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Jack had gone and sat on the bed next to Sam and had put his arm around her, pulling her towards him, so that she could rest her head on his shoulder as their little daughter lay asleep at Sam's breast. Jack's other hand had gently touched his daughter's head, then he had put his hand on Sam's arm, thought about their missing son and they both cried a mixture of grieving and grateful tears.
CHAPTER 2 SURVIVING
Over the next few day's their daughter recovered her strength and Sam had thankfully been released from the darkest depths of her depression. Jack had barely had a chance to hold their daughter, but he knew that Sam had needed her more. When she had been back with them for five days and they had just had a rather hot session of sex and Jack was still inside her as they calmed their bodies, Jack broached the idea of the upcoming recording session in two days time. Then Sam said something completely unexpected.
“It turn's me on... when he watches..... after that time he ran into the bathroom after watching us.... Knowing that watching us, turned him on so much... turned me on too” Sam said quietly.
“Good.... I'm glad that it turns you on. It turns me on to know that he wants you, and can't have you” Jack confessed.
“Really?” Sam had asked, surprised. She was feeling rather embarrassed by her unexpected, blurted out confession.
“Yep, sure, you betcha. No one else can have you Sam. You are mine!” Jack said as he kissed her.
“I'm yours” Sam smiled as she had felt Jack's cock begin to harden inside her again. She squirmed with the thought of him giving her another orgasm. She was positively addicted to the orgasm's Jack gave her. She squeezed him with her internal muscles, she had been exercising them regularly after the birth, wanting to ensure her pelvic floor would remains strong, but when their son had been taken from them, she had stopped.
Sam knew that she needed to try to pull herself together. For their daughter. For Jack. He had shocked her when he had pleaded with her not to die and leave him. She had been so numb with grief that she had not even realised what she had been doing to Jack. He had lost his son and daughter too. She wasn't the only one suffering. She just felt so.... dark. Like a huge dark weight was on top of her and was pushing her down, trying to crush her. When she had lost their daughter as well, she had lost the will to fight against it, but now she knew that she needed to summon that will again.
“I'm sorry Jack” she whispered
“What? What for?” asked Jack, a little confused.
“For shutting down.... For shutting you out. I'm sorry Jack” she said as tears spilled from her eyes.
“Sam... I understood Sam... God I understood only too well... If that was what you needed to do to cope with losing them... But when you stopped eating, stopped drinking... God Sam... I was so scared I was going to lose you. Don't you ever do that to me again. You can shut me out all you want, but don't you ever give up again. Don't you EVER give up again” he said emotionally.
“I'm sorry Jack. God I'm so sorry. I don't know how to fight this... I always feel so... dark and..... heavy... I just don't know what to do...” she sobbed softly.
Jack held her tightly. “You need to remember that they are going to find us Sam. They are still looking for us and they ARE going to find us. Teal'c and Daniel would never give up on us, on you. They would NEVER give up on finding you. There are so many recordings out there. Teal'c will know who took us, it is just a matter of time till they find us. When they find one of the whore ships, they will see a recording and they will know we are still alive. Or someone is bound to recognise us sooner or later and let Earth know where we are. They WILL find us Sam. You have to keep believing that. You can't lose faith in them. You need to try and get strong Sam, one day they will find us and we will need to be ready.”
“How are they going to get us out Jack? The security is good. Too good. They might see one of our recordings, God that is something I will never come to terms with, our recordings out there and watched by thousands of men. God it creeps me out......... They might find us because of those recordings, but how will they get us out?” she asked, desperate to find a reason to hope.
“They will do it. Somehow. They will think of something. They might have good security measures, but from what we have seen they are poorly trained, that was pretty obvious when they caught us”
“What if they have improved, The Master was pretty angry that a 'whore' got the better of one of his men. What if he has made sure that they have had some proper training?”.
“I'm not sure that he would be willing to take the time and effort to train them. He obviously has no trouble recruiting men, he never hesitated to get rid of the men who made mistakes and didn't seem to care that we had shot a heap of his men. Our guys will be careful Sam, They will think of a way. Even if they can just get you out with our daughter.
“No Jack. I am not leaving without you. I'd rather stay here than leave without you.
“Sam....” Jack sighed.
“I mean it Jack. Either we both go or we both stay. I am not leaving without you” she said firmly “I need you, not just because I love you... I need you. God Jack, I can't even change a diaper! I would be useless without you. I can't even nurse her without help from you. I am not going without you... Any way... how would I survive without having sex with you every day? I couldn't Jack... Sending me off alone would end up killing me. I am so bloody useless without you Jack” she said tearfully.
