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I combed my fingers through Shouto’s hair, letting the strands fall whichever way they wanted.
We were lounging in his room, him laying his head in my lap with his eyes closed. He gave a pleased hum as my fingers massaged through his hair once again. I gazed down at him, my heart warming at the sight of how peaceful he looked.
“Falling asleep?” I asked quietly, just in case he actually was asleep.
“No,” he said simply. “Are you tired?”
I shook my head, “No. I was asking because you looked like you were falling asleep.”
He nodded his head in understanding.
The quiet engulfed us once more and I settled further into the bed, letting his hair fall between my fingers. I had almost let myself relax enough to fall asleep when I felt him twitch on my lap, startling me.
“Can I ask you a question?” His sudden outburst broke the silence, waking me up even further.
“Sure?”
“Have you ever…” he trailed off making me sit up again so that I could look down at his face.
His eyebrows were drawn, creating a wrinkle between them. Whatever he wanted to know had been on his mind for a while. He always thought things through completely before talking about them. I stopped my hand, letting it just rest on his head.
“Ever what?”
He glanced down at his hands and finally looked back up at me, “Ever wanted to go further with me?”
I blinked, confused, “Go further?”
I stared at him, his own gaze simply waiting for me to understand what he was asking and when I did, I felt the blush from my neck to my ears.
“I-I don’t, um, well, I-oh wow, ok, umm.” I took a deep breath, “I- I have thought about it. About going further with you,” I started slowly, “I, uh, just didn’t think you were interested or weren’t ready or something, you know?”
I glanced back at him, meeting his eyes but before I could continue, he sat up abruptly and turned so that we were now facing each other.
“I don’t. What do you mean?”
It was my turn to swallow, “Ok, so whenever we, uh, start making out? Things get pretty, um…intense? And we always stop before things get any uh, further, so I always thought that you weren’t ready, or maybe you wanted to wait for something?” My cheeks felt like they were on fire but if Shouto was asking me about this, then he had been worrying over it for some time. The least I could do was give him as honest an answer as I could, no matter how embarrassing it was to say it out loud.
He tilted his head, contemplating. “You always seem to become shyer whenever that happens. I thought you simply were uncomfortable being that intimate with me.”
I let out a whoosh of breath, “I'm…wait, no…I’m not…uncomfortable being intimate with you. It’s just that, I’ve never been that intimate with anyone before so I’m, uh, nervous?”
He nodded his head, seeming to understand, “I’ve never been with anyone that way either.” He waited a moment then, “Would you be upset if I told you that I’ve been thinking about you like that for a while now?”
I felt the air leave my lungs. Talk about a one-hit KO. I swallowed, trying to make my mouth work again. “No, that wouldn’t-that wouldn't upset me.”
His gaze pinned me to the spot and I couldn’t look away. “Do you want to try?"
I opened my mouth to respond but nothing came out, so I just nodded. He gave me his sweet smile, the one that quirked up the edge of his mouth and had my heart melting into a puddle.
He leaned forward, pressing his forehead to mine before closing his eyes and giving me a soft kiss on my lips. I closed my eyes and leaned into it, letting my hands gently rest on his shoulders. I felt as his hands came to grasp my waist and I could feel the heat of his palms through my shirt.
I pulled back from the kiss, my eyes slowly opening to see Shouto doing the same. We simply sat there, enjoying holding one another. I looked into his eyes and the adoration that I saw, knocked the breath out of me. My heart ached at the tenderness on his face and a thought began to take root in my mind. I wanted to show him just how much he meant to me, I wanted him to feel as good as he made me feel.
I placed my hands on either side of his face and kissed him again. I shifted onto my knees, getting a better angle so that I could kiss him the way I wanted to. He mimicked my movements, sitting up on his knees as well, but bracketed my legs with his own, so that I was kneeling between his, pulling me closer to him.
A slow burn began to build between my legs, making me feel hot all over as we continued to kiss. I nipped at his bottom lip, a silent demand and he opened his mouth for me. I flicked my tongue against his, the little groan that elicited from him going straight to my core. I sat up on my knees, wrapping my own arms around his shoulders, bracing myself against him as I lost myself to the kiss. I felt his hands move down from my waist to cup my backside, squeezing. I let out a small gasp, and Shouto used the opportunity to delve further into my mouth, taking control of the kiss.
