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The sky is dark, dark like his heart. It’s raining outside just like how his eyes are spilling out tears. They say a marriage in a rainy weather is a bless because it’s gods sending their blessings by those cold drops of water.
What a joke.
Jimin hates how these people are still believing in these stupid myths. If it was like that, why is he crying kneeling on the alter right now an hour before his wedding, where he should be getting married and mated? Why did his fiancé had to abandon him now after all these years? Why didn’t gods’ blessings work for them? Oh.. maybe it worked but not for him, god had blessed his fiancé, not him right? Maybe it is his fault after all. He was his ex’s second choice, today he became his fiancé’s second choice and now looking at the situation he’s sure that he also is the god’s second choice.
The omega couldn’t stop crying hugging his knees to his body.
Jimin was walking on the aisle with his father as his last practice walk before his wedding. When Yoojong, his fiancé took his hand from his father and his father left them on the alter, Jimin smiled at the man in front him, but the smile flattened as he caught a hint of stress and fear in Yoojong’s scent.
“I.. I’m sorry Jimin. I can’t do this.”
What?
Jimin’s heart stopped beating. His hand slipped from the alpha’s hand and his lips parted in the sudden confession. What is he saying? The omega knew this was an arranged marriage, Jimin had to work well on himself to forget his painful past and smile for his parents and his future. Finally, after trying so hard he had accepted Yoojong and they came this far until now. It is their wedding in an hour. What the hell is this man saying now?
“Yoo-“
“Remember I told you about my dream.. of being a reporter for CSS? The letter I talked about that I received from them? The ship they asked me to cover as my interview test, is leaving today and I.. Jimin I dreamed for this! I wanted to leave it, leave my dreams and everything to stay for you but.. I can’t.. I can’t.. You’re kind. Beautiful and everything an alpha can have but.. You don’t deserve me when my mind is somewhere else. I’m sorry.”
Like that he left. He left when Jimin’s legs gave up and he dropped on his knees. Jimin wanted to scream back at Yoojong that he wasn’t the only one who had second thoughts. That his heart was also shaking with that one face he suddenly saw outside the hall between his guests, that his ex who always had his heart was there he didn’t know for why, that he wanted to look twice at him and figure out if it was a dream and if he was real, maybe approach him. He wanted to say he was also weak but he stayed strong and loyal for Yoojong.
For them.
Jimin’s father was there with him in a minute, his mother was hugging him apologizing for choosing someone like Yoojong for their son but nothing was enough. No one could heal the wound which was forming in his heart. Something was poking that same wound whispering in his ears that he wasn’t enough, that Yoojong’s sweet words were lies, that he is never beautiful or kind enough for anyone.
Jimin fucked up. Once with Yoojong a few minutes ago and now again with his own words.
Maybe he shouldn’t have asked his parents to let the hotel management know that the wedding will be cancelled. Maybe he shouldn’t have let his mother and father leave his side. Maybe he should have told Tae to stay with him except asking him to check weather that face was truly there or not.
It was the worst day in Jimin’s life.
He got it confirmed when the scent of pine trees invaded his space and that certain alpha crawled down in front of him. Jimin lifted his teary eyes and they were widened in a second to see his ex, that asshole looking directly at him.
“Jungkook..”
So it was really him?
A broken whisper left his lips and more tears rolled down his soft, reddened cheeks. He felt betrayed, exposed and embarrassed. His omega crawling back to the darkest corner to feel this alpha’s gaze on them. That one alpha who they always believed as theirs until one day he crushed their heart under his feet like it was nothing.
“Jimin.. are you ok?”
Please don’t talk.. Please don’t ask that.. Please don’t touch me.. Leave me.. Please..
Jimin wanted to say, but he couldn’t. He caught a glimpse of concern in Jungkook’s beautiful brown orbs and it made him mad. The alpha has grown up so much in past five years, hasn’t he? His hair was combed back neatly, styled perfectly, shoulders were even broader in that black tuxedo and he looked manlier now and Jimin was even more mad to realize that. Now at this moment Jimin was nothing but a broken omega, smelling bitter and looking uglier with his ruined makeup and that was not the way he wanted to appear in front of Jungkook after five years to their break up.
“What.. are you doing here?” was what left Jimin’s lips. What was actually Jungkook doing here? He hasn’t heard anything about the younger for past years, neither did his friends. How can he be here now where Jimin never wants him to be?
“I am the manager of this hotel hyung. I knew it was your marriage and now.. They told me.. that something happened here and the wedding might get..”
“Oh..”
Of course Jimin shouldn’t have let the management know.
Jungkook, the manager of this luxurious hotel. Jimin always knew the younger had a bright future. He was smart and intelligent. When other students had to take down their notes, watch more videos to study, stay awakened all night to study, just listening to the lecture was well enough for Jungkook. Even back when they were together in university, when he was stupidly busy trying to work for them to buy a new apartment and decorate it with everything Jungkook might like, the alpha was busy studying. Jimin was so stupid. Looking at Jungkook’s eyes he remembered how things ended between them just like the same way as now. Jungkook’s same orbs on him and him crying.
Once they were also a happy couple, one of the most famous couples in the university. Jimin had so much love for Jungkook and Jungkook loved him too. At least he felt so. They were cheesy, lovely and in others eyes they were gross. Jungkook was everything Jimin wished for but everything crashed down when he thought it was the best time for him to ask Jungkook to move in with him.
Jimin was busy working in more part time jobs to earn enough money for a new apartment. He lived in his dorm rooms and Jungkook was living with Yoongi. So he needed a new place if they were to move in together. Jimin was attending the university, painting in his free time because that was the project he had to finish for his assignment and he was even busier after he brought his dream apartment. Omegas loved to keep their homes lovely and neat. He was decorating it with polished pines because it was Jungkook’s scent, he also used white jasmines and paintings of jasmines as it was his own scent. He spent his time to bring love in to the apartment before asking Jungkook out.
He was stupid.
That one day when Jimin went to meet Jungkook, in his shared apartment with Yoongi after a really tiring day, he didn’t hesitate to open the door with the code by his own and enter as he always did; not like Yoongi minded but..
