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(Amanda) I live alone, my last partner cheated on me so I took a break from the whole dating scene, and yeah I probably drink too much wine to pass the lonely nights. But now, with the looming prospect of spending New Year's Eve all by myself the feelings of loneliness became too much for me to handle so I joined a dating site just to find someone equally as lonely to share a kiss with at midnight, how goddamn pathetic is that? I got a few matches but the conversation fizzled out pretty quickly and there was never a spark, maybe I'm just being too picky about it. I mean I'm not exactly looking for someone to settle down and grow old with right? I don't know maybe I should just get a puppy and forget about dating anyone altogether...
*PING*
[Amanda] "Oh look another match, her name is Beth, she's pretty cute. Oh what the hell I'll start a chat, worst case scenario is that it's just another flop.
(Amanda) To my surprise we actually got on really well so we soon agreed to meet up for a date.
[Amanda] "She seems pretty sweet, she must be feeling pretty lonely around this time of year too."
(Amanda) We agreed to go out for dinner and drinks, I said I would wear a red scarf and she would have a carnation in her hair. I wait and wait for her but she doesn't show up, I almost give up hope when I hear a surprising voice.
[?] "Amanda? Is it really you?"
She looks up to see a pretty young woman looking at her.
[Amanda] "Angela? Oh my god hey how've you been? I haven't seen you in ages."
[Angela] "I'm doing pretty good, God how long has it even been?"
[Amanda] "Oh 5 years at least, maybe even 10 it's hard to say.
[Angela] "This is so crazy, I didn't even know you were back in town. So what brought you back here?"
[Amanda] "Work mostly, I moved here with Courtney but she left a few months ago so I've just been by myself for a while."
[Angela] "I get that, it's really tough being in the city all alone huh? I'm pretty optimistic about finding someone though, I'm actually here for a date tonight."
[Amanda] "Oh small world me too, actually I was just about to leave since they no-showed."
[Angela] "Aw that sucks, honestly I just hope my date is still here since I got held up with car troubles. She said I'd recognize her by the red scarf she's wearing...," she trails off a little as she notices Amanda's scarf, Amanda has a sudden moment of realization.
[Amanda] "Hey Ang quick question, what kind of flower is that in your hair?"
[Angela] "It's a...Carnation, oh you gotta be fucking kidding me right now there's no way-..."
(Amanda) Figures, I finally find a good match and she's my fucking little sister.
[Angela] "YOU'RE my date for tonight? You can't be, the girl I was chatting with is called Sarah and her picture looks nothing like you..."
[Amanda] "I could say the same to you 'Beth', I didn't even know you liked girls."
[Angela] "Well this is a hell of a fucking way to find out isn't it? Oh my god I can't believe I've been sending flirty messages to my fucking sister!"
[Amanda] "Don't worry I won't show anyone, especially mom. They were really cute though like this one."
[Angela] "Don't you dare-"
[Amanda] "'I hope that our date will turn out to be a fateful encounter <3 I would love it if we could maybe hold hands <3', holding hands on a first date ooh how scandalous."
[Angela] "Sh-Shut up its better than your opening message, 'Hi I'm lonely you wanna kiss me?' Like what the hell is that? Is that your standard opener or are things just bad right now?"
[Amanda] "Honestly things are pretty bad, Courtney cheated on me a while back and my dating life is pretty much on life support. I just didn't want to be alone over New Year's y'know."
[Angela] "That's awful that they cheated on you, I'm so sorry. Ugh God those messages- I'm so embarrassed..."
[Amanda] "Me too but also in a weird way...relieved."
[Angela] "Relieved? You're relieved to be on a date with your little sister?"
[Amanda] "Of course not, but I'm relieved that I don't have to sit through another night of polite awkward small talk since I already know you."
[Angela] "Yeah that makes sense...so what do we do now?"
[Amanda] "Well obviously the usual dating activities are off the table for today but we can still have a good night, we'll have a nice dinner and then get a few drinks, ooh maybe go dancing somewhere it'll be fun."
[Angela] "Alright but I'm getting extra dessert to make up for this embarrassment."
[Amanda] "Well you always did like your sweets, can I pour you some wine?"
[Angela] "Fuck yeah girl hit me up."
