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It all started with a glance.
When she looked back, that one glance was what she thinks set everything into motion. One glance that altered her brain chemistry. One glance - thrown her way even before she realised that a story had already begun evolving around her. Before she realised her world was soon to be swept into a whirlpool of colours she had never seen before.
He didn’t call her name. He didn’t so much as whisper in her direction. But she felt it. His eyes on her, a soft smile on lips that she had only ever seen pulled up in a snarky sneer. The walls of the Great Hall resonated with a warm, buttery glow, freshly baked and fragrant. The heat of the summer sun beat down through stained windows, waves of heat wrapping her body, halting her breaths. It was only a second. But it felt like a year had passed.
“Come on, ‘mione.” Ron’s voice jarred her back from the haze, thick air sweeping into her lungs.
“Y-Yeah, coming.” She tilted her head slightly, unable to tear her eyes from his stare. And then it was gone. His silver eyes flicked downwards, with a small catch of his own breath, then his whole body was turned away - leaning back, his neck cricking to the side - non-chalantly postured, waiting for his fellow slytherins to catch up. As if they hadn’t just shared a soul-rendering moment. As if she was never there.
Hermione snapped her vision away and tucked a stray curl behind her ear, a slight tremble in her fingers matching the miniature fibrillations of her heart in her chest. She squeezed her eyes shut, forcing colour to flash in her blank vision and reset her mind. With a small huff to clear her throat, she skipped to join Harry and Ron, not daring to glance back over her shoulder.
It was strange. Confusing. Draco Malfoy - the boy she had spent 7 years of her life rolling her eyes at, spitefully glaring at and lazily scrutinizing, was now holding her gaze, like a curious book filled with pages in a foreign script. Granted, he had been progressively more cordial as the years passed, but a mildly patronising look was all she ever expected from him. Until this moment.
She shook her head, clearing her thoughts. She had more important things to worry about in 8th year. Head girl duties, final year exams, graduation. She hadn’t had any distractions this year and wasn’t seeking for any either.
When she looked back, this would always be her first memory.
That bemusing glance.
But every memory after that came in a tumultuous whirlwind of light and dark and every shade in between. Her brain would spin and twirl, echoes filtering through her mind in rapid succession, then slowing to a sluggish waltz, before careening off into an inflamed, spiraling descent through clouds of hail and smoke.
She had thought 8th year would be simple. She supposed it was - before it wasn’t.