That day he shouldn’t have done it.
Or maybe it was good he did.
His mouth dropped and tears filled in his eyes to see Jungkook sitting on the couch in their living room shirtless and an omega on his lap, his big arms, the same arms which were hugging and caressing Jimin, were now snaked around that omega’s waist and face buried in his shoulder from behind, eyes closed and a light smile on his face.
He was enjoying the moment.
A sob left Jimin’s lips and he covered his mouth to stop crying and that’s when Jungkook’s eyes landed on him.
“Fuck baby..”
Jungkook pushed the omega on him awfully slowly away from his lap like he also didn’t want to hurt him and walked to Jimin in two long steps. His eyes were focused and smell was spicier. When Jungkook tried to touch Jimin’s shoulder he pushed his hand off.
How can Jungkook even think about touching him after he was.. What were they doing before Jimin came in? Jungkook shirtless, that omega’s shirt wrinkled and fuck! Was that Jungkook’s shirt? How could Jungkook do this? How? Jimin was sweating, working hard every second for them, for a beautiful future together in a cozy, new place. He always let Jungkook focus on his studies not letting him work more than one part time job because Jimin said that the one with brain should take the advantage of the it. He always visited him at home, making food or snacks for him, helping him to achieve his goals while Jimin was.. dying, loving alone. He was so so stupid. Was Jungkook doing this all this long behind his back? Is that why he always asked Jimin when he would visit him so he could get rid of the other omega before they meet? Jimin was broken, so broken to understand the love of his life, the man he wanted to mate and settle down with one day was cheating on him.
That same man who broke Jimin in to pieces, that man who left a permanent wound in his heart making him fear the alphas enough to not even to accept anyone courting him again, was looking at his broken form again.
Jimin never hated his life like he did now.
“Stand up. You need to take a breath and calm down hyung. Face the situation.” Jimin didn’t know why he let Jungkook to touch him, why he let the alpha to make him stand up and walk with him to a chair nearby, why he sat there with Jungkook. Mostly he didn’t know why Jungkook cared enough to release his calming pheromones and why his omega reacted to that, relaxing inside him.
“Jimin.. drink this. Take a breath so we can talk.”
“I.. don’t want to.” The omega accepted the glass of wine the alpha offered but thankfully he could word out his true feelings. Jungkook pushed his tongue out on his inner cheeks because Jimin looked so broken and fragile right now, just like five years ago and deep down he knew he was also at fault for his situation.
“You have to.. At least not as exes but as the customer and the manager.”
“Oh” Jimin’s scent became even bitter. So that was the reason Jungkook cared, that’s why he was even here and Jimin could understand. Jungkook never cared about him.
Well, nice shot Jeon Jungkook.
“No I mean.. I understand that seeing me here is the last thing you wished for but.. You have to deal with this hyung. That’s why I say if you don’t want to talk with me as your ex you can just-“
“Either way.. I don’t want it to be you Jungkook.”
Well shit.
Jungkook understood. He knew how bad he hurt Jimin, how wrong he was and how stupid of an asshole he was. He did wrong. He was young and feisty, back then he should have listened to Jimin except acting that stupid drama and breaking the omega's heart. Even when he found everything out, when he understood how much of an idiot he was, his pride had to take over. He was being stupid again. Instead of reaching for Jimin he stayed back holding himself up because guilt was killing him and he had no strength to face the elder. He couldn’t forget Jimin’s eyes filled with tears, Jimin’s small hand throwing a slap across his face and Jimin’s blank face he had for next weeks after the break up. When Jungkook got a grip enough to understand he has no life without Jimin, it was too late. Jimin was engaged.
Life had to tease him when he found Jimin’s marriage ceremony was going to be held in his hotel.
But now everything was changing and the pouring rain made Jungkook knock him in to his senses. He felt like he got a chance to apologize to Jimin and make everything correct. Maybe he won’t do it but at least he could try. Jungkook was not the same alpha who he was five years ago but he still had the same feistiness. He had one hour. Only one hour.
“Don’t be a child hyung. You have to face me if you like it or not. Cancelling the ceremony won’t return your money you spent on the hotel y-“
“I don’t care about the money..”
“I’m not finished!” Jungkook wasn’t harsh but it made Jimin lift his head and his eyes land on Jungkook. He had a small pout on his pink lips. Jimin was still so beautiful just like he was years ago and it broke Jungkook. So he took a deep breath trying to control his words.
“Hyung.. I’m not saying this as the manager here but.. an omega getting abandoned in his wedding.. will make everyone look down at you. They will laugh at you and degrade you.”
“Why do you care?” that’s true. Both of them knew that. According to their pperspectives about their past, even if Jungkook knew much more about what really happened between them than Jimin, he still knew he had no right to care but he did.
“..besides I have nothing else to do..”
Jungkook bit his bottom lip when Jimin said and took a deep breath.
“Marry me Jimin”
Silence.
Only the sound of the rain.
Followed by the sound of their breaths.
Jimin’s eyes widened and his lips parted and a ironic sound left them. He wiped the drying tears away and took his bottom lip in his teeth trying to control his anger. The audacity Jungkook had..
“What the fuck are you saying now huh? How dare you? Is my whole life only a joke to you Jeon Jungkook? First you came in to my life and left me after hurting me.. now you’re trying to be an angel by what? Marrying me? Duh!” Jungkook knew his words weighed a lot. Actually he was also surprised at his own words, he didn’t even know how he would deal with everything if somehow Jimin agreed. His tongue worked its own, his heart stood up before his brain but when Jimin’s words reached his ears he felt how bad he sounded to the elder.
Like he was there to take advantage of the situation.
“I’m sorry Jimin but I meant it. You can’t.. you won’t be able to face everything if you walked away like this. People will laugh at you.. they will make fun of you and look down at you..”
“Don’t act like you care because you don’t! Won’t you be happy to see me broken again?” Jimin scoffed and stood up keeping the glass on the chair and before he walked away Jungkook stopped him by taking his wrist. Blood was boiling inside the omega. He didn’t understand why he had to go through Jungkook’s fake act again. Besides doesn’t Jungkook have an omega already? Is he crazy or what? Jimin didn’t want to break someone’s heart and make anyone cry like he did, before, he didn’t want to be pitied, didn’t want this alpha’s fake concern on him after everything he has done.