They spend dinner chatting and catching up, the awkwardness fades away over the course of the meal. After dinner they head to a nearby bar for some drinks and dancing.
[Angela] "God it's so weird that we got matched, I mean I was thinking about reaching out to you and seeing you again but I never thought this would be how we reconnected."
[Amanda] "Yeah it's pretty bizarre isn't it? We must me connected by a red string of fate or something y'know."
Amanda swigs her beer and stuffs her face with appetizers, Angela's expression turns sad as she looks at her big sister.
[Amanda] "What's up honey? You don't want anything to eat? I told you that third piece of cake was too much for you."
[Angela] "Why haven't you called home in over a year?"
[Amanda] "Oh come on we're having a good time here, let's not bring the mood down alright? Come on let's see a smile on that cute little face."
[Angela] "I'm serious, mom is worried sick about you Amanda."
[Amanda] "I'm fine tell her not to worry about it alright?"
[Angela] "Mandy you practically begged for a date just so you're not alone on New Year's Eve, that doesn't exactly say 'doing fine' to me."
[Amanda] "Aw did you miss me, was my little Bug lonely without her big Honey Bear? Come here let me squeeze your little face haha."
She almost falls off her stool as she leans over to hug Angela.
[Angela] "Jeez how much have you had to drink tonight?"
[Amanda] "I'm fine don't worry about it, I really missed you too you know. Hey so, things seem to have got a little tense again, why don't we just kiss each other like we used to?"
[Angela] "W-WHAT-?"
[Amanda] "You don't remember? We used to kiss all the time, you were the one who started it because you wanted to practice for when you would be dating boys right?"
[Angela] "I-I-I didn't start it, it was your idea-"
She gets cut off as Amanda suddenly plants her lips on Angela's, Angela gets startled and instinctively pushes her off and she slips off her stool, her tall lanky body crashes into another patron dropping several drinks on the floor.
[Angela] "Oh shit I didn't mean to-"
[Patron] "Hey what the hell?"
[Amanda] "Shit dude I'm so sorry, I'll pay for your drinks here's like 20 bucks."
[Bartender] "Is everything alright out here? Do we need to call a cab for her?"
[Angela] "No she's fine, I think she just slipped."
[Amanda] "Yeah I'm a big girl and that stool is pretty small we're all good here, sorry for the commotion."
She stands up and dusts herself off before sitting back down.
[Amanda] "Well that was unexpected huh?"
[Angela] "You wanna talk unexpected, why did you fucking kiss me out of nowhere?"
[Amanda] "I thought you'd remember if I kissed you, like a spark or something..."
[Angela] "Of course I remember, I said I remember that it was your idea to start doing it."
[Amanda] "Well then you remember totally wrong because you came to me asking to show you how to kiss as practice."
They bicker for a while longer neither one backing down that the other instigated the initial kiss.
---
(Angela) The first time I kissed my sister was when I was 13 years old, I was in middle school and she was in sophomore year of high school. And the one who initiated it...was me.
[Amanda] "Kissing, really?"
[Angela] "Y-Yeah have you done it before?"
[Amanda] "Yeah I've kissed a few people before why?"
[Angela] "W-Well...my friend said that she did it with her boyfriend...Ruben the other day. And that friend? She couldn't kiss well you see...she got really embarrassed, she said..."
[Amanda] "Dude that's so soon, having a boyfriend in middle school is far too early in my opinion."
[Angela] "So actually...I also...have a boyfriend..."
[Amanda] "WHAT?? You have a boyfriend, since WHEN?? You shouldn't have a boyfriend when you're only in middle school you precocious little brat!"
[Angela] "He just asked me out one day and I didn't want to say no because it would hurt his feelings, just relax a little okay?"
[Amanda] "What's his name? What kind of guy is he? Is he in your class or older?"
[Angela] "That's...nothing to do with you..."
[Amanda] "What do you mean it's nothing to do with me? You're the one who brought it up in the first place!"
[Angela] "Look just stop yelling at me and give me some advice."
[Amanda] "What kind of advice?"
[Angela] "Erm...so...remember that f-friend? Rumors about how she's bad at kissing got spread around...and I wouldn't want that to happen to me too...So I want to...practice kissing...with you big Bear."
[Amanda] "Wha- What do you mean practice? You just touch your mouth against his mouth it's so easy, why would you need to practice? Or do it with a mannequin head or something."
