that’s tripping me out, because sure I could go into some other subreddit asking if I’m inlove with the guy or need some kind of psychological evaluation, but I’m here because I feel kinda like a dick for wanting his dick. He’s clearly got a whole different social life to mine and even if he likes dick there’s no guarantee it’ll be mine.

Thinking about that makes that weird, itchy hot feeling comeback again. It’s so fucking weird dude! I hate feeling like this because it’s like I’m some jealous girlfriend in middle school who won’t let her boyfriend share saltine crackers with his classmate for a group activity. This guy can beat whoever the fuck he wants! Why the fuck should I even care?

Sadly I do. I really fucking do. God he drives me crazy. I’ve gone from fantasizing about him beating me in nothing but boxers on to imagining him curled up next to me in bed. Or worse, god forbid, us being in a happy yet slightly violent relationship together (ya can add love to a relationship but you can never take out the punches it was founded on). But I don’t think any of that’ll happen, so I’m kinda in the dumps about all that.

Anyway, I wanted to ask if I’m the asshole for feeling this way. It’s led me to some interesting situations. I’ve stolen his clothes on more than one occasion, his dirty laundry basket is a place where I’m digging through way too often to catch a whiff of that cologne he wears. I’ve also, potentially, possibly, stole his boxers, like, twice. But that’s fine. The guy can buy new boxers. Not a big deal! Oh, and I uh, I also kinda sorta steal his textbooks so when he finds them on my desk he beats the shit outta me. It’s hot to feel the warmth of the wound after he does. It’s oddly intimate, tender almost? It’s better than any kind of sex I’ve ever had, so a win is a win.

Anyway, am I the asshole for feeling all this pushy gushy muck? I really wanna kiss the guy, fuck him too, and have him beat the living shit out of me and only me. I wanna be his punching bag, but if he has other punching bags I might just kill him or myself. Toxicology is a great fucking major to figure out self poisoning techniques.

Or maybe I’ll poison his ass into loving me. Amazing discussions everybody. Stay tuned for when I kill him!

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