At least not now.
When the man stood up towering over him with his height and the buff body and then those eyes landed on him, Jimin felt his whole heart and body betrayed him. This was the man he always loved and waited for even if he knew there was no way for him to reunite with him. Jungkook’s hand which was around his wrist was soft and warm just like before, his brown orbs still were holding a galaxy.
“Let me take you away from this chaos Jimin. Don’t let them degrade you. Marry me and.. you can divorce me when you feel like it’s the time. I won’t mate you so you don’t have to worry about breaking the bond between our wolves.” His stupid voice was so soft. It made Jimin’s omega weak in his knees and a hoot left it for the realization of the alpha’s words. An omega getting abandoned in the alter, a black mark for the family, a no one.
A small sob left Jimin’s throat.
Jungkook panicked.
“No Jimin please don’t cry.. Ple-“
“Why? Why are you doing this Jungkook? Taking someone else’s responsibility on you.. taking me to you? After everything..? Why?” the urge Jungkook felt to take Jimin in his arms was too high. He wanted to kneel in front of the man and apologize, explain everything what happened in the past and beg him to think again, to come back to him and he also knew marrying Jimin is not what he deserves but a punishment for being stupid. He knew what he deserves. The hand around the omega’s wrist was loosened and fell on the side of the alpha. Suddenly Jimin felt vulnerable and unsafe, like someone could walk in and break him more and that’s not what he wanted to feel after making Jungkook step away from him.
That’s not it.
“There’s something you have to hear Jimin.. We have never talked about what happened. You walked away and I let you, I’m sorry for not reaching you. I guess.. I have no right to make you in to anything. I.. will cancel the ceremony and let the guests know. You can have a rest. Bye Jimin. I hope you will find someone better.. better than any of us.”
Jungkook turned around. His heart felt heavier than any other days to walk away from the man he loved. He should have been better than this, he should have let Jimin walk away and maybe try to reach him again after today has passed, after letting Jimin forget this and he got over with this. That’s how a real gentleman behaves right? Well, Jungkook never was a gentleman and damn, he could imagine most of the staff and Jimin’s guests laughing behind Jimin’s back and he wanted to protect Jimin by giving himself in.
Maybe that’s why those words left his mouth without even him knowing.
A step was placed towards the alpha who was walking away, Jimin’s omega pushing him to stop the man and listen to him, let him in. Why was he so weak for Jungkook? Once you fell in love, even their mistakes are neglectable, their ugliest appearance is the most beautiful in your eyes, even their anger can make you smile and maybe Jimin was so deep in love with Jungkook. He had to take years to look at Yoojong as a potential mate, years to get over with Jungkook’s scent of pine and still he wanted that one old grey sweater of Jungkook when he was in heat even if the smell faded away a long time ago. It took so much courage for him to replace it with Yoojong’s hoodie. Jimin knew he could get hurt again if he let the man in but his desire to listen to the younger got the best of him.
“Jungkook wait!”
The alpha stopped turning to him. His eyes looked blank, shoulders were dropped and his face looked exhausted in a sudden. There was no hope in those orbs even if Jimin stopped him. Guilt and pain was eating him up and he knew that he had no chance.
“Let’s get married”
* * *
His hand was entangled with the other man’s hand who had a beautiful white rose decorating the coat of his black tuxedo. His smell was even stronger and closer, and his smile never left his lips. Jimin sighed.
“Let’s get married”
That was absolutely not what Jimin planned to say, it was let’s talk. He still doesn’t understand why his inner omega took over him for a second just to spill those words out. Jimin’s mind went blank when Jungkook’s eyes widened as the response but the man nodded in a second. They only had a few minutes to take a decision, to really get married to each other or to cancel the marriage ceremony, and at last after talking with his parents and Tae, Jimin decided to go for it.
Get married to Jungkook, let him take away from the disgrace he might face, listen to what he has to say, stay married to him for a few months and get divorced.
But the word divorce felt like bitter on Jimin’s tongue.
“You took the best decision Chim..” Tae patted his shoulder a second before Jimin let his father to take his hand and walk down the aisle. Shouldn’t Tae be mad as his best friend? Shouldn’t he scold him for going back to that one man who hurt him? Why didn’t Tae?
Jimin’s eyes screamed his thoughts and who was Tae to not to see it?
“Trust me. You will know why..”
“Baby..”
“Huh?” Jungkook’s words reached Jimin’s ears like a drop of honey was placed there instead of words. The man had that effect even if Jimin wasn’t used to feel that yet, and that word. Baby. Jimin was still confused to think what Tae’s words meant but that one word dragged him back on to the earth, the reality.
“Your aunt is talking to you..” Jimin looked at the family standing in front of them. His father’s elder sister Jimin never liked. Her eyes always hand some kind of hate towards the omega but he didn’t know why. The grip around Jungkook’s forearm was tightened and the alpha looked at his husband.
The alpha felt it.
Something was wrong.
Well nothing was correct to even begin with.
“Jimin this is not the man we met in our family gathering. Where is his family? Are you.. two ok? Anything going on you haven’t told us?”
Jimin knew someone will have this question but he didn’t know anyone would have the strength to ask it from him. The management changed the name from ‘alpha Yoojong’ to ‘alpha Jungkook’ in the board they displayed on the entrance, the makeup was done in a few minutes and everything was.. fine. At least until now. Jimin just didn’t know what to say, how to answer his aunt and the family members around her who had their eyes on him, instead he just tried to find some comfort from the alpha, pushing his own body more towards the man.
“Aunt I..”
Jimin’s eyes widened when Jungkook suddenly pulled his arm from Jimin’s grasp and threw the same arm around Jimin’s waist pulling him in to his side. Bodies pressed against eachother and the big arm hugging the small omega.