[Angela] "A mannequin can't give me feedback dummy, pleeease I have nobody else I can rely on other than you big sis..."
(Angela) I totally lied to her back then, the truth is that I never had a boyfriend, I didn't even have any friends who had boyfriends...The truth is I simply wanted to kiss her, and didn't know how else to ask her without her getting mad...
(Amanda) This would be my first time kissing a girl, but she's family so I guess it doesn't really count right?
[Amanda] "Jeez what a troublesome Bug you are, you're lucky you're so cute. Well I suppose if it's just one...I guess I can help you out."
[Angela] "*gasp* R-REALLY? You will...?"
[Amanda] "Sure thing, just don't let mom find out okay? She wouldn't understand."
(Amanda) I was never that interested in boys or love or anything like that, I always just thought that kissing was a casual way of showing your affection for someone. That's why it wouldn't change anything if we kissed, or at least that's what I thought...
*MWAH*
(Angela) Gosh her lips were so soft and warm, I didn't want her to stop...
[Amanda] "There see, that wasn't such a big deal was it? There's really no good or bad when it comes to these things so don't be afraid to just go for it okay?"
(Amanda) I never thought kissing a girl would feel so...awesome.
[Angela] "I don't know, I'm still nervous about it. Maybe we should do it again just to be sure..."
[Amanda] "Wha- I don't-..."
[Angela] "Please big Bear, won't you be my kissing teacher?"
(Amanda) Oh no, is she getting attached to me now that we've kissed? If I kiss her again just like that...I don't know if I can hold back my true feelings...For kissing girls, for kissing my Bug..."
*MWAH*
(Amanda) That was the day I fell in love with my little Bug. From then on we began asking each other to kiss, we would practice together almost every day, all around the house, even behind our parent's backs. Though she already told me she had a boyfriend I still couldn't hold back my desires for my adorable little sister, in my heart of hearts I would wish for such cruel things that they would break up so I could be the shoulder she would cry on. I took advantage of her troubles and insecurities so I could keep expressing my feelings for her without words.
---
Amanda and Angela have calmed down and have another round of drinks, Amanda looks over at Angela and her gaze lingers.
[Angela] "What are you looking at Mandy?
[Amanda] "I was just...thinking, about you. Like you're old enough to drink now that's crazy, you've grown up so much since I last saw you I feel like I missed out on seeing you blossom into a young woman."
[Angela] "Yeah well...that's your fault for leaving home then isn't it? There's a lot you missed out on, it was lonely for me without you in my life..."
[Amanda] "Hey I was lonely without you too little Bug, I thought about you all the time but I was too much of a coward to pick up the phone. *burp* Anyway enough dooming, you still a student?"
[Angela] "Yeah, art school scholarship."
[Amanda] "Oh that's really great, you were always so creative I'm glad you stuck with it all this time," she takes a big swig of her beer and burps again, "you know, a lot of artists do their best work in the nude haha."
[Angela] "Alright you've had enough for tonight, after that one you're cut off."
[Amanda] "Ah come on I'm kidding, don't harsh on my buzz man. Hey are your professors hot?"
[Angela] "They're mostly men so I wouldn't know, there is a hippie woman who likes to wear loose flowing shirts with no bra so that helps me get through long days."
[Amanda] "See hippies look hot but then you have to smell them. So you into MILFs then or looking for more age appropriate?"
[Angela] "Dude what the hell I'm not talking about my preferences with you of all people."
[Amanda] "Hey I didn't even know you were gay before tonight, I'm just trying to get a picture of the type of person you were hoping to meet tonight instead of me."
[Angela] "Alright well...I know MILFs are like the dream for most lesbians but I don't think I would want to fully date one, we most likely wouldn't have much in common and I think I would almost be intimidated by her day to day. Now if we're just talking about hooking up she could toss me around the room and I would thank her for it, the idea of being a dominant mature woman's little plaything is really exciting, like following her orders and just laying there letting her do whatever she wants to me..."
[Amanda]" WOAH like 30 seconds ago you were all 'I'm not talking about my preferences with you' and now your actively describing whole sub fantasies. I mean it's not exactly surprising, I didn't know you were gay but I always knew you were a bottom."
