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Bison is drowning in indescribable emptiness. Or that is what he think of it, because that is what he felt when he accidentally saw them. He did not have any emotions left to let out or become angry at what he saw. Maybe a unadulterated shock at seeing his own father and the girl he liked having sex.
He tried to rationalize it, reason it, think of it. Maybe he has no right to be angry for the act of his father and the girl, or maybe just because he has feelings for the girl does not mean
he should be angry at what his father and the girl did. but still a question is circulating in his brain...... Why? Did his Father Responded to her provocations, or did she responded to his Father's provocations? Both of this question makes his heart ache extremely, and he does not want an answer into that question.
Maybe he's not as bold and outgoing like his father? or maybe his physique, compared to his father is so far that it is comical. maybe that's why the people he met are in disbelief when he mentions his father. 'Maybe he's not man enough to be like him or I am just too slow and indecisive. maybe this is my fault.' he bitterly thought. And so, he decided he needed a breather, a long breather. He already asked a permission to Doctor for taking a leave, and surprisingly, he agreed to his request that he will leave discreetly.
"You are taking a leave? discreetly? Bison, What happened for you to make this decision?" the Doctor worriedly asks. Usually, whenever he sees bison there is a level of anxiety emanating in him, but a determination and an air of an reliability as an messenger and being the son of the CEO of MountainDash Logistics that made him well known in the Rhodes Island. But now? Bison is emotionally blank, empty, and he can not help but feel worried to the operator.
Bison tried to smile, but it felt so fake and fragile. "I'm sorry Doctor, I just want some time to think for myself, Maybe Travelling around Terra will help me find it."
The Doctor wanted to ask more why he wanted to take an "extended leave" but looking at the operator, who look like he'll shatter holding the Dam, he decided to not press him more about it. He sighs. He wants to help him, but how can you help someone who does not want to be helped? "Okay, I will try and convince Amiya and Dr. Kal'tsit into making your leave private, but Bison? I do not know nor I did not experience what you're feeling right now, But everything will be alright, Safe travels on your journey" putting his hand shoulder to give him a small amount of comfort. This time, Bison genuinely smiled although it is small and brittle. seeing him smile genuinely is enough to give him relief. "Thank you Doctor, I will not forget your kindness" Doctor shook his head "Don't mention it, tell me your time on when you will depart and I will see to it to prepare you a vehicle to ease you through your journey"
as he prepared all of his equipments for his long journey ahead, He can't help but be a little bit excited. Travelling in different parts of Terra alone, A perilous yet thrilling soul- searching journey that might make him man enough like his father. It sounds so selfish, and so petty that he will do this instead of confronting his father for what he did. But he can't. Whenever he see his father, all he see is the flashback of what happened last time. Maybe not now, He needed time he needed to get out to search for the answers himself.
But before that, Maybe. just maybe he needed to anonymously vent his feelings and frustrations out in this new forum Rhodes Island created.
after preparing all of his necessary equipments for taking a leave, He opened his device, and typed all of his feelings in the forum.
Welcome to the Rhodes Island Troubles Centre!
You are currently posting in the Romance & Interpersonal Discussions Forum.
Posting as Anonymous
Time: 19:30
Hi, I am sorry if I will post something here that will make you all uncomfortable.
So I have this girl I like spending an alarming amount of time with my Father.
This Started back when my Father gave me advice in finding myself a partner. He's Concerned that I will grow with no one to be on my side. But to be honest, I already have someone on my mind, but when I have already have plans to make a move to her, she and my Father became.... rather Close like one time I saw him giving her a ride home to the safehouse. I don't want to be jealous because seriously, I'm not that self-entitled and delusional and I know my Father. And there is no saying that older people can't be friends with younger people... but, Clearly, I do not know my Father enough.
I caught my Father "Doing it" with the girl I like by an accident. I do not know what happened for them to escalate into that kind of situation, but I do not want to know it. It hurts enough when I think about it.
And whenever I looked at my father, the images of them kept flashing in my mind. I do not want to talk to my Father. it is not time yet... I need some fresh air to breathe in all of this clusterfuck that is happening.
Am I angry? yes, I am angry at myself for being not like my father, for being indecisive and anxious. I do not have any animosity at my father, I love my Father and he is the reason why I am in this position now, but I can't face him yet. I need some time to take it all.
Also, Please, Don't be angry at my father.
sorry for venting my feelings here, but this will be my first and last post in the forum
Thank you.
Finished typing, the young forte pressed the SEND button and immediately gathered his belongings. he looks at the time, it's already nearing 20:30. "Looks like I have to go now, maybe the vehicle prepared for me is already there". as he walks away, unaware of the fact that his post will garner a lot of attention of a lot of operators in the message board.
'Oh fuck, I did not expect this shit, a big fucking yikes to you my friend --Operator Blaze
'...What the Fuck?" --Operator Closure (**Moderator**)
'Dear friend, Whoever you are, and no matter what happened, my bar is always open for unfortunate souls like you. If you want I can offer you my best drink that I will concoct just for you. Don't worry, you can share your woes to me while drinking, do privately message me if you want to tell me the time you want to drink and I will be there' --Operator Midnight
=> 'I am surprised that you are not being shameless for once' --Operator Orchid
=> 'Dear, I may be shameless, but I do have standards.' --Operator Midnight
'I have bad feeling about this... whoever you are, if you feel taking a breathe of air is a more preferable decision than confronting your father about it, then all I can say is safe journey on your travels I hope you found your answers in travelling around Terra.' --Operator Texas
=> 'Why do you make it sound like you know the anonymous poster?' --Operator Exusiai
=>'I have a hunch. and that's all you can get to me' --Operator Texas
=> !! THIS REPLY HAS BEEN REMOVED AS IT IS IN VIOLATION OF THE RHODES ISLAND TROUBLES CENTRE COMMUNITY GUIDELINES !!
'While I think talking to your father is the preferable decision to nip those problems early, I do regrettably admit that I do not have an experience in dealing this kind of situation, But I want to tell you that things will get better at the end. if you want someone to talk your problems into, message me privately.' --Operator Sussuro
'So that's what happened. All I can say is I am sorry that it happened to you, wherever you are right now, Do remember that you will be always an operator of Rhodes Island.' --Doctor
=> You know the anonymous poster? --Operator Amiya
=> yes, but please, this is a classified information, we can talk about it, but not here.' --Doctor.
as Bison arrived on the place where the vehicle is parked, he saw a huge humvee, in the door there was a sticky note plastered on the handle
'Safe travels Operator Bison. - Doctor'
He smiled. entering the vehicle, Bison opened the engine and embarked to the place unknown. where he will search for the answers he is looking for. it will take time to return and talk to his father again, and he can not helped but feel guilty about his decision, but he needed to do this. and as he drives away further from the landship, he can not help but be excited on the journey he'll face..