“That’s my fault ma’m. I apologize. Back then I was taking some interviews and not being in a relationship was a requirement. So I had to hide it from everyone but my alpha was restless of not being able to protect my omega so I asked my cousin to pretend as his fiancé for a while, just to protect him from other eyes and my parents.. I only have one parent and that’s my alpha father, he currently lives in UK with my brother. My brother has some important exams to face so they couldn’t come, if that answers you.”
Jimin’s lips parted in shock but he closed it soon before his family catch how weird he is. Then he faked a smile nodding to Jungkook’s words. He was surprised with how well Jungkook lied and wait! Jungkook’s family! Did they really leave for UK? Does Junghyun really study in UK? Jimin didn’t know and the alpha’s tight hand around him wasn’t even helping him to understand anything that was happening.
“Well.. you seem like a good mate for Jimin hyung. You are handsome and you have a good profession. I hope you will also take a good care of him. Happy wedded life hyungnim-dal.” When Jimin’s eldest cousin greeted them Jimin somehow felt some weight was lifted from his shoulders, not because his cousin’s words about how Jungkook looks, but to realize Tae was somehow correct. Maybe he did take the right decision by marrying Jungkook. He wasn’t ashamed in front of his family, he wasn’t feeling sad anymore about Yoojong not choosing him and he felt safe in Jungkook’s arms. The man really protected him from his scary aunt and Jimin was so thankful for that.
* * *
The cottage was prettily decorated with flower petals and candles. It was warm and was ready for the honeymoon and Jimin remembers how he talked with Yoojong to not light any scented candles because they wanted to feel each other’s real scents. Instead it was replaced with the smell of pine.
Jimin gulped some champagne sitting on the cozy couch in the big living room in front of the lighted chimney. It was still raining heavily. The fire brought enough warmth to his body in the rainy weather and it felt comfortable. Or was it Jungkook’s scent that brought the feeling? He didn’t know.
It was after the dinner they came inside their private cottage. Jimin took a bath first and slumped down on the couch. He knew he had to talk with Jungkook before he goes to sleep. The omega was tired of crying, exhausted after a long day filled with so many ups and downs followed by unexpected situations but still, he wanted to talk. Jimin was married now. Married to none other than his ex who left him broken, who asked to let him heal him. He was confused with what Tae told too so Jimin wanted to get his mind clear first.
He tried not to think about the light peck Jungkook left on the corner of his lips on the alter.
He tried to forget the fact that they only had one bed and it was too cold to take the couch or the floor.
Jimin startled when the alpha took a seat next to him pouring some champagne in his own glass. Jimin's eyes went to Jungkook's long fingers which he always loved on his own. Jungkook was wearing a pair of grey joggers and a hoodie. Still wet, the black hair which was combed back in the day was now prettily fallen on the man’s forehead making curls in the ends.
He looked less intimidating and younger.
Just like how his Jungkook used to be.
It hurt Jimin deep down.
“How are you feeling?” when Jungkook finally lifted his head asking, Jimin quickly took his eyes away. He gulped and wished Jungkook didn’t catch him staring. He also wished he brought more clothes except these sex-appealing clothes which were ready for the honeymoon.
Jimin looked nervous and a small smile was decorated on the alpha’s lips.
Wearing the cutest light blue silk shorts with the same color silk button up, hugging his own legs to his chest Jimin looked even smaller. His milky white thighs were even prettier with the light of the fire. For Jungkook, he looked like baby rather than a grown man. Jungkook wanted to pull him in to his chest and drop so many apologizes in his skin. He couldn’t believe he hurt this human being and somehow he ended up being his husband.
Fuck, they are married!
“Not good of course”
Jimin’s words made Jungkook’s dancing heart die then and there. He knew it, of course he did. How can someone expect anyone to be happy after getting abandoned by their fiancé on the alter and suddenly having to get married to their ex who was nothing but an asshole? But Jungkook hoped Jimin was not feeling down this much.
“I’m..” he took a deep breath. “I’m sorry for everything you had to face Jimin.. everything I made you go through. I’m so sorry.”
Jimin lifted his eyes from the glass and dropped them on Jungkook’s face. His lips were curved downwards and he looked even fragile than Jimin himself. A visible plea on those brown orbs.
“You made me hate all the alphas Jungkook.. made it hard for me to even trust myself and.. You broke me, made me question myself why I wasn’t enough. It can’t be forgiven just from a few words.” Jimin’s words were leaving his lips like water was finally spilled from a dam. The voice was broken and it was like a whisper but was enough to make Jungkook’s heart ache with each and every word.
“I know.. I know I was fucking up everything. I can’t believe I let my stupidity and pride take over everything enough for you to leave me. I can’t believe I didn’t chase you begging to stop leaving me..”
“Even if you begged I wouldn’t have stayed. You.. you were fucking another omega behind my back and.. You found you fucked up how? Did he leave you broken just the way you left me? Were you betrayed just like me? Did you feel the pain I felt?” Jimin knew his words were sharp and he wished those stabbed the man. He was never a person to wish something like that. In everyone’s eyes Jimin was no one but an angel but this man left him broken with a permanent wound in his heart and soul.
Jungkook gulped.
“First.. I didn’t fuck him. He was.. Jimin he was no one but Yoongi hyung’s student who got tutored at our apartment.. he-“
“Wow.. you were cheating on me with Yoongi hyung’s student? Was hyung supporting you too? Wow both of you are two real assholes!” a sound of annoyance and disbelief left the omega’s throat and he gulped all the alcohol from his glass in one shot.
“What? What no!” a shiver ran down Jungkook’s spine. This is not how it should happen and he was supposed to make everything clear, make Jimin smile. So he put his glass on the coffee table and neared Jimin, taking his shoulders under his palm and turning him towards him. Jimin’s widened eyes landed on him. he tried to get himself released from Jungkook but he couldn’t. Jungkook’s grip was tight and his hold was stable.
“Let go Jungkook!”
“Jimin he was nothing to me and it was only an act! I asked him to act like that after I took off my shirt and let him wear it on his own clothes because I knew it was your time of visiting me. I wanted to make you see it the exact way how you saw it, like I was.. cheating on you with him. I wanted to hurt you but he was no one but a little brother to me!”
Jimin’s jaw dropped.