[Angela] "Of course I'm a bottom, you have any idea how fucking hard it is to top when you're small and petite? Nobody takes you seriously when you look like you could probably fit in a booster seat."
[Amanda] "Yeah I've definitely never had that problem before, I've always been tall with nice big titties so my partners always assume I want to be the top, but y'know sometimes it's just nice to bottom but when you're my size it's very hard to find girls that can throw you on the bed and have their way with you."
[Angela] "So is that what you were hoping for from tonight? A giant muscle mommy to pin you down and ravage you?"
[Amanda] "No I've given up hope of finding muscle mommies on dating sites, to be totally honest I think I was subconsciously hoping to find you."
Angela spit takes and chokes on her beer.
[Angela] "Ugh what the fuck?"
[Amanda] "Not literally you obviously but I was looking for connection, a kindred spirit I could kiss as the ball drops, and what better kindred spirit is there than my little sister?"
[Angela] "I'll admit that it was a nice surprise to see you again, but it's just bizarre circumstances that brought us back together."
[Amanda] "Hey you want to know the saddest part? I have a hotel room booked for tonight because my self esteem is so low I put out on the first date just to try and make a connection."
[Angela] "Oh Mandy Bear, being cheated on really wrecked your confidence didn't it? I don't know what I can do to make you feel better about yourself..."
Angela takes Amanda's hand in hers.
[Amanda] "Hey you're here for me right now, it's nice to just have someone to talk to who isn't an Uber driver or a poor store clerk."
[Angela] "We're back together now, you don't have to be alone anymore alright?"
[Amanda] "You're the sweetest ever little Bug I'm so glad I accidentally found you out here, I should've never left you alone back then."
[Angela] "Hey now none of that, you had to leave for college I totally get it."
---
(Angela) I was 15 when my sister left home for college, I was so upset at her that day I glared at her as we saw her off at the airport. We were so close, we would kiss each other every day after school, often right behind our mom's back. We would talk all the time and slowly we started getting more skinship with each other.
[Amanda] "Hey Bug how's it going with your boyfriend?"
[Angela] "O-Oh it's going f-fine I guess..."
[Amanda] "When are we going to meet him? You've been seeing him for a while now and you've never brought him home."
[Angela] "Oh he's...very shy, yeah every time I mention meeting the family he gets really nervous so I just drop it..."
(Angela) In my head I had a feeling she had to know I didn't actually have a boyfriend, I wasn't exactly confident in my lying but she never said anything about it so I think I got away with it. The intimacy between us grew every day and we didn't stop at just kissing, we would even do things that usually a man and woman would do to each other. We knew what the other one was thinking about without even saying a word, I was convinced that our hearts and minds were connected in a really special way. But then...something happened that changed things and made us drift apart, my sister failed her entrance exam for her first choice college. I remember the day she received her letter of rejection, she didn't show any visible signs of sadness as she stared at the letter but our parents had such high hopes for her she was clearly devastated. She probably felt like she let everyone down so that summer she studied like crazy, she poured everything she had into preparing herself for her summer school course that would let her still start college in the fall. Almost every day she would hole up in her room at her desk testing herself, some days she would only emerge for meals and then disappear again. We started talking less, and sometimes it would be days between touching each other, to begin with seeing her being so determined and working so hard made me want to support her as much as possible, but then one day at the library...
[Angela] "Wow you really work hard, I don't think I could concentrate that much on anything."
[Amanda] "Yeah it's intense, thank god there's a Starbucks near the library."
She takes a big sip of coffee and glances at her watch.
[Amanda] "Shit it's getting late, you should head home."
[Angela] "Ugh but I don't want to go home, I can stay here and study with you and then you can drive me."
[Amanda] "No way Bug mom was already mad when you broke curfew the other day I'm not getting in trouble for letting you stay out late again."
[Angela] "Oh they'll be fine if it's for school, I'll be okay as long as you've got my back right big Bear?"
Angela hugs her from behind and nuzzles in, Amanda suddenly slams her pencil on the desk and pushes Angela away.
[Amanda] "Look Angela stop being a little brat and just do what I say, my first exam is coming up soon so stop fucking bothering me so I can concentrate."
(Angela) She...she thinks I'm a bother being around her? But I- I just wanted to cheer her on from the sidelines...
[Angela] "O-Okay...I guess I'll just s-see you at home then..."
