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I’ve come to realize I don’t know who I am,
This person I’ve made,
They were born from a scam.
It was small things at first- what to say, how to dress.
Just some subtle adjustments,
To make me the best.
How should I respond? What sounds funny or cool?
What’s in fashion? What’s out?
What won’t make me the fool?
Be the person you wish you had been all along,
Smile bright to seem nice,
Be funny, be strong.
Don’t say what you’re thinking or you might seem weird,
Just say what’s most likely
to make you revered.
Be confident, act like you like your own skin.
Relax, no one likes when you’re
Strung out too thin.
Always thinking, planning out everything that I say,
Putting on a persona,
A part that I play.
But now I’ve lost track of what’s fake and what’s me,
I’m so far from myself,
I don’t know who to be.
I’ve turned myself into a whole other person.
As I try to get back,
I can feel myself worsen.
I’m someone I’ve found I can’t help but detest,
I seem brash, self-righteous,
Boastful, obsessed.
And I don’t know how to get back to what’s real
When I don’t understand
All the things that I feel.