Is this confession really true? Nevertheless, was that supposed to make him feel better? An act! An act to hurt him! Jimin’s teeth clashed together and he tried not to let his eyes get filled with tears which he failed at. His heart felt a punch and a drop of tear rolled down his cheeks making Jungkook shocked.
“Jimin..”
“Such a big effort.. to hurt me. while I was.. I was..”
“You have to listen to what I have to say baby please. You can cry or punch me or kick me out later but please..” His own throat burning to see tears falling down his husband’s rosy cheeks, Jungkook wiped a drop away when he felt Jimin wasn’t planning to stop his touch. Why Jimin didn’t push him away? Why didn’t he lash out and scream not to use the word baby.
God!
“Why Jungkook? What did I even do to you? All I did was loving you.. giving my everything. You are my first in everything.. my first crush, love, the one I shared my body with.. I..” Sobs left Jimin’s throat and tears rolled down without stopping. His vision was blurred with tears and his hand trembled. Cheating is bad, but this.. his love trying hard to hurt him was worse. Was that even true? Wasn’t that really the one Jungkook cheated with? Was it only Yoongi’s student? Jimin didn’t know what to even believe.
“Baby..” Jungkook wanted to hug the trembling man in his arms and explain everything slowly but instead that’s the only thing left his mouth. His own eyes were getting wet to see the love of his life broken like this. How much did Jimin cry all this long? Jungkook didn’t know.
Get a grip Jungkook.. explain. Make him feel better.
“Baby I was.. am the wrong one. Don’t ever doubt yourself ok? I was.. I am so fucking stupid. A misunderstanding lead me to hurt you. Baby..”
“Why? All I ask is why?” Jimin voice was stern. His eyes were dark and were aimed at Jungkook’s.
It’s now or never.
“You were busy all the time. You spent less time with me.. I couldn’t find you in your arts galleries or where you worked and-“
“It’s because..” Jimin words were stopped by Jungkook’s words and him releasing his shoulders to cup his face.
“Let me speak first please. Please?” the alpha’s thumb caressed Jimin’s cheeks wiping the tears away. His brown orbs were shining with his own tears and voice so soft. They were so closer, Jimin could even dive in the smell of pine. He nodded.
“Ok. So.. I called you all the time to know when we could meet because I missed you so much and one day.. just like another time, you didn’t answer me..”
“Jun-“ Jimin wanted to say that he couldn’t use his phone in his new work place and that wasn’t him ignoring Jungkook. He wanted to say he was working for something. He wanted to say he loved Jungkook and he still does.
Wait! Does he?
His own thoughts stopped his words. Maybe it would be better if he really didn’t speak.
“Good boy. Just first listen out.” Jungkook looked at Jimin’s innocent eyes and he held back the urge of kissing those pretty lashes.
“.. and that day I went to search for you. We were supposed to meet at our apartment and I thought why not pick you up from where you were but.. what I saw when I went out, broke me and.. made me hate you.” Jimin’s fists were curled and he tried to run in the lane of his memories. What did Jungkook see? What was that?
“What.. did you see?” when he couldn’t find the answer, he asked Jungkook. The alpha was still cupping his face and looking at his eyes.
“An alpha was lifting you bridal style and both of you were laughing so happily.. you were hugging his neck and laughing in to his neck. Wasn’t quiet friendly for me and.. My brain didn’t take much time to combine all points together..”
An alpha? Bridal style? Laughing?
Oh
OH!
“My omega in someone else arms who I have never seen before, an alpha who can not only be a friend. Looking so happy and together. You being absent from my life from a quite long time and.. my brain told me. That you were cheating on me with that alpha.”
Jungkook was still caressing Jimin’s cheeks even when his lips parted and small eyes widened in shock. Never in life Jimin believed something like that would make such a big mess like this and looking at Jungkook’s eyes didn’t help him. A whine left his throat.
“That.. was my cousin Namjoon. Kim Namjoon. My mother’s twin sister’s son. He just landed after years of living abroad and he came to see me… We were always so close and.. That day I came to even take you to meet him when you were.. You were..”
“I know.”
You know?
Jungkook knew? Did Jungkook freaking know it was his cousin and he still.. he still? Jimin didn’t understand. Only he knew is that he felt his heart clenching so badly that it hurt. When Jungkook’s hands slipped away from his cheeks Jimin felt how his bottom lip trembled.
“If you knew.. why?”
“It was weeks after our break up I found it was your cousin. Tae hyung told me and I lost my shits. But still it didn’t make sense why you ditched me all that long-“
“I wasn’t dit-“
“When he told you were not.. ignoring me and that you were working to buy an apartment for us.. that you were planning to ask me to move in with you.. I.. don’t understand how to tell you how bad I felt about myself, my existence.. I’m sorry Jimin. I’m so fucking sorry I hurt you like that..” When Jungkook said letting his fingertips fight with the thread of his hoodie Jimin’s eyes got filled with tears again. How did that happen? A freaking misunderstanding was ruining his life, his past five years and more than that. He even started hating his own life and looking at the alpha he can say he was no different than him. Before all these things happened, Jimin can say that he never had felt anything bad when he was with Jungkook. The man was nothing but lovely, romantic and amazing. Everything happened after this incident so Jimin can say without any doubts, that it killed Jungkook too.
“..I know it wasn’t Tae hyung’s place to say that but.. I’m happy he did, made me pay for what I did. I was.. dying. My alpha was punishing me. If it wasn’t Yoongi hyung to knock up some senses in to my head, to make me understand that I may have a chance with you someday, that I should love myself before loving you.. I won’t be here as a successful man today. I..”
“Why didn’t you try to reach me if you.. loved me this much as you say?” a long sigh left the alpha’s left and he fully turned to face Jimin. Rain was still poring outside and the fire was slowly dying, he has to turn on the fan inside the chimney so it will keep lighting but that wasn’t Jungkook’s priority now.