I let out a pleased hum as I felt his hands go under my shirt to slide upwards along my bare skin. He leaned back to pull his shirt over his head, letting it fall behind him, and quickly pressed himself against me, one hand grabbing the back of my neck to bring my face down to his. I felt the other slide upwards, tracing the curve of my back to rest just under the band of my bra. I let my own hands run down his bare back, reveling in the feeling of him.
I pulled back, breaking the kiss, gasping for some much-needed air. I rested my head against him, the both of us panting heavily.
“Do you want to stop?” he asked quietly, still panting.
I swallowed, taking a moment to think. I was still nervous, but I didn’t want to stop. “I-I want to keep going.”
“Are you certain?”
He moved back a bit so that he could look into my face. I licked my lips, watching as Shouto’s gaze snagged onto the motion before dragging back up to meet my eyes.
That small action made liquid heat sing through my veins straight to my core and in answer, I pressed my lips to his.
He let out a startled breath, but he eagerly returned the kiss. He snaked his arms up to wrap them around me and pulled me down closer to him, hugging me as he lowered himself to lie back on the bed.
I ran my hands down his chest to his abs, enjoying the feeling as his muscles tensed under me. He let out another groan and I slid my tongue into his mouth, licking along his own.
I pulled back and started kissing along his jaw, licking and nipping at his skin. When I reached his ear, I sucked his earlobe into my mouth and was rewarded with a low moan. I began kissing my way down his neck, using my teeth to graze the skin, each gasp and groan making me hotter.
I continued kissing my way down, his breath hitching as I came to the straining bulge in his pants. I glanced back up into his face and my breath caught. He was staring at me with such love and desire, his cheeks tinted red and his mouth slightly parted as he panted. I felt my heart melt at the same time a wave of heat flowed straight through me. I licked my lips and locked eyes with him, pressing a kiss to his clothed erection. He swallowed, his leg muscles tensing under my palms as I ran my hands up to his waistband before I gave him one more look, a silent question. He lifted his hips up slightly, and using his hands he helped to remove the rest of his clothes.
I stared at him lying naked in front of me, feeling suddenly nervous and aroused all at the same time.
“What do you want me to do?”
He closed his eyes briefly, “Touch me.”
“Tell me if I do something that feels bad, ok?”
“I don’t think you can do that, but ok.”
I bit my lip and slowly pressed my hands back to the tops of his bare thighs, gently massaging the soft skin. He made a low noise that I took as a good sign and let a hand slide up to encircle his shaft before gently stroking him up and down.
He let out a gasp before a low moan escaped. My eyes snapped to his face, his head was thrown back with his eyes closed and he was panting even harder.
“Good?” I asked.
“Yes. Just like that," he rasped.
Just watching him enjoy what I was doing to him was making me feel hot as well. I squeezed my legs together, hoping to ease the ache that was building low within me, but I wanted to make him feel good first. I was still nervous but I also knew that I wanted to do this.
Emboldened, I gripped him a little harder, feeling his smooth skin in my palm. When he moaned in response I took a breath, leaned down, and licked him.
The reaction was immediate. His back arched and he gripped the sheets under him tightly, a groan escaping his lips.
His eyes snapped open, our gazes locked, “Wha-what did you just do?”
I stopped moving, “Was it bad?”
“No," he shook his head, "but what did-”
I leaned down and licked him again, keeping my eyes on his face. His own widened and he choked out a breath.
“Did you like that?” My voice was unrecognizably low and husky to my ears.
His chest was heaving now, “Yes.”
“Want me to do it again?”
“Please,” he choked out.
He kept his eyes glued to me, a stark expression of want on his face. I licked him a third time, watching his reactions. His eyes squeezed shut, his mouth parting to let out a low groan as his hands fisted the sheets under him.
I felt the ache reach an almost painful throbbing, feeling hot all over just from knowing how much he was enjoying what I was doing to him. I took a deep breath and placed him entirely in my mouth, closing my lips around him.