Jack sighed. He knew that he would never leave her behind either. They were both as stubborn as each other. He kissed her forehead, then down her nose to her lips. “I love you Samantha Carter” he whispered “I love your useless hand and your scarred breast. I love your stretch marks. I love you Sam. I love you so much” Then he kissed her, opening his mouth to taste her mouth. His half hard cock flexed inside her and she squeezed him in response.
Sam broke the kiss and looked into his eyes “I love you Jonathan O'Neill. I love your super semen. I love your huge cock. I love the orgasms you give me. I love.....”
But she was cut off by Jack's laugh “You love the orgasm's I give you huh?”
“Yep, sure, you betcha” she smiled.
Jack silenced her with another tender kiss as he hardened inside her even more, the thrust his hips and Sam moaned into his mouth and she spread her legs to invite him deeper inside her.
“We need to figure out a position we are going to use for the recording” said Jack quietly.
“As much as I love it when I am on my knees, I think they got enough of that position when I was pregnant, I think I had better stay on my back so my flabby belly doesn't show too much.”
Jack kissed his way down over her breasts as he withdrew his cock from her pussy. She moaned in disappointment. Jack kissed her belly. “I love your belly. It grew two beautiful babies. Geez Sam, you barely even have a belly anyway, you lost so much weight that it left you with room to expand with the babies, you had a lot of give in your belly before it began to really stretch with the twins......” he looked up at Sam who had tears in her eyes. He raised himself above her again and then leaned down to kiss her.
“No matter where he is, he will always be OUR beautiful son. He will ALWAYS be in our hearts” he kissed her again, then kissed his way down her scarred breast to her belly, that was now lightly scarred with stretchmarks. Then he kissed his way down to her pussy and licked her firmly from ass to clit as he tasted a mixture of her sweetness and the tang of his salty semen. He eased his fingers inside her pussy, then curled them up to her G spot. When he found it, she had jerked her hips and then he had clamped his mouth onto her clit and sucked hard as she moaned in pleasure. Her hips bucked and before long he felt a flood of fluid as she orgasmed. He sucked harder on her clit while she orgasmed. He kept sucking until she moaned.
“Jack... I want you inside me again” he put his tongue in her pussy and then raised himself up and kissed her, letting her taste the both of them. She moaned and sucked hard on his tongue then he carefully entered her. She moaned as his hard cock slid into her quivering pussy. When he was deep inside her, she squeezed him hard, then he began to slowly thrust his hips as she spread her legs wider and moaned “Oh Jack”.
He put his arm under her left leg and lifted it up slowly. Sam had tried to keep up with her stretches while she was pregnant, but he knew she wasn't as flexible now as she once was, so he was careful not to overstretch her muscles. But Sam surprised him and she took her left leg with her left hand and pulled it up further and told Jack to lift her other leg, so Jack complied until both her legs were resting comfortably as her hips and ass were spread wide. Jack did a few slow thrusts before picking up speed and slamming into her. Sam moaned loud and Jack only slammed into her five or six times before she exploded and orgasmed, she shook as pleasure coursed through her. Jack felt her spasms and followed her with his next thrust. Neither of them had lasted long. The Master would not be happy with a quick five or ten minute fuck, even if it was hot and sexy. Which meant that he would need to use the drug so he could last longer. Crap. He knew Sam wouldn't like that. He didn't particularly like it either, but they needed to impress the Master. Their daughters safety depended on how well they preformed. He heard their daughter start to cry, he was surprised that they had not woken her earlier, although he suspected that she was still recovering from that horribly stressful two and a half day starvation.
He eased out of Sam and reached for a cloth that he had tucked under his pillow, he quickly wiped the worst of their mess up then left the cloth tucked between Sam's legs before helping her to sit up and lean against the bedhead before he picked up their crying daughter. He helped Sam secure her in the crook of her damaged arm and then made sure she was latched on properly before pulling up the blanket over their legs and sitting beside her. Sam was gently caressing the babies silky hair before she changed arms underneath the nursing baby, so her damaged arm was free. It was always ached terribly when she used it. Jack grabbed a pillow and wedged it under her arm to make it easier for her. She smiled at him in thanks, he always seemed to know what she needed. They sat there quietly until the baby's sucking slowed and she was dozing. Jack gently broke the suction and then put her up against his chest to burp her before changing her diaper and settling her back into Sam's arm and helping to latch her on. He touched her silky soft hair just had Sam had done, he couldn't resist, she was truly a beautiful baby. She still looked so impossibly tiny, he didn't remember Charlie ever being this small.
“Do you feel the Naquadah in her blood?” Sam asked quietly
“Yeah” said Jack quietly.