“First when I found it was your cousin, I wanted to chase you but my pride didn’t let me because I still thought there was something wrong with you being away from me even before he came. After I accidently met Tae hyung again, I argued with him about you.. us. Then he told me about.. the apartment and everything. I felt ashamed of myself. As an alpha, it was me should have been working on us, not you. I didn’t know how to face you. My days were spent with.. soju. I couldn’t let go of your scent, your touch, your love and then your sobs.. when Yoongi hyung pulled me back to the reality, I went for you.. to find you were engaged.”
Their scents were getting stronger, breaths became uneasy and eyes got wet, water running down both of their cheeks without them realizing. A second Jimin was staring at Jungkook and in the next second, he stormed away from the couch, away from the man to the big glass window of the cottage. The rain was getting even heavier and the cottage was getting colder. Jimin hugged his body to himself and let his tears fall down freely.
Jimin loved Jungkook, ever since the first second he eyed the beautiful man who weirdly had a cute bunny smile. He was manly and but somehow he was also cute, not something someone can expect from an alpha. Jimin was already falling for him and when that man’ smile landed on him one day in an art exhibition, after those eyes examined his piece of art slowly, Jimin lost his control. Still he never expected to see the same smile directing on him everyday and almost everywhere. Jungkook was that popular alpha who was sweet yet mischievous, everyone loved him and the omega never thought those smiles meant something more than a small greeting, that seeing that man everywhere wasn’t just a coincidence. The day he got asked out by Jungkook on a date, was the happiest day in Jimin’s life. Even after their break up he still cherished it.
How could they end up like this?
Just because of some misunderstandings and some stupid decisions which were taken by their younger selves, when they still loved each other.
Jimin heard the slow steps nearing him and he wiped his tears sniffling through them. Jungkook’s scent was addicting and his omega was preening inside him to know that their alpha was still needing them.
Did Jungkook really need him?
Jungkook thought twice, thrice. Hesitation was bubbling inside him because he knew it was always him there behind the omega’s tears. What did the hesitation do to him all this long? To Jimin? Gave nothing but a compunction and pain so this time the forth time Jungkook thought, he wasn’t hesitating to wrap his arms around the omega’s body, keeping his head on the omega's small shoulder.
A shiver ran down the omega’s body.
He gulped some saliva and took some breath through his nostrils feeling the warmth emitting from the younger. It was favourable, familiar and comforting. The soft breath flowing from Jungkook and hitting his cheeks was hot.
“You aren’t pushing me away..” Jungkook’s words were like a soft whisper.
“Do you want me to?” Jimin asked softly. He wished Jungkook would say no.
His parents’ faces were painted in front of Jimin’s eyes. They were annoyingly happy to see Jimin getting married to Jungkook. Of course they did, they knew how hard it was for their son to forget the younger alpha and there was Tae. He was a whole different story winking, winking and winking while grinning like an idiot. When Jungkook said his father and brother didn’t even talk to him after hearing their break up, that they loved Jimin like their own son maybe more than him, that they won’t even ask anything about him suddenly getting married to Jimin because it’s Jimin, a small smile was plastering on Jimin’s lips.
Now caged in Jungkook’s arms, pressed on his hard chest and looking at the rain, Jimin thought maybe those myths were not just stupid. Maybe he was blessed too.
“No”
Jimin released a breath to Jungkook’s answer, a breath he didn’t even know he was holding.
“I want.. Jimin I..” the grip was tightening around his torso and goosebumps were forming on Jimin’s skin. He loved how Jungkook was hugging him, how he was stuttering, how his scent emitted stress and fear. That made the omega realize how much he affected the alpha, how much he wanted Jimin to stay there in his arms just the way Jimin himself wanted.
“Want what?” he needed to hear it out.
“I want you back. No! I need you. I.. always did and even now.. I still love you Jimin, I never stopped and I want you to give this a try. Give me another chance to get you back.. get us. Please baby I beg you.” The hands were gone from Jimin’s body and he was turned facing the alpha. Before he reacted to the action or whine for the warmth gone away from him, his eyes were widened when the man kneeled in front of him. A knot was forming in Jimin’s throat and he wanted to pull Jungkook up. He is a freaking alpha for god’s sake and no alpha will go kneel for someone, specially not in front of an omega.
“Jungk-“
“Let me. Jimin you deserve the whole world and.. I may not be that world but I wanna try. I will try my best. At least let me try to make you happy and you can divorce me if you feel I’m not worthy for you. Even if I want to mate you, I will respect anything you say, will take your punches and your kicks on my balls if you want me to just please.. just one chance. Only one.” His eyes were pleading and filling with tears each passing second. Jimin pulled Jungkook up making the man stand up on his feet. He didn’t let Jungkook’s eyes to travel away from his own. They stayed like that, staring at each other’s souls. Jimin felt how his heart was beating faster inside his body and how his omega was dancing in happiness, wiggling his cute tail in the air.
Jungkook still loved him.
He wanted to try again.
The love Jimin always had for the younger was pushing him to hug the man, burry his face in that long neck and take a breath from his scent of pine. Maybe leave a small peck on his scent gland. Jimin was thankful, he respected that Jungkook wasn’t releasing his pheromones or his alpha voice on him in to submission. Jungkook was never like that. He was stupid, yes. But he was a good alpha.
Still, Jimin waited.
“How can I.. believe you won’t let some misunderstandings hurt us again?”
A smile was decorating on Jungkook’s lips. Was Jimin ready to let him in? To try? To accept him? Is he going to get another chance?
“Let me try. Let me show you that. Give me some time. One month, two months and if you..” Fuck Jungkook can’t say that, it already hurts to think, having to let go of Jimin again. “..felt we won’t work. I will let you.. g-go.”
His eyes were nothing but sincere and Jimin knew how much he loves Jungkook back. The problem is the fear he has of the same thing repeating. One month will be enough for Jungkook to stay as he promised but in a marriage, things get different when it’s more in to time. Will Jimin be able to try it? Risk his life? Will Jungkook be able to prove himself?
Will they work?
* * *
One month in to the marriage
They moved in to Jungkook’s penthouse together.
They are married now and except them, Tae and Jimin’s parents no one knew that they have even talked about a divorce so they had to.
Living with Jungkook was Jimin’s dream from long time and it wasn’t bad.