Shouto’s head snapped back onto the pillows and his hips bucked upwards, rocking him further into my mouth. I felt him in the back of my throat, making my eyes water. I pulled back, about to remove him entirely when he let out a long groan that had me halting my movement.
My eyes flew back to look at his face, and I bobbed my head down, letting my tongue press firmly against his length.
“Baby, that feels-” he panted, his chest heaving.
I hummed and he bucked into my mouth again, rocking himself in and out, a gasp leaving him. I was about to do it again when he shot up, grabbing my shoulders and pulling me off of him.
“Wha-“
He cut me off with a harsh kiss that left me breathless, picking me up to straddle him. I gasped into his mouth at the feeling of him right against me, the heat between my legs only intensifying.
He yanked my shirt off, immediately pressing biting kisses onto the swell of my breasts. I gripped the back of his head, my nails scraping his scalp as I held him to me. His hands fumbled briefly with the clasp of my bra before it was also removed forcefully, leaving my chest unobstructed for him.
I looked down at his face, dazedly wondering what I had done to make him this way, and saw his eyes light up right before he sucked a nipple into his mouth. A moan escaped me at the feeling of his tongue circling the taut peak. When he let his teeth drag across it, I thought I was going to combust.
He tightened his arms around my waist, dragging me closer to him, and moved his mouth to the other bud, giving the same amount of attention.
“Shou-ugh-to,” I choked out, “I-oh!”
He ground his hips upwards, causing delicious friction between us. The desire to be closer to him surged and I wiggled against him, making him loosen his hold so I could move off him to remove my pants and underwear.
The cold air hit me and suddenly, I realized that I was kneeling in front of Shouto, and I was very naked. All my nerves came rushing back and I went to cover myself but Shouto grabbed my hands and threaded his fingers with my own.
My chest felt tight like all the air had been sucked out of the room. I could feel my heart pounding away in my chest like I was running a mile for training. I cautiously looked up at him and all the air came rushing back to me.
He was staring at me like I was the most precious thing in the world.
He let one hand come up to tilt my chin farther up to look me straight in the eye. “You are stunning,” his eyes roved over my form, taking in everything.
I don’t know which one of us initiated the kiss, but it was remarkably different from earlier. It was a soft kiss, a gentle molding of lips that had my heart warming. His hand brushed at my jawline, moving back to tangle into my hair as my own slid up to cup the back of his head. I let out a sigh and Shouto used it to begin a slow exploration of my mouth. The heat that had been dispelled by my nerves was beginning to slowly creep back. A warm feeling that moved from my chest to my core, a burn that made me want to drag Shouto closer.
I moved my hands to grip his shoulders, pulling him against me, wanting to feel his skin on mine. He easily complied, moving his own hands to snake behind my back until there was no space left between us. The feeling of him against me ignited something within me and suddenly we weren't close enough.
Shouto must have felt the same because I felt him gently pushing me backward. I let him guide me till my back hit the bed. That slow burn began to become a pleasurable ache between my legs and I felt him grip my legs to part them, pressing his hips to mine. We both gasped at the feeling of his length sliding through my folds. I broke the kiss to let out a groan, liquid heat sending waves of pleasure through me.
Shouto mumbled my name into my ear, and I looked at him. “If, if you want to stop-” he started to choke out but I cut him off.
“I don’t. I want this with you Shouto,” I stared directly into his eyes, watching them widen with surprise.
His face morphed into one of absolute joy. I realized with a pang of guilt just how I had been ignoring how he was feeling. I had been so hung up on my insecurities that I hadn't seen his. He held back from making me feel any discomfort or pressure and it never occurred to me to talk to him. To ask him what he wanted.
I reached up and brought his mouth back to mine, giving him a kiss that I hoped would convey what I felt for him. I thought it must have because he sighed into the kiss, lowering himself further down so that we were pressed together. I felt as one hand slowly wandered down my side, leaving a trail of heat in its wake across my skin while his other one slid under the back of my neck holding my head firmly in place as he deepened the kiss.
His hand came to rest on my hip before squeezing then slowly sliding between us to touch my core. I gasped and arched upwards against his hand, chasing the feeling of bliss that it caused, wanting more.