“When I nurse it feels strange... good though... different from when I feel yours or a Goa'uld. When you are really close, yours always makes me feel... horny. But the baby's, it feels..... comforting. Special. I wonder if he misses it?” she trailed off as she began to cry.
Jack put his arm around her “It's okay Sam, he isn't with us, but he IS with someone who paid a LOT of money for him. They will look after him Sam. They will. He's okay. One day we will find him, but for now... he is okay, and no matter what he will always be OUR son.”
Tears fell from Sam's eyes as she looked at Jack sadly.
“When we get out of here, we will track him down Sam. I promise you that when we get out, we will track him down and find him. That will be our first priority. We will find him and until we do, he will be okay.”
Sam gave a little sob and Jack gathered her to him a little tighter. “We'll find him Sam. We'll find him”. He held her while their daughter continued to nurse.
He wiped the tears from her face for her and she huffed.
“See... I'd be lost without you, I can't even wipe my own tears” Sam sighed.
“I don't care if I have to clean up after you for the rest of our lives, as long as I'm with you, I'm the luckiest man in ANY universe.”
Sam chuckled “ANY universe huh?”
“Yes, sure, you betcha.... Hey.... Did you say that my Naquadah makes you … Horny???” he smirked.
“Oh yeah..... Every time you are sexually aroused, it changes how my Naquadah makes me feel. If you are especially horny... I am too.... Maybe that's why I always woke up before you actually ejaculated.... The Naquadah that was still inside me was reacting to yours, obviously even only having a little Naquadah can turn me on fast... It must have been enough to wake me... Make my body respond to the pleasure even before I was even aware of what was happening”
“Sweet” smiled Jack “Mind you I didn't care what woke you... I was just grateful that you DID wake up to feel pleasure”.
“Hmmm.... Me too...” she said as she leaned her head on his shoulder and watched their daughter nurse sleepily.
“Melody” she suddenly said quietly. “Let's name her Melody”.
Jack smiled and then he kissed the top of Sam's head “Melody...... That's beautiful. Sound's perfect.”
“I wonder what they named him” Sam said in a small voice.
“It doesn't matter what they name him Sam. He is OUR son and WE will choose his name. We are his parents Sam. Whatever we name him will be his legal name, no matter how many other names he has, the name WE give him is his real name. His REAL identity. Whatever name he has now, it's only temporary” Jack told her firmly.
Sam went silent for a few minutes as she considered his words. “I never thought about it like that, I just..... If we ever got him back, he would be used to another name, it would be confusing for him.”
“He is our son Sam. OUR son, he should have a true name. A true identity. He is having a temporary life, a temporary name. He will not keep a name that will always remind us, that someone else gave it to him.
Sam pulled back and stared at him, clearly startled by what Jack just said. “Jack...” she said as tears began to flood her eyes “I......”
“Jacob, let's name him Jacob” Jack said firmly.
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah, it's a good name, a family name, after a very good man.”
Sam gave a little sob and put her head back on Jack's shoulder, then after a few minutes said “Jacob George”.
“Jacob George. That's a damn good name Sam”
“Jacob George O'Neill. It sounds good” murmured Sam “You know Dad is going to be a pain in the ass about it don't you?”
“Ohhhh yeah... but maybe then he will forgive me for knocking you up?”
“Probably not.... But I think that he will just be glad that it was you” Sam shivered as she smiled sadly.
“I thank God for THAT all the time Sam. Thank God that the story about the Naquadah worked..........” then Jack added “You know Melody will be jealous of her brother if we don't give her a middle name as well... how about your mother's name?”
“Amanda?”
“Yeah...... Melody Amanda..... Sounds good... Do you like it?”
“Yeah” said Sam as she looked down at their sleeping daughter. “Melody Amanda O'Neill.... Yeah... Sounds good”
Jack kissed the top of her head again. “We'll find him Sam. We'll find Jacob and take him home with us, where he belongs.”
Sam gave a little sob and nodded, not willing to trust her voice.
“Let's get some sleep while we can” Jack said as he gently took Melody from her arms. Sam then went to the bathroom to clean up and use the toilet. Then she went back to the bed and lay down. Jack laid Melody down beside her, put a pillow behind Melody's back and then took himself off to the bathroom before laying down behind Sam and spooning her as he pulled up the blankets up over them. Sam adjusted the blanket over Melody and watched her sleep as she warmed up with Jack's body heat. The room was definitely feeling cooler lately and it took her a while to get warm enough but then she let her tiredness take over and slept. Jack held Sam as he felt her relax into sleep.