Jimin was always too sleepy to wake up in the morning. He was hugging his big pillow into his body and hiding inside the big comforter in their shared double bed when Jungkook tried to wake him up. Well, the omega was so cute with his puffy cheeks and a pout. Waking up to this angel is what Jungkook wished everyday and he was so happy.
Even if they never touched eachother on the bed, he was happy.
Jungkook always made breakfast for them. Coffee without sugar for Jimin and with two spoonfuls for himself. When the lazy, sleepy Jimin walks up to the kitchen, the food was always ready for him. He felt happy to be babied, babied by none other than Jungkook.
The dinner was made by Jimin as he always came back home before Jungkook. The alpha loved when the omega welcomed him at the door when he came back after a tiring day. Jimin’s smile with the sweet voice whispering “welcome back” was everything.
Everything was good.
Jimin felt hopeful.
Two months in to the marriage
Jimin went in to his heat.
Jimin always wanted Jungkook in his heat even when he was engaged to Yoojong. It was crazy but his omega already chose Jungkook as his mate from long time ago. Heat was when their inner omegas take the control and now, to have the alpha as his husband, Jimin couldn’t hold back.
Jungkook cancelled all his work and stayed home.
They haven’t talked about spending their heats or ruts together when the heat hit Jimin. Even when they have had sex five years ago, it was different from now. The omega was nesting with Jungkook’s clothes and when the alpha reached home, he was invited in it. Getting invited to an omega’s nest specially in their heat is intense and Jungkook felt proud. But everything crashed down when Jimin climbed on top of him undressing him and rutting their hips together.
We haven’t talked.. Jimin might regret this..
Respect.. Control..
If getting tortured is a thing this was it.
Jimin was so beautiful and his smell of jasmine was filling in the air choking Jungkook. Glistening skin covered by thin layers of sweat made the omega even more addictive. Jungkook wanted to touch, kiss and taste. Take a bite and claim his omega but damn he couldn’t. When soft and sinful whimpers left Jimin’s bitten lips begging to be filled, Jungkook knew this was what exactly torturing is.
He still held himself back.
Jungkook guided Jimin to pleasure himself with the big dildo. He touched Jimin’s burning skin not leaving Jimin’s eyes, making the omega realize his alpha was still there. Not wanting to hold back anymore under Jimin’s cries and begging, Jungkook took Jimin’s lips in his in a hot kiss, letting Jimin hug his body. The omega’s lips tasted the same like five years ago. Soft and inviting. Plump and addicting.
“Be a good boy.. show your alpha how amazing you are. Work on yourself..” Jungkook’s words were enough and he watched every action of Jimin, palming himself finding a release. It was hard, so fucking hard to hold back his desires when his love, his husband and his mate was there naked, legs spreaded wide, skin pink, smelling so good and begging, begging and begging.
Fucking shit!
Three days after, when Jimin came back to himself and found out what exactly happened, he felt like crying. He was overwhelmed with the realization of how Jungkook treated him, how amazing and respectful he was. If he was disappointed of not having Jungkook inside him, he didn’t show it.
He laughed loud when Jungkook complained about him giving him blue balls.
After all, Jimin felt respected.
Three months in to the marriage
They attended Jimin’s family gathering they had on every Chinese spring festival day.
That one annoying aunt of him, still rolled his eyes on the couple and now it was even worse because Jimin was practically glowing. The happiness made that to him and he believed maybe his alpha had done the biggest part of it. The woman was jealous. He always had that feeling when it comes to Jimin and to realize Jimin’s neck was still unmarked, shining under the sun light like a smooth diamond, she knew where to attack.
“Why aren’t you mated? You even passed a heat and still you are unclaimed?” the beta had a sharp tongue and the statement made Jimin make himself smaller. He didn’t know why his aunt was always bothered by what he did with his life. When there were things which no one speaks in public, like heats and mating, there was his aunt with her big loud mouth.
Jungkook pulled Jimin to his body nosing Jimin’s hair.
“Ma’m that’s so disrespectful to talk about a wolf’s rut or heat. Please have some respect and that, is none of your business.” Jimin was thankful he had Jungkook to himself to speak for him. He remembered how Yoojong just tapped on his phone all the time when things like that happened, letting Jimin take care of everything his own.
“It’s your aunt Jimin, not mine”
“Of course it’s my business.. He is my nephew. Sadly now you’re too.”
Sadly? Jimin wanted to throw a punch.
“If you care that much you’d know how to respect him, you should have asked him in private but this.. is disrespecting. I won’t let anyone to do that to my mate and specially not in my watch. If you really wanna know why we aren’t mated yet, I’m gonna take him to Paris the city of love to mate him. Happy? Now if you excuse us.. Baby.. let’s go.”
Jimin just trailed after Jungkook, the big hand guiding him by his waist. His aunt was glued to the floor dumfounded and..
Jimin felt protected.
Four months in to the marriage
Jungkook took Jimin to the silver jubilee ceremony of the hotel opening.
The party was big, he never had participated in one like that and as the manager’s mate, Jimin took everyone’s attention. Well, it wasn’t only because of Jungkook’s position, Jimin’s beauty was shining under all the lights. Jungkook couldn’t take his eyes away from his husband.
There was this minute Jimin was sitting alone while Jungkook was talking to a foreign person. An alpha? There was also another beta next to him, a female. A secretary?
She was slim, wearing a white tight pencil gown which was shining with silver lines. Jimin couldn’t look away from how she was standing giving her weight on one leg and digging the floor with toes of the other. Her eyes fluttering looking at Jungkook and she grabbed Jungkook’s bicep when she was laughing. Damn, the bitch was flirting and Jimin felt how blood was boiling inside him.
Jungkook is mine!
But.. man, he wasn’t pushing the female beta away.
Jimin felt a pang in his heart to see Jungkook letting the girl to touch his arm, lean in to him and even smiling with her. The omega bit his lip tight not letting his eyes get wet. He knew it was the jealousy taking over him and he couldn’t do anything for that, simply he didn’t want to stop the feeling. His eyes fell on the table when suddenly Jungkook turned towards him still smiling. His hands trembled and heart was clenching. This time tears were filling in his eyes.