[Amanda] "Yeah see you later," she turns back to her notes and ignores Angela as she shrinks into herself.
[Angela] "Bye then...good luck with your exams..."
(Angela) You never forget the first time you cry in a public library, I don't even think she noticed my sniffles as I shuffled out of the room. We never touched each other again after that day...
---
[Amanda] "Alright little Bug my eyes are starting to cross so I think it's last call."
[Angela] "You know you don't have to call me little Bug every time right? I didn't really call you big Bear back then. Anyway are you alright for getting home?"
[Amanda] "Oh I'm not going home, I paid for a hotel room with included meals and champagne so I might as well get the use of it even if it is all alone."
[Angela] "You make me so sad every time you mention how lonely you are, the least I could do is share a hotel room with you so you don't spend the night drunkenly calling you ex or whatever."
[Amanda] "Good call, it would certainly not be the first time. Alright Bug drink up and let's boogie!"
She downs the rest of her beer and goes to stand up but slips off her stool again and falls to the ground hard.
[Angela] "Oof you're lucky you're thick or that would've hurt."
The bartender returns after hearing another crash.
[Bartender] "I take it the night's over now?"
[Angela] "Looks like it, could you be a doll and call us a cab please? Maybe a larger one so she can lay down across the seats..."
[Amanda] "I'm okay Bug, my titties broke my fall..."
.
The cab pulls up to the hotel and they stagger inside up to their room.
[Angela] "God I have no idea how I held you upright up all those stairs, I feel like I'm 5 inches shorter..."
[Amanda] "Hey you're a real trooper thanks, I thought for a minute there I'd have to sleep on the couch in the reception room," she opens the door to a small basic room, "Well this is certainly not what was advertised..."
[Angela] "You should totally get a refund for this shit, at least they have the champagne," she picks up the bottle out of the bucket, "Oh wait nevermind it's Doctor Viktor Sparkle Alcohol Drink. Alright well I think I'll get a shower before bed-"
Suddenly Amanda throws Angela onto the bed and climbs on top of her pinning he down with her thick body.
[Angela] "God I totally forgot how you get when you've been drinking, remember that time mom almost caught us like this when she came home early? I've never seen you move so fast and try to act sober quite like it."
[Amanda] "Oh I was absolutely fucking terrified, that was the closest she ever came to catching us and like we fully made out at the dinner table while she was doing the dishes."
[Angela] "So do you want to get off me so I can shower?"
[Amanda] "Can you push me off of you? You're a big girl now so you should be strong enough."
[Angela] "Ugh I couldn't push you off when you were just tall even before you got thick with huge titties, there's no way I could even make you budge right now."
[Amanda] "Well than I hope you brought an umbrella because it's about to rain kisses!"
They giggle as Amanda kisses Angela's forehead and around her face and neck leaving lipstick stains all over her head, suddenly Angela's face saddens a little and she turns away from Amanda.
[Amanda] "Oh what's wrong Bug? Are you avoiding my kisses now?"
[Angela] "No I'm not avoiding them it's just...it got me thinking about the old days you know? When we were so close, just carefree kids kissing each other before we stopped talking and grew apart..."
[Amanda] "Are you worried about something? Should we just stop?"
[Angela] "N-No I think we need this, if we stop now then I'll be left with this lingering feeling I wouldn't be able to ever get rid of so just go ahead and keep going..."
[Amanda] "Alright...," she begins kissing her again until she notices that Angela is actually crying, "Okay Bug you're literally crying and I'm not going to kiss you anymore until you tell me what's going on."
[Angela] "I told you, I was reminded of the good times and I got very sad about how they ended back then, and I haven't seen you in so long and you don't even call home anymore...God why did you have to leave home, leave me behind? I was so fucking sad and lonely, I started lashing out at mom because I didn't know how to process my feelings without you around, even though I always loved you I guess some resentment started to grow after you left..."
[Amanda] "You loved me? Bug I thought you hated me before I left, you were so cold and distant..."
Angela sniffles and Amanda wipes her tear from her cheek.
[Angela] "You...stopped kissing me, you were so obsessed with studying you never had time for me, I was jealous that you weren't giving me any attention. And then, that day you screamed at me in the library, I thought you hated me for being a bother..."
