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“Fuck!” I mutter. Another incorrect note. Music is my true passion in life but life in Hollywood isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. My job combined with our complete lack of success has been stressing me out lately and it’s starting to affect my musical abilities in a way that I’m not sure how to handle.
“Give yourself a break, Julie. You need one.” My best friend Tiffany places a reassuring hand on my shoulder.
Tiffany is easily the most important person in my life, she has been for a long time. We met when we were 6 years old and our friendship is still going strong 12 years later. When I had the idea to start a band I knew she'd be more than happy to be in it. Naturally, the next step was to move out to Los Angeles and get an apartment together. That and finding more band members was a piece of cake but since then, everything's been basically stagnant.
Of course, we knew being an all-girl rock band would be tough. It's 1985 and women aren't exactly taken seriously in most capacities but especially among rockstars. If you're not fucking them, why should they even give you a second thought? It's fucked up but that's just the way things are nowadays.
I let that discourage me for about a month or two, then I remembered who I am and why I'm doing this. I couldn't give less of a fuck what Gene Simmons or Vince Neil thinks about women or their place in rock music. Madonna didn't get where she is today by giving a fuck about what men thought of her.
Coming up with a band name was surprisingly difficult, you'd think between four creative individuals we'd figure it out pretty quickly but it took quite some time. We came up with Theodora and knew immediately it was perfect. Theodora was an empress from the Byzantine Empire. She was one of the first empresses to draw attention to women's rights and it felt right to name our band after her.
"I'm going out with Victor tonight, so you'll have the place to yourself. Don't have too much fun."
I could practically see the sarcasm radiating off of Tiffany when she uttered that last part. It's no secret that I don't date. I've just never had the time to go out with anyone. In school, I was always too busy overachieving to acknowledge any romantic feelings. Now, my job and my band keep me occupied.
That doesn't mean that I don't want to date. I doubt I'd get very far, though. I'm pretty shy around people outside of my bandmates and I'm not exactly the most interesting person on the planet. But I'd say I'm pretty content for the most part. I don't think I should be adding more potential stress to my life right now anyway.
When Tiffany closes the door, I place my guitar against the wall and plop down on the couch. Being under stress isn't ideal for writing songs, in my experience. Since I don't have any plans, I'm trying to decide if I should watch some television or just go to bed. Considering I have to work tomorrow, sleeping would be the most logical option.
So of course I opted to watch TV.
We're all gonna die one day, what's the point? Live a little! Welcome to Julianna's boring life.