“Baby.. Jimin hey..”
Oh no.
Jimin didn’t know Jungkook would come to him but when the alpha turned the chair with Jimin on it, towards him, Jimin couldn’t help but looking at the man crouching in front of him.
“You are.. babe what’s wrong.” Jungkook looked at Jimin’s pretty face and slowly wiped those eyes before the tears fell down and ruin Jimin’s makeup. He was pouting and looked broken. Jungkook smelled the air to understand why his husband was like this. The bitter smell of jasmine told him the story in a second.
“Jimin she is no one. Just another beta but she is with that Austrian client and he is important. I.. couldn’t stop her because it might seem like humiliating her but that doesn’t mean anything. Baby.. don’t cry..”
“I..” Jimin’s lip trembled. Jungkook sat on the chair next to him and he didn’t think twice to pull him on to his lap. Jimin’s eyes widened with the action when he knows there are plenty of eyes on them, on Jungkook.
“Jimin. Remember why we broke up years ago? A misunderstanding. We promised to not let anything like that come between us again and I’m trying my best. I want you to try too. Trust me, only me.” Jungkook’s soothing voice was falling on Jimin’s ears and the soft touch he felt under his tuxedo on his waist, felt comforting and Jimin knew it. He knew he was this close to fuck up but this feeling wasn't stoppable, the jealousy he felt was still there. They were different from the past, always talked everything about how their days went on and they even talked about their insecurities but still, jealousy was different.
“I was scared.. Jealous.” Jungkook smiled.
“Me too..”
“You? Why you?”
“Do you not know how many eyes are blinded by your beauty? That they are looking at you like they have a chance? I’m jealous that they can think like that. I’m scared they will snatch you because you’re not having my mark or scent on you. I’m sad I’m not wearing your scent to let that beta understand on her own that I am mated, that I have a beautiful husband.”
A smile was decorated the omega’s face.
That second Jimin felt what his real feelings are.
Five months in to the marriage
They made love.
It was the same night after the ceremony, midnight was passing counting fifth month anniversary of them.
Jimin wanted it. To be covered in Jungkook’s smell and to make everyone understand his alpha was taken. Taken and won’t even be freed for anyone else.
“Are you sure baby? I don’t want you to regret anything..”
“Yes. You’re mine Jungkook. I want everyone to know that.”
“You can just scent me Ji-“
“I want more. I want all of you. I want to give you all of me too. I want to have sex- no! make love. Jungkook.. Jungkook I want.. I want..”
“Shh.. I got you love. Anything for you. Anything at all..”
Clothes were thrown away and Jimin was hugging the familiar body to his body without any barriers when Jungkook lifted him up and pressed him on the big painting done by Jimin, kissing down his neck starting from his lips to his collarbones. Naked bodies pressed on the beautiful painting which was hanging on their bedroom wall, a painting of a forest of pine trees with bushes filled with jasmine flowers, a painting Jimin finished years ago when he planned for their shared apartment he bought, the painting Jimin was hesitating to throw away even after they broke up because he loved it. Loved it so much.
His alpha was so strong, even more than before. The baby alpha was grown up in to a real man, sliding in and out inside him pressing his body on the painting, lips marking him up leaving angry red marks on Jimin’s unmarked body. His fingers pulling the alpha’s locks back bearing the neck for him and licking up the pine smelling scent gland making the alpha groan with the pleasure.
“Jungkook..”
“Baby.. So good for me..”
“I lov-e you Jun-ng-jugkook. So much..”
Jungkook stared at Jimin’s beautiful orbs laying on the soft bed, pushing Jimin’s wet hair back from his forehead and kissing there. After coming inside Jimin and letting his slick and cum make a mess on the beautiful painting, Jungkook took him to the bed, still locked inside him with the big knot. His husband looked wrecked and beautiful. So beautiful that Jungkook wanted to worship him like a god deserves.
Jimin loves him.
“You love me?” He asked pecking the omega’s soft cheeks biting it slowly with his teeth.
“Always did.”
“Really?”
“It was always you Jungkook.”
“Was?” Jimin smiled and hit Jungkook’s sweaty chest slowly making the alpha smile and kiss his nose this time. He was happy, so happy to be in Jimin’s arms, to be with him and inside him. Jimin felt like home.
Jimin is home.
“Was. Is and will be.. Happy?” this time it was Jimin kissed the alpha’s forehead saying that.
“I ruined the painting.. your effort.” Jungkook felt bad but he can’t say he regrets anything happened. Maybe he should have taken Jimin straight to their bed. Maybe they should have done somewhere else. Maybe-
“It’s.. I drew it imagining our love. Our life together and I think it looks even more beautiful with.. traces of our love making there.”
Jungkook threw his head back on the pillow laughing. When Jimin also joined him with his cute little giggles the alpha hid his face in the crook of his husband’s neck. Jimin’s arms wrapped around the big body of his alpha, letting his eyes get heavier with the sleep.
Jimin felt completed.
Six months in to the marriage
They made Jimin’s aunt silent with the beautiful mating mark on Jimin’s neck.
The stupid arrogant grin never left Jungkook’s face and Jimin couldn’t stop laughing.
“Jungkook babe.. are you that proud?”
“No divorce, no annoying aunts.. no misunderstandings.. Just you and me so of course I’m proud.”
Jungkook said pulling Jimin in to his arms and snaking his arms around the tiny waist of his mate. When Jimin smiled at him, Jungkook’s mind went back in time to when he first saw the beautiful omega playing with a small ant in the college cafetaria. The omega was so focused on the little creature circling a small cube of sugar in front of the poor ant. He was so cute, too cute to be a grown man. He smiled like sunshine when the ant reached the cube but circled around the area when the omega lifted the cube in the air.
Jungkook was melting like a piece of butter under the rays of sunshine.
Even now,
Jungkook is still melting in the same omega’s arms.
He will keep melting until the last drop of his life would be vanished from the world.
Twenty six years in to the marriage
They were still melting in each others embrace looking fondly at their daughter lifting her graduation cap waving at them with her boyfriend besides her, at the same university they met each other.