[Amanda] "Oh Bug...no I didn't hate you and I'm sorry for screaming at you that day, I was under so much pressure and stress studying to make it into college I just...I just snapped and I took it out on you and I'm so sorry."
[Angela] "It really hurt me Mandy, that day was the first time I ever saw you with anything other than love for me, I cried all the way home and went straight to my room for the night."
[Amanda] "You never told me that, I would have checked up on you if I had known," she kisses her forehead again and brushes her hair out of her face, "Hey what do you mean you were jealous I wasn't giving you attention? You had your boyfriend Ruben at that time, didn't he give you attention?"
Angela sighs as she looks into her sister's big brown eyes.
[Angela] "Ugh I was hoping you wouldn't find out about this...the thing is, I never...actually had a boyfriend..."
[Amanda] "Wait WHAT??"
[Angela] "All the boys in my school were either dorks or freaks, I didn't really know I fully liked girls at the time but I definitely knew I didn't like any of those boys. I just really wanted to kiss you, I wanted my first kiss to be with you, but I thought you would get mad if I just straight up asked you so I lied and said it was for practice. Honestly I thought you knew the whole time because I was so fucking bad at lying about it."
[Amanda] "I honestly didn't think anything of it, I just thought you were nervous because I had previously scolded you about having a boyfriend in middle school. You should've just been honest and told me, if you did then maybe I would not have had to quietly leave home like I did."
[Angela] "Really, if I had told you about the lie it would've changed things?"
[Amanda] "Of course it would have changed things, you have no idea how petty and conflicted I felt for falling in love with my little sister while she already had a boyfriend of her own. I wished for so many bad things to happen to him so that I could have you to myself, I even had plans to fight that guy if it came to it..."
---
[Olivia] "Baby are you even listening to me? Like do you even love me?"
[Amanda] "Huh? Of course I love you little Bug, where's this even coming from?"
[Olivia] "Lately you seem so checked out, when we're together you don't seem to have any attention for me. You don't talk about me or ask me anything, all you talk about is your freaking little sister!"
[Amanda] "I'm homesick cut me some fucking slack alright, and anyway she's not all I talk about."
[Olivia] "Literally every time we're together you're like 'oh I wonder how Angela's doing' 'I bet Angela would love this movie' 'I used to hold Angela like this'. Honestly I don't know what your relationship with her was like back home but it's starting to sound weird as fuck."
[Amanda] "It's not weird to love my little sister, and anyway she's back home and I'm here with you, I love you Liv and I want to be with you."
[Olivia] "I wish I could still believe that but I just can't, I'll always be second thought to your sister so I'm done."
[Amanda] "Done with what, this conversation?"
[Olivia] "I'm done with this relationship, you were fun to be with for a while but I deserve to be with someone who will give me their undivided attention and I know now that can't be you."
[Amanda] "Liv baby please don't go, I do love you and I'll make sure to make you feel like the most important person in my life."
[Olivia] "I know you'd try but I also know that she will always be above me in your heart, so I'm sorry but this is goodbye."
(Amanda) I can't believe I got dumped again, Liv was right I didn't even realize how often I brought the conversation back to Angela. She did deserve someone who can focus only on her and I just wasn't that girl. In the end I still haven't got over leaving Angela behind, desperately trying to keep a lover just so I can distract myself and forget about her, I'm such a fucking wreck. I'm in college now but I don't think I've actually grown up yet, even though I should have given it up by now the feelings inside of me are still so strong. I could never shake it, my first love was the little Bug 5 years younger than me back home with a boyfriend of her own. She wanted to practice kissing to make her boyfriend happy, I bet she never even realized how happy she was making me too. Sisters aren't supposed to fall in love with each other, worse that the Me from back then with a vague path of life didn't know what I should do to protect her. Even so I wanted to do whatever I could to make Angela happy and proud of me, I knew that no matter how much I study I can never become a man to keep her safe but at least I can make an effort to not lose her to any man. Graduation from a good college, joining a good company, it wasn't just on the surface. I must become a person she can depend on no matter what, be it with money or just being there for her through her struggles of growing up. All of this is for her and I simply cannot afford to fail again, that letter of rejection was like a knife in my heart but I didn't give up, I can't give up. I wanted to confess my feelings to Angela with my chest held high the moment I climbed passed this wall, I just wanted to prove myself as a person by overcoming these obstacles and earning her love. 'When I pass this exam and get back into college I will confess to her and everything will have been worth it', that what I swore to myself during those long nights in the library, but before I could ever do that...