He groaned into my mouth, breaking the kiss to pant near my ear, “You feel-” He kissed the shell of my ear and rasped, “Tell me what to do. How do I make you feel good?”
I squeezed my eyes shut, the feeling of his warm breath on my ear sending little shivers through me. I hesitantly reached down to cover his hand with mine and started to guide his hand. I let out little whimpers with each pass of his fingers and after a few moments, Shouto took full control, letting his fingers glide up and down my clit. I grasped at his arm, trying to find something to hold on to as all my muscles begin to tense and tremble at his slow ministrations.
I let out a choked cry as everything pulled taut only to erupt into waves of pleasure, little aftershocks rippling through me until it finally slowed.
I felt a soft kiss on my temple, Shouto's hands tight on my hips, “You were beautiful.”
A different heat spread up my neck to my face at his praise. “I-you…thank you,” I said softly.
I looked up at him through my lashes, only to gasp aloud when I felt his arousal on my inner thigh. Another wave of desire thrummed through me, starting the ache anew. I looked up at him fully, feeling the pounding of his heart through my chest. I felt my own pounding and I tilted my face up to catch his lips in a kiss.
Suddenly he pulled back enough to stare at me for a long moment, his eyes searching mine. When I nodded, he gave me a quick kiss and I felt him begin to enter me.
My first instinct was to close my legs immediately, the unfamiliar feeling of being stretched turning into flashes of hot pain. I froze, my hands grasping Shouto’s shoulders in a white knuckle grip. I bit my lip hard, choking on my gasps as I felt every inch as he slowly slid further inside of me. I opened my eyes, feeling the tears slide down the side of my face, and stare into Shouto’s.
His eyebrows were dipped in concern, a frown pulling his mouth downward. With every whimper that I made, he flinched until he stopped completely. I felt my eyes widen.
“Don’t-” I start, my voice louder than I intended.
“But-”
I shook my head vehemently, “If you stop now-” I winced, a sharp pain taking my breath, “if you stop now, it won’t-”
He pressed a kiss to my lips, halting me, “I’ll keep going slow, ok?”
I swallowed and nodded to him, trying to focus on him instead. He leaned forward and began pressing soft kisses to my neck, my jaw, and my cheek. I closed my eyes, forcing myself to relax, letting Shouto ease further into me.
After what felt like an eternity, Shouto finally stopped. We both laid there, our breaths mingling. I closed my eyes, letting the feeling of being full start to overlap with the burn of being stretched.
He peered into my face, “Ok?”
“Yeah, just give me a moment?"
He nodded, pressing his forehead into my shoulder and I could feel the dampness of his skin on mine. His muscles were still tight under my hands and I rubbed them up and down his skin, not sure if I was comforting him or myself.
A few moments passed and I tentatively wiggled my hips. I felt him slide inside me and we both sucked in a breath.
“Can-” he choked out, “can I move?”
I breathed in through my nose, the pain receding and leaving me with a feeling of something new starting to flow through me. I nodded, clutching him to me as he slowly pulled his hips back. I let out a startled gasp which quickly turned into a low moan. Hot pleasure sparked inside me, each push and pull causing a familiar ache to build in my core again.
Shouto’s breathing became ragged as he started a slow rhythm, gradually thrusting faster, every drag of him along my inner walls intensifying the feeling of pleasure. I arched my hips up to meet his, wrapping my legs around his waist, chasing that feeling.
He let out a choked breath and I felt one of his hands as it reached under me to press me closer to him. It changed something, making him hit a spot inside of me that caused white-hot pleasure to explode within me.
“Shouto!” I cried out.
Everything suddenly burst, heat and pleasure erupting into waves that made my muscles clench. Shouto groaned loudly, thrusting harder into me, intensifying the feeling before finally his own muscles tensed and he moaned, rolling his hips sharply against mine as he slowed his movements, collapsing on top of me.
We both panted loudly into the quiet of the room, taking a few moments to catch our breaths.
“I, uh, wow…”
Shouto chuckled then leaned back, staring directly into my face, “You are amazing.”
I felt my heart melting in my chest, “You're pretty incredible yourself."
"I don't know about you," he pressed a kiss to my lips, "but I might want that nap now."
I laughed, wrapping my arms around him, "Sounds good to me."