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    Could Rose ever dream up a seaside town that Shane would retire to? Could Rose ever crack the lock of Shane Hollander’s heart that was so heavily guarded due to years of hiding and perfectionism? Would she ever memorize poetry in every language just to make sense of Shane and all the atoms that he was made up of?

    or, a meditative character study of Ilya Rozanov as he grapples with the aftermath of the tuna melt scene

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    04 May 2026

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    Ilya knows what he is. He has always known what he is. The word for it in Russian tastes like something you'd scrape off a boot.

    The word in English is bisexual, which is a nicer word, which he has heard, which he does not use. He uses other words. He uses the word his brother taught him. He uses it on himself before anyone else can.

    He grows up. He gets good at hockey. He moves to America. He... falls in love.

    (Or, five times people fail to notice Ilya being queer, and one time they have no choice.)

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    30 Mar 2026

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    Ah, to be queer and closeted, but to be desperate for your community to notice you without perceiving you

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    Shane agrees to do a photo shoot with a friend of Fabian's about the marks hockey leaves. The results surprise him.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    fascinating fic and I would like a full dissertation on it yesterday please and thank you

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    Shane wasn’t his boyfriend. But for a while it had felt like it. They’d been alone in his house. He’d made them tuna melts and watched TV. They’d cuddled like a real couple. And then he had to go and ruin it. Like he ruins everything. The press won't stop talking about Shane and Rose. He's turning into his mother and for some reason, Scott Hunter is the only one who sees him. And it scares him.

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    Ilya spirals after the tuna melt scene and engages in self-destructive behaviors. Scott Hunter notices and refuses to go away.

     

    *This is a stand alone fic and is not related to the others in the series.

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    03 Apr 2026

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    I’ll be quick. It’ll barely hurt Ilya."

    The gun trembled in his brother’s hand as they kept staring at each other, the words almost as pleading as Ilya’s own. If his eyes hadn’t started to sting, he might have seen his brother’s well up as well. Instead, that childish, naive little part of his heart spoke the next words out of his mouth.

     

    "We are family Alexei. We always have been."

      OR: My take on what if Ilya was in Russia when the video leaked. (Updated summary)

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    22 Mar 2026