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It was the only thing I could give you.
Never could I do anything right, be what you expected of me.. wanted me to be.
Instead I introduced you to a dangerous world, one I was so engulfed in myself that I could not think of anything better. Of course I knew it wasn’t ‘good’, but when you’re controlled by drugs, they start speaking for you.
Thinking for you.
And so they did for me… And led us both into a haze of oblivion, disgust and longing for something ‘real’.
We were both drawn to the sky and the earth, but we were always caught somewhere in between.
I loved you, I really think I did. And I’m so sorry for doing this, for hurting you. For destroying you like this, when I really should have looked after you.
It was all I could do, but it was the wrong thing.
And you’re the one paying the price.