[Amanda] "Hey Bug can you help me out with these test questions please? There's something I'm not getting and maybe an extra brain will help figure it out."
Angela sits on the couch watching TV not even acknowledging her sister.
[Amanda] "Angela? You okay?"
Still no response.
[Amanda] "Angela what's wrong? Is it your boyfriend? Are you having trouble? Maybe I can help just talk to me please..."
Angela gets up off the couch and doesn't even look at Amanda as she goes up to her room.
[Amanda] "Wha- have I done something wrong? Have I upset you?"
(Amanda) From that day on my little Bug wouldn't even speak to me anymore, while I was studying I didn't even notice Angela growing cold and distant from me. Eventually I passed the summer school entrance exam for my college but I still couldn't confess my feelings to Angela because she would just leave the room whenever I would try to talk to her. On the day I left she kept glaring at me as our parents were seeing me off. I never knew what I did to make her hate me so much, we used to be inseparable. We lost touch after that day, and thus my first love was over.
---
[Angela] "You...you fell in love with me?"
[Amanda] "When I thought you had a boyfriend I thought it was impossible for me but I still wanted you all for myself, I wanted you to pay attention to me no matter what so I tried my best to get into a good school and-"
[Angela] "Wait, you went to college...for me? You stayed awake almost every night studying...for me?"
[Amanda] "Yes Bug, I wanted to be a person who could face any situation no matter how tough it is, I thought I must be able to do that in order to protect you. I almost drove myself insane studying so hard it was fucking miserable, the only thing that got me through it without giving up was knowing that I was going to confess to you at the end of it, but then you iced me out and never told me why so I just ended up feeling lost and alone."
[Angela] "I only iced you out because you were ignoring me to study, so I guess if I didn't get so hurt and jealous back then that means you would have...confessed your feelings for me?"
[Amanda] "That's right little Bug, you were always my first love."
[Angela] "Fuck I'm so fucking stupid, I'm the one who ruined our relationship because I was such a dumb little kid."
She starts crying again.
[Angela] "I drove us apart, you were thinking about me the whole time and I pushed you away based on my own stupid assumptions, I gave up on you thinking you hated me but the whole time you loved me..."
[Amanda] "Hey it's okay, shh shh don't cry. Look what's done is done, we can't change the past but I think we have a chance to make up for lost time. Think about it, we met on a dating site, the odds of us finding each other in a city full of lesbians are unbelievable, borderline miraculous even. I think that fate brought us back together for a reason, we were supposed to be together but we totally fucking sabotaged ourselves right? Look neither of us have anyone else right now, meeting like this is a once in a lifetime opportunity for us to get all our feelings out in the open don't you think?"
[Angela] "Yeah I guess it is, I'm sorry I screwed everything up back then..."
[Amanda] "Hey I'm just as guilty, I shouldn't have neglected you for my studies. But everything I have is because of you Bug, I graduated top of my class from a good college and I got a job in a big company because I wanted you to look up to me and be proud of your big Bear. It's not too late to start again you know, so would you like to...?"
[Angela] "I would, for real this time..."
[Amanda] "No more practice, this is the real deal now Bug."
[Angela] "Then let's treasure this right..."
Amanda smiles as she softly plants her lips on Angela's, Angela squeals softly as Amanda slips her tongue in.
[Amanda] "Wait a second, do you want to top?"
[Angela] "Oh my god yes, I didn't want to say anything in case it spoiled the moment but your huge titties are crushing me and it's hard to breathe."
[Amanda] "Oh what a way to go though, alright Bug hold on," Amanda scoops her arms under Angela and rolls over so Angela can straddle her.
[Angela] "You're so fucking pretty, I don't think I ever actually told you that before."
[Amanda] "Well thanks Bug, you've grown into such a beautiful young woman yourself. Now, shall we?"
Angela giggles as she holds Amanda's hands down and tastes her soft lips once again.
(Amanda) To think that I was so close to giving up on dating for good and getting a puppy instead, if I had just ignored that match notification we never would have got to this point. I met my little sister on a dating site, and it was the best thing that's ever happened to me.